Wednesday, May 24, 2006
How can i find my way back?
Today stay back during recess time to see Anastasia Chef and Ai Yue Chef...euu noe aiyue chef made a wonderful cheese cake...and anastasia chef made a wonderful chessy baked chicken...well one thing i need to admit is that both of these dishes are well baked...hahaa...actually not only i stay back...cheryl geradine genervive minnie misa and sandy also stayed back..hahaa..."wo men you kou fu lo"..IT's really very nice...next time asked them to baked for euu k?? must really try..!! hopefully they can manage their time well not like today...need so many people help...hahaa..also hope that next week practical exam they can bake as nice as today.After testing out the food...we had lots of fun taking photos...but one of my favourite photos that we took is this:
Minnie(left), Geradine(centre),Mie(right), Genervieve(back)
Went home around 5.45pm..thus reaching home at around 6.20pm...My brother told mie that my mum wants me to help her wash vegetable...Diao!! rite?? But is alrite...it's an easy task for mie..heh heh...i think i really too bo liao that i even go took a few photos of the washed vegetables...hahaa...To be honest...i arrange until very neat horr..??
23 May 2006
Today kinda busy for mie and jessica..haha..cos jessica brought dvd player to school..so during 2 hour+ of free period...we are watching show..smart right?? surprisingly teacher din scold us...hahaa...maybe they trying to close one eye ehh?? haha =D
Started missing him after leaving him for about 2 days?? I dunno why..i realli dun noe why i miss him suddenly?? am i doing the right thing by leaving him cos i dun wan him to suffer, feel stress and sad abt our relationship. Yes i'm selfish...i decide abt the break off without his agreement. But to mie...only this will make him feel much better. I just feel that i'm such a failure...i can't even be a 24 hours good, caring girlfriend.Furthermore, i'm such a useless person...cos i dun even noe wad i wan and wad i feel abt him. For a moment i love him deeply...dun wish to lose him, but for a moment i feel that i dun love him at all...i just couldn't sort out my feeling although i realli tried.
Why is it like that?? In the first place i love him so deeply and willing to do wadever he wan. But recently my love for him is no longer as deep as last time..is it because in this relationship, we had lots of break up and thus my feeling for him is faded bit by bit?? Oh gosh!! wad's happening to mie?? I'm lost!! How can i find my way back??
To be honest, he really changed a lot for mie...he used to be a hot tempered person..but becos of mie he no longer as hot tempered as last time. He used to be selfish by taking away all my time away, but now he gave mie time to do whatever i wan to do. He used to ask mie do something that i dun like...but now he won't force mie if i dun feel like doin it...he's a nice guy...realli...he dun flirt with gurls or even go look for prostitute unlike his stupid friends...they are a bastard to mie..well...i dun use the word "bastard" whenever i like...but to mie they are realli a bunch of bastard. Every week book out from camp sure go look for prostitute without their girlfriend knowing it. That's why i dun wish to see his's friends.
I think i really sot sot liao...hahaa..slept too much in the afternoon and thus couldn't sleep at night...guess wad i did in order to sleep?? lolx..dun laugh k?? i actually took many photos of myself..hahaa...it sound lame to euu but i just simply love taking photos!! well...i haf to admit tat i'm kinda zhi lian ever now and then..=x it's normal cos my friends are also as zhi lian as mie..=D Anyway it does put mie to sleep after taking many zhi lian pictures =x
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