Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Gonna hack care abt friends

Today i visited geradine together with adrian [my ex] immediately after school. she went for her scanning when we reached there. abt 40 mins later teh nurse sent her back to the room. and her classmates visited her..aww soo sweet of them..=) yep they bought her some cute soft toy which really perk her up...glad to see her smile and laughing all the way. Bt is pretty obvious tat mie and adrian was left out as we duno them. yep was quite glad tat she has soo many friends who really care for her. At the same time i was rather jealous la..

ohh yea...Justin bought ger flowers...wee u we...hahaa!! tat guy arhx...soo fickle minded...wan to give dun wan to give lidat..cos he duno when is the rite time to give...LOL...hahaa!! can tell tat darling was pretty touched. Quite happy for her. Happy tat she finally find her own happiness...a guy tat really love and care for her and never failed to be by her side. Yep since tat's the case, i shldn't worry soo much abt her ba. cos i noe no matter wad happened, her friends n justin will always be there for her =) IT'S TIME TO TAKE A BREAK FROM ALL THE CRAP...

why do i said tat?
I had ENOUGH of all these!
So wad if i'm nice to my friends?
So wad if i'm always there for my friends?
what did i get back?

What i get is all CRAP...
What i get is just a broken friendship
Or about to, soon to be....

Why do i even bother to waste my time to care soo much?
Lent them a listening ear,
Giving them comment...
In the end NOt happy wif it...?
End up spoiling our good relationship?

I had just lost another close friend of mine.[Not mentioning name]
It really pissed mie off after i find out what she/he thinkin.
Had always been there for him/her since the day we knew.
Wasting soo much time on him/her
Always there for him/her
& Just becos of one bloody stupid issue...
and she/he treating mie like tat?
Always thot tat times will bring us back together.
Bt i was WRONG...
absolutely WRONG!
after knowin what's on his/her mind ytd
I'm GIVING IT UP...
I GAVE UP...

Rahhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!

This is nt my first time losing a fren.
I lost Vanessa due to the quarrel between she and my ex
I lost adrian [after we became friend again] cos we can't communicate.
Now i'm lost him/her
after doing soo much for her and cos of 1 issue she lidat?

And i noe if i'm going to continue concerning one of my close friend
I noe i'm gonna lose her too.
The way she is chattin wif mie already bu shuang already.
If i'm gonna poke my nose into her prob etc...
I noe i can just say a BYE to her.
Though i clear my misunderstanding wif her,
Things not as bad as tat period.
But things wasn't as good as before too.

Soo why shld i simply care for my friends?
I dun see why shld i help my other friend to speak up?
I dun see why shld i be a peace maker anymore
The more i care, the more misunderstanding or whatever crap come.
In the end the one who lose friend ITS MIE.

I'm just gonna spend my time helpin the society instead.
Helpin those who is handicap
Helping those who doesn't noe mie
Helping those who is nt close to mie.
TAT'S IT!

I'm not going to be there for my friends
Not even My close friend animore.
Dun say i'm heartless
Dun say i dun care for you as a friend.
Is you people who changes mie
Is you people who changes my thinking
Is you people who changes my attitude.

I will just live to myself
and no one else.
I will just care for myself
and no one else.
I will just think for myself
and nothing else.

Slowly, i had accepted what people said.

Jkl said before:
"Do not promise when time haven come"
One good eg:
"is all the promise tat him/her had in the past..."
Now is all gone...

Junping said before:
"Everything will come to an end which include friendship"
One good eg:
"Despite how much i do for him/her,
just becos of one thing, all afford is gone."

So sorry friends out there.
If i turn you down,
pls do not blame mie.
I'm no longer able to take it ANYMORE...
I'm exhausted abt all these...

Right now...
After typing tis part halfway,
i went to read ping blog.
I gt no idea shld i be angry or shld i feel hurt abt what she said.
what i noe is I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE
and i seriously BROKE down...

15 Oct 2007 [Monday]
First day of school...have to report at 8am...just becos of briefing...and guess what? My class chairman act smart...thought today gt briefing bt actually is tml..LOL...we dun blame him cos he also dun wan de. so we proceed to our next class...and guess what? the 2 hrs class was cancel?...and there is no class after tat till 2pm...in teh end we had 5 hrs of break =.='' what a wonderful day i had.

While having my break, Geradine darling bf called mie and told mie if i cld go down to NUH as darling had admitted to hospital due to the fall in school. I was soo worried for her and wish i cld just rushed there. Yep, after school met up with dear in clementi and we went to visit her. thanks god it wasn;t as bad as we think. at least she din fracture anywhere? just hope she get well soon ...=)

14 Oct 2007 [Sunday]
Went to Ps arcade to find dear. Went to yamaha and visit bryan for a while since i soo long din see him le.. haha..he soo dao...bt i noe why..=x den walk to bus stop to take bus to gwc nearby hawker to have our dinner. guess what? while walkin to the bus stop we saw mrs leong and her husband. din went to say hi to her cos i feel weird. =x

Ate rojak for dinner..YUmmy!! SOO LONG din eat liao...the food there really nt bad...=D Took a bus to my hse near by playground and yep spend our last day together before we start school.

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Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Gonna hack care abt friends

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