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Friday, January 04, 2008

Reflection about love

Recently there are lots of things happening around mie.
Both GOOD & BAD

First of all, i would like to CONGRADULATE
my dearie, *A*
who had finally ready to give it a try to a BGR
who had finally willing to give him a chance to love & care her
and had finally made up the decision to be with the *him*
Good luck for both of you
and hopefully things goes well for you 2...

was really shocked and surprised that you are even faster than mie xD
But who cares~
No rushing yea?

At the other hand, i felt SORRY to my bestie, *S*
the realationship between her and him is just like mie and dear
both of them love each other deeply in the past,
Not much ppl get to noe abt it
due to religion reason.
Thus they have to keep it silence

Now, she still love him as much
But the guy wanna leave her now.
Doesn't noe the main reason behind it
as i didn't have a chance to meet up with her yet.

*Dearie, just wanna let you noe, no matter what happened both mie and des will always be there for you yep? Sorry that i cldn't meet up with you whenever you asked cos i was working. But i promise you that i will make myself free from anything this coming sat yea?*

what i can say is
Everyday there are new couple forming.
happily together
sharing problem
going through thick and thin together

But there are also couple who are breaking up,
thinking of the past
Crying all the way
trying to be strong
or hoping things will get back to last time

its all happening all over the world,
be it a happy ones,
or a heartbreaking one.

wad i wanna say is,
think carefully before you step into a relationship.
You know the importance of each partner contributin to the relationship,
"it always take 2 hand to clap"
You know what will happened if things doesn't turn up well for both,
You know the responsibilities you are carryin with you,

Once you had decided everything,
No point regreting.
No matter how sad you are
life goes on.
No matter what you think
is all useless.

there again...
Im thinking about dear & i

I know is pretty unfair to him if my friend around mie had influence my thought.
But i was just pretty afraid of steping into something that i might end up hurting myself twice.
cos i really love dear
and i doesn't wan to lose him.

there again...
"i trust him"
but how much do i believe that he truly love mie?
"He wanted to be with mie is bcos of some personally issue"
this thought had been carried with mie for weeks.
How cld i accept him with such a thought?

was it because i feel that i love him more than he does?
was it becos i sacrifice more than he does?
or was it me who had been over sensitive about it?

Even if he doesn't has any intention to be with mie,
but what if one day he leave mie like wad is happening to my fren?
If that's the case,
i would rather i had never been with him before.

But what if...
what if i being unfaithful like last time?
I know i will hurt dear alot...
i doesn't wan to hurt him.
i noe i should forgive myself
and give myself a chance to be faithful once again.
i noe i should let the past affect me.

but...
i duno...

Gotta go rest,
Fall sick again..
darn it..
wad a nice new year =.=''

weather is turning cold..
wish i cld hide under dear's hand during tis period of time.
But i noe i can't cos he just got back home
zzzz~

oh yea...and im working tml!!
with kenny..
his first time there..
soo im gonna be a hotel tour guide to lead him and li ping =)

Happy working yea?
Specially requested to work same function as him xD

"Im all alone when im sick,
where were you when i needed you the most"?

3th Jan 2008 (Thursday)
End school at 2pm and got home to rest
Met up with kenny [ger classmate] @ HF to buy watch for myself
aww...recently soo in love with watches..!
hahaa!! I HAD 3 NOW [includesive of darling xmas gift for mie]

*thanks darling...i love it...muack~
Just that e watch very loose...
Gotta go punch 3 holes =x*

thanks to kenny who brought mie to novena "revenue house" to work on a mini project =P
Gonna get paid $150 after the project =P

Den we went to eat SAKAE!! goshh~
1 year din eat SAKAE liao..
aww...it's still as yummy as ever!! rawkk~

Thnak to kenny who introduce mie "soft shellcrab"
aww it's soo nice!!
had one and a half of it...

Basically whatever we ordered, we SHARED!!
hah!!..
and we spend about $15 each xD

Initially kenny wanted to bring mie to heeren to taste a glass of red wine.
aww soo sweet of him yea?
hah!! it was close =.=''

it's okay!
we will meet up one day to have a drink?

2nd Jan 2008 (wednesday)
Met up with kenny outside my school bus stop.
Made our way to HF to have our yoshinoya.
Always didn't have the time to eat that together cos both of us are schoolin.
Now he having holiday, soo able to eat that together since im gona wait for dear to nite out.

yep kenny treated mie yoshinoya..
and i treat him potato set =)

after lunch we went to shop around vivo and we chated alot.
den went to starbuck as i told him that the cheesecake there was nice.
hah!! didn't had any for myself as i was pretty full after yoshi...=)

aww dear shock mie with his new hair cut
hahaa...look soo beng =x
look exactly like rickson...like brother like that.
xD
But no matter how beng he look, i will still love him =)

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