Sunday, March 30, 2008

As promised,
Jun ping and rickson finally met up yesterday.
obviously, dear and i was there.

hah~
My first time seein a guy soo shy.
Thanks god, ping wasnt tat shy.
which help the situation a little better. x))

basically our dressing code are pretty coincidence =x
dear and rickson wore black skinny and white tee.
ping and i wore black skinny and wore our black cardigan.
is not planned, not copycat, just coincidence. x)

went to have double chocolate ice blended @ mac
while waiting for movie "shutter" time to come.

x)) hehh
shared cheesy pasta with dear,
soo cheesy, soo nice x))

Movie was quite nice,
and its abit scary lah [certain part only]
even ping also close the eyes..hahaaa

after movie,
we went to toilet.
took a picture with ping in the toilet.
hahaa...
and there is tis blur image at one corner
which made mie got soo excited on it.

and tis is where i run up to dear without seeing,
instead of going to dear dear, i went to rickson
and called rickson "DEAR DAER, you see".
den i run to dear after realising i approached to the wrong guy.
3 of them stun,
rickson blurt into laughter,
i was soo ambarrassed lah..

stupid, for the whole of my 19 years,
i had never been soo ambarrassed before.
RAHHHH...
tis is when i stop my eyes contact with him =x
cldnt face him.

den we went to have dinner at marina foodcourt.
before settle down at esplanade for a talk
x))

The nite was fantastic x)
windy and cooling.

at 10.45, dear sent mie home
while rickson sent ping home..
ohh he managed to get her number x)

Ping has a good impression of him,
Rickson had finally found someone who can replace the gal tat he loved for 4 yrs.

Im glad,
and i really do.
hope they can find true happiness
hope they can successfully settle down together.

of cos my duty is just to let them meet up as a fren,
will they become couple, is still up to them.
but deep in my heart i wish ping cld accept him
and rickson cld treat her like a princess.

i noe ping expectation is high,
and rickson hasnt meet her expection.
but in order to get true love and security,
i do feel tat rickson is suitable for ping.

i was kinda stressed up today.
apart from having some problem of mie and dear,
im stressing over ping and rickson.

let mie made things clear,
dear and i are perfectly fine,
just sth else crop up into our love life.

Everything seemed to changed over a nite for both ping and rickson.
ping had some sort of reflection of wad kind of BGR she wan
and sent a msg to rickson.

her intention was good,
she doesnt wan him to waste his time on her.
but it also mean tat she nt giving rick any single chance.
The things hasnt start, and everything is gone.
the hope, the chance tat rick had pinned on, had GONE

i noe the stress that they are going through,
i felt sorry for ping who is having some breakup phobia
and afraid of getting into a relationship,
i felt sorry for rickson who finally able to step out of the dark world,
and givin himself another chance to be in love.
and now, it seemed like he had fallen from the heaven to the hell.
it just hurt mie soo deeply to see them like tis.

how?
in wad way can tis things be resolve?
in wad way can ping think thru abt whatever she had thot?
i doesnt wan her to regret in future,
i doesnt wan her to fall hard after playin too much.

in wad way can rick pull it through again?
i doesnt wan him to lose confidence animore
i doesnt wan him to feel his useless

haishh...
tis topic is kinda killin mie,
let mie make things clear, im not trying to pull them together,
im giving them a chance to decide too,

if they are happy abt the ending be it a postive or negative,
i would feel better.
But they are not.
They are worrying mie instead.

is nt about getting together tat i care,
but the feeling tat i concern about.

No matter what happened,
i will always be there for you guys,
take care x(
doesnt wan to see anione of you get hurt

today went to dear's house
after paying respect to grandpa,

and den his bro sent mie home before sending him to camp,
on the way back home my heart sank.

why does all the good things haf to come to the end?
The chance of Meeting him almost everyday is over.
Everything is now back to normal,
normal routine,
Having nite out on wed,
Having book out on fri.
haishh,
im missing dear,
even before he walked mie to my hse
tears just flown down my cheek while he walk mie to my house.

sighh...

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