ENOUGH!
i had enough of all that.
HER;
Im stress up with ur sms.
You occured to be pushin me to a corner
& expect a answer from me.
im no longer able to take it.
I wish i could said those things yet nt hurting you
but i cant
I JUST CANT
& haf to keep it to myself!!
cos i Noe you are stressin with ur polymate,
i doesnt wan to add on to ur burden
Cant you understand i still care for you?
But it seem you had always been mistaken my words time & time again.
Even if i tell,
You would say im protecting Jaren
A urge of giving up on you.
A urge of hack care abt the "Coldness" tOpic
cos i Noe you wont Noe where you went wrong.
Never; you gonna realised abt it urself.
Ur smses simply hurt me too deep
Ur understanding simply disappoint me
DAD;
& stupid you.
who nag & raise ur voice at me
when i did nth wrong.
WTH do i deserve such treatment from you.
YOU PIG, YOU COW, YOU !@#!@#
HIM;
Stop stressing & pushin me to a corner.
Stop askin me why am i being so unfair to you
by giving jaren a chance.
like though i didnt gave you in the past.
How many forgive & chance do you expect from me?
If you wanna prove me wrong,
you had done it earlier on.
There isnt any reason why jaren dun deserve a chance
"Quit smoking for you" sound sweet
But sorry!
I once said, quit for urself & family, NOT ME
& i dun gain anithin tooo.
I haf no choice but to become someone unfamiliar to you.
I hate doing it.
I hate sayin things to hurt you futher
but you are forcing me to say more.
I hate severe friendship ties.
Is you who pushes me to end all this.
Im sorry, but TOO BAD!
im simply too pissed to use the word "F" in sms
& said 4 times on the phone!
I cant believed i said all those words & i hated it.
I cant believed i slam my fist on my thigh & said "F"
Im simply in a shitty mood
cos of you, who tried to push me to do sth tat i hated all along.
shldnt it be a tearin day for me
when you ask "haf you ever love me before"?
wad kinda sort of question are you askin me?
are you doubtin my love all this while?
Isnt my sacrifice & doings prove you tat "I DO"?
why am i being so sweet if i dun?
How many time must i tell you
when i love someone, i will go without a pausing stage
till he hurt me lots
& making me to give up on him,
i would do it without failed.
Im fine if ur fren doubt me,
But how could you?
it hurt; yet i cant tear bt pissed.
There again,
i told jaren you are quite a good catch.
cos you had the criteria of my "imaginery husband".
Im still thinking of the wedding, house, family that we once discuss on.
but still its feeling that matters the most to me.
YOU 3 STOP STRESSIN ME
how long more do i haf to hold on to it?
had been hanging onto it for 2 weeks!
IM EXHAUSTED!
I wish i could drop a tear
& let it flow to drain
perhaps i could feel MUCH BETA
instead of fuming inside me
& hurting myself physically.
Not a single tears drop.
PATHETIC!
GOD; could you let me shed a tear to make me feel BETA?
GER;
Im glad that you told me ur prob
Im glad that you allow me to find & accompany you when you are down.
Cos i had always wanted to be there for you, if possible.
& this time, i rushed down after my meeting at 9.30pm.
No matter what, dun think too much,
what you need is juz to talk thing out with her x)
well well,
i guess is our first time talkin when its drizzlin
i guess is our first time walking home from vivo when its still drizzlin yeaa?
kinda love the rain drops x)
Just wann let you know,
you could count on me no matter hw stress i am.
cos i could hide myself well.
without failed, i would push aside my stuff just to be there for you
Wishing you lots of happiness!
Muack
Just wanna put everything aside
& forcus on studies and red cross oversea project.
I believed; im strong
I believed; nothing could defeat me
I believed x)
God; pls give me the power to endure all these
& able to stay strong & cheerful
without failed