I'M TIRED
I'M REALLY TIRED
I DIN SLEEP WELL EVERY NITE
WANNA STAY AWAY FROM BOOKS NOW
BUT I CAN'T
I CAN'T GIVE UP NOW...
14 MORE DAYS TO GO...
I wanna score well
I wanna score as well as my cousin
Ya!! i'm competing with her
A cousin from special stream
I noe i'm not up to standard
She got the ability to scold less than 10 pts
I know i can't
But what i request is to get 12 points
Just 12 points...
Not having a big difference in our points
Able to enter the course i want
Able to go poly
Able to please my family members
God, i just hope euu will be by my side
Helping mie to stay calm and relax
Not having soo much troubles
Knowing what i'm learning
Bless mie please
For math..it's quite okay...think i can just pass...cos the questions were rather tricky...>.<"' And it's harder than last year old o level and this year june paper...Nah!! gonna admit tat my school paper was easier than o level paper..-.-'' hopefully paper 2 are much more easier...and hopefully my paper 2 can pull my marks up...*pray*
Today i asked geradine to tell mie wad adrian said to her..and she showed mie a sms sent by him...this is what he said:
Sigh she say i always call at wrong time. Say not free have to study for exam. I wanted to meet her she say not possible until o level finished. Say is true not excuse. Yesterday she met a guy. Everyday late night she on the phone with someone. If is i call sure wrong time. Someone else sure correct time. If is me sure not free. Someone else sure free...
What the hack is he up to this time?? telling my darling all these...trying to break us up?? trying to tell people what type of person i am?? how i treat him etc...?? wad actually is he up to?? telling my friend all these for wad?? as in what he wan her to do?? Just let mie do what i want...he got no right to interfere into my personal life now..yay!! i admit...i admit tat i dun stay up till soo late in the past..i admit i dun talk to people till that long in the past...but now i can..what he wan mie to do?? i was surprised that i can talk for long hours..i can stay up til late nite...
Sorry!! i won't get affected by all this again...nasty words to describe mie i already heard before liao...i learnt it..i take it..and i'm strong!! i'm not going to shed a single tear cos of this ever again..i dun care who will be the next person who say i'm a bitch i'm a slut i'm a flirt i'm a prostitute or wadever nasty words that euu people can think of...go ahead and say it..it won't affect mie anymore..I dun care what denise jie and what jkl kor gonna think of mie this time...most probably they gonna think that i changed and lalala etc...go ahead and think what euu all wanna think...i just hope that euu people will be more understanding cos there are certains things euu won't noe...and euu won't understand why i will become like that...yay!! i admit i have changed..i changed alot...i no longer those super guai type..im not going to do what people say...i'm gonna be myself..i'm gonna defend for myself...i'm not going to be a dog even if im in a new relationship...and i won't do things that i dun like..
And what the hack?? Since when i met a guy yesterday?? I was staying at home the whole day studying and busying with my social studies..and he come accused that i met a guy..?? YAY!! I MET GUYS!! MY DAD MY BROTHERS?? Happy?? =.=''