Tuesday, October 24, 2006
Missing him
The time now is 12.05pm...yep must be wondering how come i reached home soo early yea?? haa!! mie playing truant =x well..not onli mie la...is the whole class...cos no point staying also..most of us go school just for chemistry lesson..tat's why after chemistry lesson all zhao!!...cos lesson after chemistry is account den recess den PC den math den social studies...account teacher not conducting any lesson...den PC is a waste time period...ask we all wear heel den walk up the stage..."practice for our graduation day"...den social studies teacher also never go school...den math lesson...haish...forgotten to bring the questions tat i wanna ask her...soo even if i attend math lesson also no use...yep will ask him insteadAniwae tomorrow i not going to school...cos christmas day celebration ma...halfday..so no point going school and waste time..plus performance confirm very boring one.."yep last year...last day of school"...i should go rite?? but haish..no one going sia..can't possibly ask mie to go alone with jessica rite? -.-''
Took two photos of my laogong today..haish..misses him soo much...today is my last time seeing him le...LAOGONG!! NI YAO BAO ZHONG! today see euu like soo sian sian...like sick like tat...haish...soo heartbroken sia..do euu noe when euu meow one time my heart crack a bit...why?? why euu meow until soo soft?? are euu sick?? or u can sense tat euu won't be able to see mie again..tat's why euu sad?? haish...not i'm being too sensitive...even jermaine also feel tat laogong like very sick like that
Jermaine: Why ur laogong like very sick?
Mie: He suffering from Love Sick
Jermaine: You go and die la
Mie: Really!! Cos he noe i'm leaving le...soo he miss mie ma
Jermaine: You dun come soo thick skin
Mie: You never see he suddenly like soo close to mie meh? Usually also not like that...
Jermaine: hmm...make sense..but euu dun anyhow think
Mie: haish...last time seeing laogong le..gonna miss him badly >.<
Mie: Why!! Why!! why are euu [laogong] always like that? When i miss euu so much...euu dun seem to be close to mie..sometime ask euu come down also dun wan to come down...when i dun miss euu that much..euu soo close to mie...You noe euu only made mie sad only...and euu made mie miss euu even more? You like that he also like that...wad the hack euu guys wan?
OMG!! i'm feeling very terrible!! i misses *him* a lot...i hope i can control my emotion..but i can't...the dream had a great impact on mie...i just couldn't forget about that dream..and i can't stop thinking about the dream..Been questioning myself with lots of questions..."Why this and why that"? Been wondering why he suddenly treat mie soo cold...it's soo not *him*
You will never believed that i cried last nite...yay!! on the phone with mama somemore...i told mama everything...i told mama how i feel...i told mama about my thinking...i can't believed that i cried just because i misses euu slightly more than before...why?? why is it like tat?? why must things turned out to be this way??
You know i still do Miss You,
you know it long ago.
you read my blog entries [hardly],
But thanks for keeping silent
Do you noe last night i cried just because of you??
And i can't believed that!
i couldn't control.
i couldn't stop thinking of you.
i wish i'm able to control my mind
I wish i can stop thinking of you
I wish i can forget about that dream
i wish i could stop.
Reallie
Missing You
I'm Missing You
I have no idea why i miss you soo much out of a sudden
Even if i noe..i will not tell euu
Cos you dun deserve to noe
And i wanna hide it from you
Thinking Of You
I'm Thinking Of You
I just couldn't stop thinking of you
I think of you when i wake up
I think of you when i go sleep
I think of you during recess
I think of you when im going home
I think of you when im doing my self study
I have no idea why i keep thinking of you non stop
Even if i do
I will keep it to myself
No matter what conclusion i get,
I will not let euu noe anything about it
I dun see the point
It's useless even if i tell you
If wad my friends said are true,
I gonna stop it from happening
There are lots of reasons for it
But i won't let euu noe a single thing
To: geradine and Jessica
So now euu noe what the dream was exactly about...euu noe how i feel..you noe wad i'm thinking..euu noe why i'm doing this..and euu noe why i'm soo confused about it...Now you noe everything about it...keep it a secret between the threee of us yea? Dun tell anyone about it...Dun wan *him* to noe about it...cos if he noe...the things that he gonna explain to mie will be hurting..i dun wan to get hurt..i dun wan to listen..and i dun wan to noe anything about the dream..euu can say i'm escaping..bt i dun care...I hate to escaping...it won't work...it won't help mie at all...but For this issue i choose to escape cos if i were to face the reality...i will only end up hurting myself again and again [i guess??]...*hug hug*
To: Nick and Bryan
Thanks for your listening ears...Love you lots...Especially my mama... sunshine wasn't there...but thanks [mama] for being there for mie when i needed someone like you..thanks for listening to my problems..hope i didn't scared the hell of euu when i told euu i cried...i will try my best to be happy again...try my best to stop thinking about the dream and *him*...but wad i can say is it's difficult to do soo..cos i simply miss him soo much...>.<'' argh!!