Past few days i felt so weird. Just felt a suddened changed in mie.. Suddenly become soo quiet. Felt soo suffocated in a way. I had lots of negative thinking recently. Thinking about friends, family and my life. I duno why.. I haf no idea what made mie feel tis way.. What i noe is, Im not happy to stay in tis world. I'm not happy about my friends around mie though they did nth.
Wad worse is, what i always dislike/hate doing it.. Suddenly had a urge to do it. Suddenly feel like drinking... Suddenly feel like smoking... Suddenly feel that no one care about mie, and why shld i even bothered about them? Suddenly feel that no one is actually dear to mie [fren] That's include my 5 darlings. Somehow, Somewhat..i felt that we had distant. Only when they got problems, we will talk. If not Silence..
Yes, to you, you may feel tat i'm still as dear to you guys But to mie, i felt tat everything had changed. You may say that you still cherish mie, You may say that i'm still dear to you, You may say that i'm the special one... You can say what you wan. To mie, words does not count. Cos i dun even feel that way.. Touched ur heart, ask yourself... I'm i really that IMPT? i dun feel that way animore. [Not hinting to anione. It's just wad i had been thinking]
Ooohh!! today i'm super attentive during MIC lesson. For the first time i din slp during this lecture sia..heh!! basically i had fall in love with this subject and i wanna do it well..yep i admit i failed my MIC. Somehow it discouraged mie. Bt no matter wad, i will try my best to score well for tis subject. TML I'm having MIC RETEST!! bad news, i haven study yet cos i only get to noe the retest is tmr.. Thanks to someone who tell mie MIC RETEST is end of this mth =.='' kao!! *can't rmb who is it*
Two lectures are cancelled..FON & PAS...haiyoo..stupid sia..left MIC in the middle of nowhere..becos of MIC, have to wait for 3hrs. cos FON lectures is 2hr..den plus our 1hr break. Did nothing during the break..was replying sms to Rui Hao throughout the 1 hr. And is soo darn lame to smsed him la..Guessed wad? He was just 7 feets away from my area. =.='' yea i noe is funni..adora find it funny..can't even control her own laughter lah..haiyoo..
wee u weet!! today i sign up for Fund Raising which fall on 11th Aug. HEH!! is ownself volunteer de. sad la, duration only 3 pathetic hours only and we can get 2 CCA PTS? well, i have to say tis, i joined tis is not becos of CCA PTS...is just that i love fund raising!! i dun really like to donate money but i love to ask ppl to donate..yea i noe i'm crazy!! But well i do donate occasionally. Duno why i'm soo in LOVE with such events..haha!! yesterday wanna sign up for duno what...help to collect newspaper and raise fund. it fall on this coming saturday. unfortunately i cldn't make it cos i got ndp..Zzz..reallie wish i can make it lo..haish!!
I love helping people who deserve my help. No matter how much time is wasted, No matter how tiring it is I will try my best to help them.