Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Cried
14 October 2008 [Wednesday]
Sth happened,
i tear at home, den i went for a walk
aimlessly.
walking circumstances,
round telok blangah... passed by many blocks,
many people, many bus stop.
Love found me walking,
and followed me, but then he lost me.
went to find him in bus stop,
he hugged me,
&
i teared even badly on his shoulder.
tis the 3rd time,
he saw me teared.
but tis his first time saw me cried so badly.
i wet his whole arm,
tears couldnt stop flowing down.
i hate it.
i hate showing my weak side,
infront of guy.
dun wanna talk abt it.
everything's fine nw, i hope?
tats no next time yea?
im afraid
:(
15 October 2008 [Thursday]
Tutorial, cancelled.
thus school frm 8am - 11am :)
had nitemare during napping .
force myself to wake up.
understand hw darling felt.
Love came at 2pm.
cos i intend to send him to school at 5pm.
First day of school
:)
wooo
had wasabi fries & sundae.
sighh,
im so hurt.
its a small issue, i noe.
bt the words tat came out frm my dad's mouth,
meant alot to me.
dad saw my pay slip.
Me: "SEE! i nv lie to you. i really go work"
Dad: "aiyeaa.. also duno is real or fake"
-________-''
gt prove, you also wan against me?
forget it!
den he said sth tat hurt me.
Dad: "so wad if you earn money? mum ask you buy bao, you so nv buy"
Me: "mum say if she wan eat, she will call me"
Dad: "You cannot call up and ask is it"?
"still ask her to ask 2nd kor buy"
Me: "cos i noe i will be home late, i dun wan her to wait, so i say why nt ask kor buy"?
*keep arguing, to solve the misunderstanding*
den he come compare me & my elder bro.
Dad: "big bro, still gt buy noodle for us to eat, you lehh, all for urself".
*stop arguing*
went back to my room,
feeling pissed.
meanwhile hurt.
den i teared, LOVE was shock.
come on la.
mum say "she will call me if she wan eat".
since she din call,
wad for i buy?
i ask her ask kor buy, is nt becos i lazy or wan save money
is becos i dun wan her wait till 11 plus.
is there anithin wrong?
I buy food back, dad nt at home, den assume i only buy for myself?
tat time i still spend abt 30 on satay & oyster lor.
den otah alsoo..
I buy otah back, dad ate it, den nw say i nv buy back?
i ask mum, when free, i treat her buffet.
she say ex, den she reject.
so i asked her when go hawker eat eat with daddy & love?
den she say duno..lazy.
den nw my fault laa? say i nv treat family?
praise my bro like praising god lidat.
-darnn you la-
bro hw old, i how old?
he earn hw much, i get my bond pay hw much?
when he at my age, he got buy back a nt?
i spoke to mum
till i cried again, she said i petty
wah lao ehh.
darn you also laa.
next time you unhappy abt daddy,
dun come tell me.
cos IM PETTY!
darn stupud.