Can feel tat he's avoiding mie again
Duno why is he doing this...
Never mind...
I get used to it ler...
Soon...
It's Over...
We was chatting in msn last nite..
Enjoyed chatting with him...
He's not avoiding mie again...
and tis was what happened.....
Chat...
............Chat
.......................& CHAT
The whole nite i was chatting with him...
yep i'm happy...
tat's pretty obvious...
cos very long din chat with him until like tat...
Do him a favour...
and tat is create a new blog for him...
Put in lots of effect into it..
Searching for nice blogskin
But failed!!
It's alrite...it doesn't matter
cos helping him to create a new blog
was what he requested..
i know he won't mind if the blog is plain..
Went to sleep at 3am plus...
Morning...
He sent mie an sms regarding his blog...
He thanks mie...
He gave comment...
etc...
From there...
we smsed each other...
we smsed alot...
I was very happy
I love it to be this way...
Just an sms from him made mie feel
...soo High
.......soo Excited
My love for him hasn't change at all...
Not even a single bit..
I swear...
& Soon...
We talked about us...
& Very Soon.
i teared again...
Nope...
He didn't bully mie..
He didn't say anything tat hurt mie...
Is just tat...
i had came up with a conclusion
about what he said...
"There are somethings
i will never change for her or anyone.
it will be going against my nature.
Just as i do not want you
to change for mie & suffer".
My conclusion is...
No matter how much i love him
No matter how long i keep the feeling i had for him
No matter how much i wait for him
No matter how badly i wanna be with him
It won't happen...
IT WON'T HAPPEN!!
And it JUST SIMPLY IMPOSSIBLE
for us to be together
even if he still have feeling for mie!!
im sad
I'm heartbroken
I'm disappointed
&
I'm lost...
what should i do?
why do i love him soo much?
why is he such a good guy?
why why why?!?!
I feel like killing moiself...
8 months!!
8 MONTHS
I have feeling for him for 8 Months!!
4 Months
4 MONTHS..
We didn't meet for 4 months le..
yet i can't even forget about him...
yet i still love him soo much...
and i'm soo wrong about myself...
i thought i could forget him through working
But i'm soo wrong...
It doesn't help mie at all...
it onli help mie think less
I wanna scream it out loud
AhHHHHH!!!
Both geradine & jessica darling
asked mie to forget him..
asked mie to let him go.....
and just remain as friend...
yes i do feel disappointed over what they said
they made mie feel even worse than before..
they made mie cry even more...
i dun blame them
cos i noe they care for mie
they dun wanna see mie getting hurt again
BUT
i dun wan
i really dun wan >.<''
i dun wanna let him go...
i tried to let him go before
but i always failed to do tat...
End up..
i hurt myself even more..
But no matter what...
after april...
i will let him go...
i will try my best to forget him
dun wanna disappoint my darling geradine
dun wanna break moi promise...
they had a point...
no point hanging onto it
and get myself hurt etc...
time will heal
as long as i tried my best