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Saturday, December 16, 2006

WHY ?!?!
...WHY ?!?!?!
......WHY ?!?!?!?!
WHY
are euu doin tis to mie?
WHY is there a suddened changed in you?
WHY are you always hiding your feeling from mie?
WHY can't euu tell mie what's on your mind?
WHY you always come and go whenever you like?
Have you ever care for my feeling?
I wish to know what's on your mind
and what you are thinking
I wish you could tell mie personally

Last nite i cried again..was telling Bryan about something...he didn't noe tat i cried..cos i was controlling myself..im lost..i duno what i should do. should i just give up or should i just continue with it? I feel like giving up bt the feeling is too strong tat i can't do it.

This morning i dreamt of him while bryan dreamt of jessica..LOL...who knows we both dream at the same time sia..cos both of us dreamt of them in the morning..funny sia..must be last nite we talked and think too much about them le..haish..think of it...i very long din dream about him le..i love the dream soo much..i wish it will happened..cos i'm simple miss him a lot

Woke up at 2pm cos i'm tired...and i dun wish to think soo much early in the morning..the only way to stop mie from thinking about him is to sleep..=x went down at 3 plus to rent korean show "sad love story" it cost mie $15 ...ZzZzz...soo expensive...never mind la..at least got show to watch..cos i'm not working till thursday...=.= Cos wed and thur fully book le..soo bo bian lor...den stay at home beside using computer what else can i do? afternoon also no show to watch...soo might as well rent a show to kill my time? Another reason is i'm sad...soo wanna watch sad show...well tat's mie..when i'm sad i will listen to sad music or watch sad show...cos when i watch tat show i will be sad ma..den i will cry...den i will think of him...den i even more sad den i will cry even more...den i will feel a bit better after tat...weird mie rite?

Get to know 2 guys yesterday...lol..they are my trainer..lol..anything we forget to prepare...da kor kor will come and tell mie...cos they in charge of the tables tat are right beside mine..haha!! then he showed mie where to get things. he really helped mie a lot...=)

yesterday Soo horrible lor...soo many events taking place in mandarin hotel...utensil also not sufficient...=.='' in the end mie and my partner dun have serving gears...soo bo bian have to use different type of spoon...=.='' Round tray also not enough..in the end have to borrow from da kor kor..soo end up 5 table share 2 round trays =.='' Luckily we are still able to managed...hahah!! duno why sia..everytime the table i served confirm will leave before the last course is being serve [dessert]...heh!! den my friend suzanna's table also..like tat also good la..before dessert is serve to other tables...we already finished clearing our table le..so wad we need to do is to stoned there =x nah..we only stoned for 5 minutes onli...cos our manager kicked the two of us down to the other room [wedding]...cos they need people to clear the table ma..LOL..
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Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Went to see xuan xuan

WoOo!! Miss my blog man!! soo long din blog lee..haha!! bo bian..sunday mon and tuesday soo busy...hehe!! bt i gonna blog everything for the whole of sunday monday tuesday =) aniwae sorry about the previous entries..soo long den post..been busy with my stuff...tat's why took mie soo long to post tat entries

Last sunday..left my house at 8.45am..cos i gonna meet my baobeii jessica at tiong bahru mrt at 9.15am...hehee!! then we go all the way to changi airport mac to have our breakfast...we ordered 2 dif set and we share again...yepyep is my second time eating breakfast with her...and also my first time going airport with her..haha!! ooo...talk about airport..very long din go there le..the last time i went there was past few years =x after our breakfast we wrote letter to xuanxuan..cos xuan xuan coming to singapore to attend the star award thingy...and tat's the main reason why we go changi..lol..ehh it's my first time chasing star..and my first time seeing xuanxuan in real life..omg!! she darn pretty and cute sia.heheee!! yep jessica managed to get her signature for mie..hehe!!

