Feeling tired, irritated, frastruated, heartbroken, moody and sad...wah!! can die arhx...so many feeling inside mie..>.<'' If i say i din cry is confirm fake one..First time having this kind of feeling...Feel like screaming...but den if i scream here...people will say i crazy...the best place to release your stress and ur problems is screaming at the beach...haish..hopefully tomorrow will be a better day for mie..
Firstly, i gonna thank geradine for being there for mie when i'm feeling down. Finally found someone that i can talk to...usually when i got any problems..i will keep it to myself...haha...to me not everything you can tell your friends...friend like geradine...you can tell her ur problems with peace...friend like jermaine...tell her like telling to a wall like tat..and soon the whole class will noe abt it...=x friend like minnie...can only tell her certain stuff..friend like jessica..sometime also bo chap bo chap one...especially when you are settling relationship. Friend like cecillia...also a nice person to talk to...but den she will only have this sentence: if i'm you i will wad wad wad...and soon you will realised in a conversation there will be full of "TMD" =x
To: Geradine Xun Nu...really thanks for being there for mie for the whole day..hahaa..and i gonna thank you in advance for accompany mie tomorrow afternoon...haish!! tomorrow is just like a war to mie..cos i will be facing him again..dunno how i will react -.-'' cos i realli cannot forgive him for wad he had done to mie...i hate people shuo hua bu shuan shu...like tat Kelvin Ng Jia Qian...By the way...wadever i told euu today..please do not tell vanessa about it k?? i'm afraid vanessa might tell him...I dun wanna let him know..cos i have decided to walk out of his life...i have decided to make him walk out of my life although his footprint will always remain in my heart...Tomorrow i will explain to him everything...from today onward he and i are no longer friends let alonecouple...both of us can only be tutor and tutist...really have no choice but to do that you noe? i dun wish to..but if i dun do that...all of us will get hurt at the same time..(T.T) Tell mie wad should i do??
Now my biggest worried is how am i going to explain everything to my dear next weekend?? He book out today...and he keep pestered mie with lots of questions...i wanna tell him cos i do not wish to hide anything from him..i feel bad about it. But den i did not cos i promised him i will tell him everything face to face..i really had no idea how he will react when he noe it? How will he treat mie if he know it? Will he keep his word "double the hurt that i had given him??" Or will he asked for a break up?? i dunno i really dunno..i noe how he feel...cos it happened to mie before...When he told mie...i really couldn't take it...
Haish...tell him i also die...dun tell him i also die..might as well tell him..see wad he will do...at least i won't hide from him..but even if he forgive mie soo wad?? he will compared here and there...den will always have frequent quarrel again...haish..nvm..it was all caused by mie..i shall face it although i tried to run away from the problems...This time really cannot run away liao..must solve it as soon as possible..cos it's getting complicated...like wad geradine said...this issue is getting horrible andcomplicated...hahaa
I'm feeling very weak now..i'm tired of all this...i hate it..i hate myself..i hate him..i hate my dear...why must they treat mie like tis?? How i wish something will happen to mie (coma?? lost memory??)..haish..at least i won't think too much..
But i think i kinda funny...i here sad sad liao..still listening sad song...(Autumn In My Heart)Qiu Tian De Tong Hua..dunno lah...i love sad song especially korean one...cos you dunno what they singing...den when you sad you go listen to sad song...den you will do some reflection about what had happened...den you will cry..den you might feel better...=x i noe is a childish method lah...haha
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Can't wait for tomorrow..cos i going to cut my hair together with geradine lo!! Weather soo hot..hahaa..but den dunno wad to cut leh..maybe let that person anyhow cut...hahaa