Monday, July 16, 2007

wanna quit violin

Just where had i gone to?
I don't behave myself lately.
I was once a committed girl,
Where the hell did she went to?

I love violin,
I really do...
I wish to learn,
But i'm not committed to it..

Didn't turn up for Violin for times le.
Feel like quitting.
I dun feel committed tis time round.
In fact i'm tired of being committed.
I had been committed in CCA since pri 1.
11 years of commitment, with 90+% good attendence per yr.

Felt so bad.
Cos i pang seh my friend cos i doesn't wan to go for violin.
Was doing reflection throughout the whole journey home.
Wish i can be committed again..

Till now,
I'm still not used to poly life.
Presentation is never ending in poly.
I feel soo stressed up.
Every single subject has their own presentation
and is rather confusing when all come at one go...

Suddenly feel soo down.
Wish darling is here.
In the end it was TJJ who was listening to my sorrow.

Who on earth is TJJ?
He's my new guy friend.
Knew him through NDP.
He's my group army in charge for school urshering.

Get to know alot about him.
Yep he looked beng.
He used to fight
Used to scold vagarities
He hate studyin
He smoke
But my impression of him is nt very bad.

He's a very caring guy.
A very nice guy indeed.
Just that he walked to the wrong path since young.
At least he changed a lot.
He's more gentle now
He had quit everything beside Smoking.
Cos cigarette is the only motivation in camp.

I'm just treating him as a friend.
Nothing else.
I wish he can always treat mie as one.
Wish he can get rid of tat little feeling he had for mie.

Didn't tell him i'm attached.
Didn't know how to.
Cos i doesn't wan to hurt him.
Furthermore he treating mie as a friend
Cos we just get to noe each other.
So there is nth to worry abt.
But i'm afraid he will feel tat all tis while i'm cheatin him.
I wish i cld break it out to him...
But whenever i abt to say...
My mouth just shut.

I told darling about it.
Am i doing the rite thing?
Cos i noe he will worry though he trust mie.
But i just wanna be honest with him.

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