We stay at the airport till 5 plus...lol!! cos jessica's frenz wanna see other 2 hong kong star who are also coming to singapore. den we took a taxi down to st Jame power station..ehh right beside vivo city..cos the star award is held over there..and we got tickets!! LOL..initially we bought the ticket at $4 each...but then last min mie and jessica managed to get 2 free tickets from one of her friend..=) soo jessica actually sold the tickets away...thought she lost $2..bt is better then nth..hahaha!! yea we were super excited about it...however...by the time we reached there...the place was soo crowded..and the arrangement is soo disorganised...soo we din go in and see...is like go in also no use...soo many people see wad? cos it's a flat area =.='' heh!! end up we go vivo city...yep my first time going vivo city with jessica..we had our dinner at kopitiam...yep together with her friends..we bought 2 dishes and 1 drink...den mie and jess share...

well we didn't pay a single cent for any of our meal...mac breakfast jessica wanna treat mie soo she actually use her point to pay for it. For dinner she paid it using her kopitiam card...soo we din pay any single cent. For lunch we share chicken cheesestick at burger king...bt i din pay a single cent..cos jess say she feel very bad about certain thing..so she wanna treat mie tat...i refused bt if i dun accept she gonna say she feel bad..and ya she will be silent for the whole day...=.=''

After dinner her friend wanna go to oriental hotel to wait for xuan xuan..but i dun wan cos if i go..i'm gonna be back home super late...ya and i wanna rest early as i got work the next day...yep jessica pei mie..mainly becos she dun wanna leave mie alone...2ndly after tat day our next meet will be on this coming friday [before i go work]...so she trying to spend more time with mie..3rdly jan she won't be free le cos she going for her 3 mths JC ma..soo duno when will be our next meet after 26 dec...soo after dinner jessica and mie went up to see scenery...it's my first time viewing scenery with her...and it's also moi our first time viewing nite scenery at vivo...

tat area is rather relaxing...but then it made mie think of many things...about the past and the present...duno why the moment we reach there...we tend to be emotional...we start to think a lot...when i was there i almost cried...and i really wanna cry bt i was controlling myself...cos jessica was there..i dun wan to affect her feeling or even make her cry...if you guys wanna ask mie why i wanna cry? moi answer will be just feel like it...i have no reason why i wanna cry..there is nth bothering mie or wad...but just feel like crying and feel better after tat? yay crazy girl rite?

I was thinking about moi ex and him...thinking about how mie and my ex get together, how i celebrate his birthday and the moment he put on the necklace for mie...and how we ended up in the end. Was thinking about him...the things that he said on the phone and vivo, the snowman in vivo, the pond when he make another him to walk in the water etc...was thinking about the day when we hug, the way we noe each other through phone call, the way he bully and tease mie, the things tat i made for him, the way i fool him, last and not least..the most memorable things tat he ever said on 20 November 2006

aniwae mie and jessica took 100 plus photos..lalalaala!! shocking ehh??

On monday..Woke up at 12pm..went out at 2.30 cos i gonna meet cheryl suzanna and minnie at the hotel checkpoint at 3.30..yep wanna go there early to eat our dinner, get changed and explore the hotel before we start work at 5pm sharp. cos it's our first time working there ma...no harm going there early rite? haha!! yep asked cheryl to meet mie in 124 bus...will sms her when my bus about to reach her bus stop...yep she din miss the bus..however we gotta get down the bus at the other stop..cos this cheryl forgotten to bring her registration form...went to take 123 bus after tat cos we gonna meet nana at far east plaza cos she wanna make her shoe bigger =.='' yea last min work -.-'' Soo the bus stop at cine and we gotta walk all the way to far east plaza...ehh actually we din walk...we run...den from far east plaza run all the way to mandarin hotel...our leg was darn pain..cos we wearing our black formal shoe with heel -.-''

Went to the checkpoint and get our security pass..however we can't cos our name wasn't register..lol!! cos we din hand in the form =x soo we have to go the the HR office and register...by the time we register it's already 4.20pm...den we run all the way to get our uniform..bt then the auntie say we can't get our uniform..cos we need to have our code...we stunned..cos we have no idea wad code she talking about? den she said code from security pass...den we chiong all the way back to the checkpoint and get our security pass...phew..tiring sia!! den chiong back to get our uniform...get changed and we left 5 minutes to eat our dinner..lol...after dinner we chiong all the way to 5th floor [ballroom].

