Friday, August 03, 2007

Intend to break up.

The whole of past 2 weeks, i had been busy with my presentation. There are a total of 5 presentations to be done. I was quite tensed up during tat two weeks. Basically everyone in my group got soo pissed off and tensed up. And finally, We had completed our last presentation on Monday.

Time to relax?

NO WAY!!

Basically after presentation weeks is Practicals exam and quiz Weeks. For Goodness Sake!! Can't they just give us rest? And what really pissed us off is 1 week ago then informed us about practical exam. Furthermore On thursday i had Both my Nursing skill learning Practical exam and Microbiology Infection Control Practical exam and Anatomy and Physiology Quiz on the same day!!! and after practical it gonna be like exam period again?

The nite before i was studyin like mad..stayed up to 3.15am Just to study my Mic and read through my aap lecture notes. i dun mind staying up late to study etc..bt what really disappoint mie is my results it turn up. I was well prepared for MIC..cos i read and learn everything. Yet i screw up the whole practical. The questions i predicted and kind of questions they usually came up with turn to be soo different!!! All of us doesn't noe how to do. yays there goes our MIC PRACT..[btw it's our first attempt].

1 Hr after MIC practical, we continue with our MIC lesson...den we had our aap quiz..is abit tricky and i just passed..Darn It...did 3 careless mistakes. During tat period, my heart really sank.I feel tat my efford did not pay off.

Instead of being disappointed with my performance, i tried to make myself cheer up a bit...is like what is done can't be undone. what else can i do? Nothing...beside working harder for my MIC theory exam which will be 2 weeks times from now. I gotta pass my MIC theory cos i doesn;t wan to repeat my module next semester. Cos this module is only for this semester only. Ohh..aniwae i had clear my CNP & CITs module le..AT LAST NO PROJECT WORK!! hurray!!

Okay...after the quiz, instead of going 4 lunch,i went to prepared myself for my NSL practical exam. Went to changed and read through some notes. i had lots of time to read through cos i'm the last candidate in my group. and the practical is like 1 person at a go.aniwae i didn't read much cos i noe what to do. I had enough practices during classes. So basically i was rotting at the other class. waited for 3 hrs just for my turn!!

I'm darn HAPPY wif my marks sia..I FAILED.!! and I need a RETEST!! yesh RETEST!!

I would like my examiner to be my lecturer, she is good. But i hate her to be my examiner for practical exam. is soo unfair!! basically the step tat i do and say is what my lecturer had taught mie. Cos those are the pts found in marking skin. In the end this examiner keep asking mie to skip here skip there. Deep down my heart i thot i did sth wrong and was quite worried it will affect my mark. What worse is in the mid of no where she always ask mie questions which really disturbed mie. the questions she asked is like i hasn't been taught before. All my ans is just my assumption? Like come on, this is a practical test, we are suppose to show you how we assess the patient and not here to answer theory question. And dun she think is wrong for her to pause what the student is doing just for her to ask her question? Is like we will get confused. We are not machine. We won't rmb where we stop at. What worse is she keep rushing mie and i was given given like 15 minutes? The first candidate actually took 1 hr? she said she's having 1 to 1 lecture during the practical. [Dragging time at the start, Rushing time at the last] =.='' No wonder my lecturer said sure gt 1 or 2 ppl fail one.

End of the day i was super shag and disappointed. Wish darling was here bt i noe is impossible. I'm no longer looking forward for it cos i noe it's simply impossible. When i needed him he just Cldn't be here for mie to console or cheer mie up. It really piss mie off after accepting the fact tat for the next 3 years he won't be able to be here for mie or even listen to my problems. At tis pt of time,i noe wad i really wan, tat isn't the type of relationship tat i wana be in. Just feel tat going separate way is the best choice for us. Moreover i dun wan him to feel bad about it. See how things goes ba..dun wanna hurt him also..haish

Let mie make tis clear, this has nothing to do with Jun Jie. He may be the one consoling mie and being there for mie. We may be very close with each other. Bt he is not the one who make mie came up with this decision. So people out there pls do not misunderstand us.

At night i was feeling much better. I'm physically tired la.. only had 4 hr of sleep onli. But despite of how tired i was, i manage to stay awake to study for my Psychology and Sociology retest which i had failed by 1 mark during my common test. soo stupid!!

Gotta go sleep le. Gonna wake up early to accompany Jun Jie to ang mo kio. Cos he going to take his driving theory exam. Must give him my support. Also trying hard to motivate him to do well n to achieve his goal. cos he tat kind of guy who had no interest in study..So ya..dun get any wrong idea. After that, gonna go to my cousin hse to pay respect to my grandpa and then go home and study for my monday NSL theory Exam and AAP Pract exam. Last and not least Fri FON Quiz...oohh!! i feel soo stress sia.. HELP HELP!!

ohh yea..i'm thinking of joing Red Cross as my CCA =x i noe it gonna be fun and is something new to mie. yep...i noe i will love it. and i believed it will help mi in many way since i'm studying nursing.

Can't wait fro exam to be over.
Gonna work for money
I'm broke!!
Ever since i din work just becos of my ndp =x

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Friday, August 03, 2007

Intend to break up.

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