Sunday, May 04, 2008
Leisure Park
Panda Outside cinema
Panda wanna step me x((
Dear Dear & Mie 
Bought 6 Donuts for $7.20
Its was Pretty NICE!We LOVE it
Snow Flake Donut
Choc Cereal Donut
Double Choc Donut
Double white Choc Donut
Oreo Donut
Choc Filling Donut
Seriously i feel im fat =.=
Taken @ Arcade
Jaren was playing his car game LOL
I Wish i could do that Always
Snap him playing =x
He is Slim & Fit
With 8 pac =.=''
*Envy*
And den we 3 went skating[Leisure park]
Our first time skating
and yep
Im pleased to skate with him x))
Something special
&
sweet
Yet it was distorted on the day itself
x((
Candy Shot of him and jarenLOL
Well Dear look like dancinng instructor
&
Jaren look like Ice skating instructor.
He skate pretty well!
Took a picture with him after my 5th fall =x
How long more will we be like this?
Ice Skating Area
My knee
It pain me terribly
Not physical but Emtionally
No one knows how pain it is
No one know how hurtful it is
-Bleeding LOVE-
Its been a dream to ice skate with someone i love
This day had arrived.
Been looking forward for this day.
But never did i realised i destroyed this dream of mine
If only i didnt kiss him
If only i didnt kiss him
If only my nose is block
If only i didnt go toilet with him
If only i didnt wan to find out the truth
perhaps we would enjoyed the ice skating today.
It was sweet skating with him.
Holding hand and supporting each other when fall
He held me up each time i fall.
No matter how happy or smiley i was
Deep in my heart, is just another HURT
Why?
Why does he wan to hide it from mie?
Why do i even bother to find way to search his bag?
If only i didnt doubt
If only i didnt search
I wouldnt be feeling so HURT
& pretend nth happened at all.
was just showing my strong side of me.
Doesnt wan him to worry during skating.
Why am i so nice?
To even care of his safety?
when he doesnt care about mine feeling?
I felt like a FOOL
to even believed every single words & white lies of his.
He smoked!!
He wanted to talk to me,
but i didnt wish to hear anithin from him.
cuz i noe what he gota say.
Yep i dun wanna hear,
i dun wanna know
&
i CANT BE BOTHERED WITH IT.
How many times does he wan to break my heart?
Its the fourth time i caught him smoking!
Didnt he promised me tat he wont smoke again?
Hasnt he learn his lesson during that 3 days of cold war?
Why do i still find cigar in his bag?
Is the fourth time i caught him
Im speechless.
Im HURT, so hurt that i cldnt feel much pain on my bruise
Im LOST, so lost that i doesnt noe what to do next
Just feel like a FOOL
a Fool that totally believed in him
& doesnt wan to have doubt on him ever since tat day
But why?
Why does he took granted on mie?
How many chance does he wan mie to give him?
How many apologise he wanna say?
How many forgive he wan from me?
How many time he wan to betray my TRUST?
Im exhausted over such issue
Im gave up!
And den you told me the truth through letter.
i know i doesnt wan to have anything to do with you animore.
Again & Again,
you lie to me.
In order to get me,
You lie to me since start.
How could you told mie
"YOU QUITED SMOKING"
when you arent even improving?!?
when you still a hard core smoker?
You are scary!
You are scheming!
Are you being thoughtful for me?
Are you being nice to me?
how cld i trust you ever again?
9 months,
im just like a stupid FOOL
who trusted and believed in you.
To even think that i cld trust you cos we are close.
Never did i expect,
the only guy who i trust in this world,
is the one who betrayed ME all this while.
Why didnt you confess to mie
when i ask you to tell me all the truth the other time?
And even promised you tat i wont be piss?
Why do you choose to hide?
I do hate you!
I hated this love
I regreted knowing you.
What else could i believe you ever again?
I dun wana be fool by you again
Im having doubt in everything tat involved us
Do you noe how scary it is to feel this way?
I love you
But i wanna a break up
Love without trust is a scariest thing on earth.
I feel safer leaving you
Things wil never be the same for us
If only you lie,
and you quited after tat.
If only you lie,
and you improved,
If only you lie,
and told me the truth the other time
Things wont turn up this way.
Is the trust that i cant forgive you,
Not the smoking.