well gotta say tat we must be independence...euu must have the intiative to noe and ask where to get the plates bowl, how to arrange it, how to set up things...how to fold napkin...etc...all this euu have to noe it by urself..there won't be any senior there to guide you or wad...euu duno euu have to ask urself..but thank god..luckily on monday we have enough staff...hahahaa!! tat's why i only need to handle one table somemore it's near the kitchen...lol...yep it's a AIF gala nite dinner...it's fun to work as waitress though it's tiring...cos you have to walk alot..the only thing i dislike being a waitress is euu have to rush...euu have to be clear in term of instructions. For example...my god sia..first day of work i already see chef and person in charge quarrelling sia...the person in charge asked we all to go to the kitchen and get the cold dish and walk out of the kitchen...and assemble outside the ballroom...while walking...the chef shouted at us and asked we all to go back to the kitchen..put back the plate etc...den the person in charge get pissed off with the chef den they end up quarrelling for 2 minutes...etc..=.=''


Did talked to some of the female staff...but didn't talk to male staff...approached female staff for help rather than male staff..haha...ooo yay!! i did talked to a guy...bt is bo bian one...cos the guest wan drinks ma...soo must go approach to him..then he will get mie the drink tat the guest one...okay...apart of telling him what drinks i need...and apart of him asking mie how many glass of drink i need...he asked mie "you first time working here"?...then i approach him again..he malu mie la..wah liew...

He: you wan mentoes?
Mie: ehh..i dun wan..thanks
den he whispered to mie: "why euu speak soo soft"?
Mie: huh?
He: why euu speak soo soft?
Mie: ehh..duno =)
He: Den he smile..you noe i can't really hear you
Mie: oo realli? ehhh haha sorry =)
*run away with the drinks*

yep work OT...funny rite?? 1st time working alrieady work OT liao..haha but's normal...yep soo end up i work until 1.30am..haha!! and by the time i reached home already 2.30am plus...yea it's my first time going home soo late...=.='' though i was happy about this job..cos my performance wasn't tat bad...at least i noe almost everything etc..but then i was super pissed off with the security guard. he this stupid idiot pig!! scolded at mie for nothing...cos he said i missed the last bus to my area..and like come on which part of his eye saw "telok blangah" in the list?? told him there isn't any name "telok blangah" in the list...and he keep scolding scolding scolding and say the bus got go there..i should take the bus which got go to the ang mo kio...liek come on?? ang mo kio is one end...my area is at the other end...okay fine...let's say he is rite...the bus got go to my area...den my fault meh? asked him about it..he asked mie to look at the list which the list din write my area...like as if i can predict.."ooo..although "telok blangah did not appear in this list, but i can predict tat bus A got go tat area"...come on lor..people also first time working what...stupid idiot...scold mie until like tat...somemore still use vagarities..he really scold mie until i almost cry...really...no one has ever scold mie until like tat...even if i did a serious mistake in school...my teacher only say mie onli lor..also never scold mie..parent scold mie also din scold mie until like tat..who is he man?? just a stupid security...low position, easy job with low pay..yet come and scold mie as if he's my manager?

Yesterday [tuesday]...as usual we went there at 4pm...cos we dun wish to rush here and there..haha!! yep my leg was super pain after standing and walking for soo long on monday...yep got blisters behind my foot..walk tat time darn pain sia...no choice but to put plasters behind..lol..i put 3 plasters on my right leg and 1 plaster on my left leg...finally i understand how doob and mama felt...lol...now i finally understand why doob walk until soo loud..cos when euu leg pain euu can't be bother how noisy it is..euu just wan ur foot to hurt lesser while walking...actually i was controlling the pain ever since i step out of my house to work...pain until i really wan to take out my shoe and walk on dirty floor...

As usual had alot of staff for the day...ehh even more than monday..soo i din get to handle one table..instead i have to follow one of the auntie..lol..the auntie will train mie..bt horr..the things she trained mie is like i all noe liao..lol..starting was rather boring...cos i got nth to do but to stand there...den the auntie ask mie to stand there look after the things...in the end the captain walk passed den ask mie "why stand here? go serve the guest" =.='' didn't get the chance to explain to her...


Today [wednesday] is my rest day...not working till friday..den sat, sun and mon...will work on tuesday to saturday for next week...luckily today not going out or working arhx...if not confirm die liao..cos i wake up at 2pm..and i happily thought is 8plus? i'm physically tired..lol..when i wake up..OMG!! i feel terrible sia...my toe is soo numb...as in from last nite numb until this morning..then my feet is hurting...then my palm wrist, thigh, hand are cramp... tomorrow i will be going out...need to buy shoe...my feet buey tahan liao..the shoe made moi leg very pain sia..cos the size just nice..need to buy one size bigger..lol..

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