Monday, August 11, 2008

Funeral

Attended 3 Days 2 Night funeral.
Im totally EXHAUSTED.
Jaren too...
Wishing i could K.O on the spot =x

Been busy over there.
Juz wanna do as much as i could for grandma.
I love her
& she's the only grandma tat im close with.
and nw,
i gota lead my life without any grandparent!
i will miss you

With Love,
Just wanna say; You're the best grandma ever

Once again, wanna thank
Jessica
Rei
wei wei & Jun Jie
Calvin & Jeffery
Geradine who sms me
Jun Ping who sms me
Last & Not least, Jaren who has been with me throughout the 3 days.

1st day:
3pm to 7am

2nd day & 3rd day:
9pm to 6.30pm [the next day]

its soo weird laa.
Not tat im staying over nite at his hse,
Not tat he staying over nite at my hse,
but at my relative hse.

hahhaa~
and we both had 2 nightshift together =x

1st nite,
i was discipline enough
to study mental health LOL
woohooo~

I felt darn bad for the 2nd nite.
watched "my gal" wif him
and i fall aslp, leaving him jaga-in the coffin area alone till 5am plus -_-
and den we went up to slp together.

omg, he snore togther with my cousin =.=
zzzzz

basically,
everyone addressing him "my boi" -_-

and my mum pronouns his name EE How as Yi Hao [number 1] -_-

okay basically, on the 2nd nite,
cousin, brothers, me and him
went kallang mac to eat.

Kor kor drove =x
WEEE~

den went geylang da bao food for ah ma =x
and we share oyster. aahaha~

3rd day, jaren was given a task by my mum.
she needed him to look after the void desk when we send ah ma off
cos we cant possibly let guest to look after it.
she made him sound like part of family -_-

aniwae he bought me 2 bottle of crysanthemum
and my bro teased me -_-
"urs from tamp one horr"
thank ahh bro... -_-

hmm basically,
my dad asked me abt him.
I was being honest, to the extend tat i told him abt smoking
& qualification -_-

bt well well,
he didnt say anithin nor show any sign of rejection.

lastly, i told my mum alot about you.
ur studies, ur social life, ur family background.
No idea why i say.
Her comment was: "good for you if you are able to cut down & quit"
cos she noe you are cutting down.

soo yepp.
everyone has been friendly to him.
QI JI, i noe =x

Boi,
Thanks for everything.
Everything you had done for me since the day you fall for me.
Thanks for all the help, concern & support all this while.
Thanks for being there for me, when i needed someone.
Thanks for sacrificing your slp to stay up
Thanks for folding paper for my grandma,
on behalf of her, thanks!
You made me have confident in you
Thanks for making my family accepting you
as you noe, tats what im most concerned about.
You made me understand you more
& i had fallen deeper for you

i choose to let them see you,
mainly becos i doesnt wan to hide from them.
i wan them to noe what type of guy you are.
i wan them to noe you more
i wan them to accept you who who you are,
despite of your past.

partially,
maybe part of me had accept you?
maybe part of me trust you?
maybe part of me feel secure with you?
maybe part of me noe tat my family will like you?
Just a feeling tat i felt weird too.
Im still thinking, why i didnt hide you from my family.
i doesnt noe why i will haf the gut to bring you there
Just the feeling that cant be describe?
xD

in aniwae,
didnt regret showing you to them.
Not bad, almost all saying thank to you =x

LOVE LOVE, boi

Tagboard replied;

Jessica;
hey gal, thanks for ur support! dun worry, marmie is strong alritee? and of cos, i still remember the day when ur fav grandpa passed away, and i had been there to cheer you up. anithin abt you, your past & wad you had done for me, marmie wont forget about it x) soo rest assure alrriteee? somehow, im still thinking about "horse horse" & the happy time we had in the past. Our promises, our plans and everything between you & me. I duno things will get better between us, though you had forgiven me for what i had done. but still, i feel its kinda hard. I noe you had been trying hard to get back like last time. But im sad to say, since the day you passed me the panda biscuit, i didnt pin high hope on us. i noe it didnt change much though you said you had forgiven me. The look in ur eyes had betrayed you. you are afraid of seeing me still. you would look away when i stare into ur eyes. i noe you wouldnt wan to see me unnecessary, let alone going out just between you and me. i feel tat we are over and it gonna take a long long years for us to get back like last time or there wont be next time? anyway, its not important animore. just hope you can lead ur life to the fullest, and forget abt "someone". im sure one day, there will be "such person" who deserve u more. like wad i said, im glad tat you had forgiven me, whether i had given up our r/s is another issue nw. but still, as promised, i would still be there for you whenever you needed me. *hug*

Rei;
OMG GAL, you are too funny laa you! my ah ma dun drink frappucino, mocha or caramel frap laaa... -_-'' she only love drinking "kopitiam" coffeee LOL. hahahaha aniwae i was just joking about you deliverin starbuck coffee to mee laaa.. pig laa.. you think i still gt mood to drink high class cofffee mehh? blehhh... =x aniwae thanks for ur lame msg which made me lol. =x

Ger;
darling.. not tat i didnt tell you. i didnt haf the mood to sms my frens about it. and for sure, i noe you will read my blog. soo i blog it out and you will noe. soo yep, im sorry for not saying, cos i just wanna be alone upon hearing the bad news. i noe you will sms me and gave me ur support bla bla... what i need is a peace of silent in my phone. soo i didnt sms you abt it. and i noe you are having some party thingy, soo i doesnt wan to spoil ur mood also. i did think of telling you and ping, bt i only told ping cos i suppose to meet her on sun for breakfast. sorry for not saying.

and i respect you if you doesnt wan to tell me the reason. In any way, i will be there for you ya. and yepyep... i dun blame you for nt telling me abt it, cos i noe you doesnt wan to add on to my burden. muackkk

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