As usual had a conference with Pig and Cat last nite...haish...This is the first time i heard doobie cried on the phone...and is the second time for nick. Haish just hope he will not think too much...and hope tat he is feeling better today...hehe!! at least last nite we managed to make him laugh...wee!! ya!! Through singing a bdae song to him -.-'' He asked mie to sing...den i also very shy and wasn't prepared for it..somemore nick was there..lolx!! End up i managed to pull nick along..lol!! Cos i dun wanna reject doobie ma...he already soo sad liao..imagine i reject him..i dunno how he will feel sia...And happily..this Pig go record our singing -.-'' i got no ear to listen..no eyes to see...Cos mie and nick keep laughing non stop while singing!!
Wake up at 7am...yep had 2 and a half hour of sleep again -.-'' GOSH!! was darn tired...bt bo bian...gonna meet jermaine at Bukit Merah Interchange at 7.45am before meeting jessica and minnie at tiong bahru at 8am..cos we going to Red Star Restaurant to have Dim sum with Jessica and minnie!! hehe!! Yep jessica's dad drive us to there..and heh!! He treat us...Soo nice of him rite??...Right!! we are really mad...wake up early in the morning just to eat Dim Sum...somemore we are wearing School Uniform..cos we got chemistry lesson at 11am...-.-'' And happily the waitress thought jessica's dad as our teacher...and she happily said this: "Order somemore Dim Sum lo..since your teacher treating you all"...lolx!!
Went back to school after our Dim Sum...Reached school at around 10.15am...and guess wad we did?? We went round the school to take photos!! The best moment to takes lots of photos...Cos no student ma..den can do stupid and lame post...haha!! Took a lot of funny photos at different part of the school...well the main purpose is to keep it as memory...Tat's why the venue is at different part of the school...=D yep...finally i understand why actor and actress need to touch up when they take photos...cos a simple things like tat...can make us sweat!! -.-''
Went striaght to Bukit Merah Mac to have tuition...Was darn happy about it...although it was raining heavily...and we got no choice by to run under the rain...and thanks to the puddle of water on the floor..made my shoe wet onli -.-'' and yep i bang onto the wall...cos we have to run fast from one building to another..cos we can't stop immediately we reached the building...but luckily i din bang my head..lolx!!
Finally saw Calvin...was soo darn happy about it..And yep was looking forward to see him after my chemistry lesson.. i was so happy when i finally get to see him..i miss him badly!! It had been 3 weeks since our last meet..i was shocked when i see him..his hair is soo spiky and it look good on him..his dressin wasn't tat casual also...tat tee shirt he wore is soo nice!! It look nice on him...=D well i gonna admit tat this is the first time i see him wear until soo nice...=) The only thing that made mie stunned is he put on weight le...Cos recently he seldom go gym due to his tight shedule...But that doesn't make mie change my feeling for him...
Haish...i gonnaa admit tat i dun miss him as much as last time though i stil miss him badly...well i thought i finally can forget him at least a bit...i was somehow happy about it..cos i had made up my mind to forget about him...Same reason..Just feel tat we are impossible...but i was wrong...After today...i finally realised tat my feeling for him is still very strong...i still love him as much as last time..Well tat wasn't the main topic i wanna tok about...instead i wanna say tat i'm super sad and feeling confused... I started to think in a negative way again...I'm worried right now...i'm afraid he got someone he love...Just feel tat he got someone in his mind...juz feel tat he went dating with a girl after our tuition... I have no idea why i think in this way...Just feel that his attitude toward mie change...
In the past he used to call mie at least 3 to 4 times per week...but now?? ever since my prelim start he din call mie at all...yep i asked him not to call mie during the period when i'm having prelim...but how about after prelim?? He din even call mie at all...well..i managed to look at the positive side..and keep telling myself maybe he is busy with his work..or he is too tired to call mie...Then in the past he always sms mie..and whenever i sms him..he will reply...now?? He din even reply some of my sms...well..i managed to look at the positive side..and keep telling myself maybe he duno what to reply or nth to reply...or he was busy at tat moment...But now?? i just couldn't continue to think at the positive side..wadever on my mind now is negative thinking...yep asked myself some old questions again..."Wad will i do if this is true" and "How will i react when this is true"..maybe i'm just being too sensitive le..maybe he's with his buddy or wad?? Maybe he is just helping mie to forget him by not getting too close with mie??
arghhhh...i really duno...i got no idea wad he is doin..i got no idea wad he is thinking..and i got no idea wad i wan...i wanna forget him...yet i wish we can be together...i wanna asked him if he is dating another gurl..or he have someone in his mind...at least i will noe the answer and won't be here thinking about it...but i can't do it!! i dun wish to ask...i dun wanna noe...cos i dun wan to be diappointed...But if i dun ask..i will be carrying this feeling with mie for days, for weeks or even for months...And even if i ask him...he will be like..."should i tell her"?? Cos if he is being honest..he noe i will feel hurt etc...but if he dun..he is being selfish etc...I dun wan him to feel tat way..cos if he lie to mie..he will feel bad about it..which i dun wan him to feel tat way!! But i also dun wan him to be honest cos i dun wan to feel hurt or disappointed again...
People: What do you think i should doo about it?? Hope to get suggestions from Vanessa, Geradine and Jessica.
Doobie!! Happy Birthday!! =D heheh!! one year older liao..lolx!! See i din lie to euu..i called you on 12am!! not 1 min early..or 1 min late horr.!!
But why?? Why did you asked mie to read the sms tat euu sent mie?? I was soo excited to wish you happy bdae..been waiting for this day...and this timing...and yet?? Just a sms from euu..affect my mood...i'm super disappointed with euu...Once again you broke ur promise...3rd times...!! You had disappoint mie for 3 times!! Just how many times euu gonna disappoint mie?? You promise mie tat euu won't smoke...and nw you are telling mie tat euu smoke today?? You said the temptation was there...bt why didn't you control it?? Didn't you did it for that one week?? I dun understand..i really dun. I got nothing to say about you...Ni zhi ji hao zhi wei zhi ba...
Anyway do you rmb you once request mie to sing you a bday song ?? I dun think i will be singing it on the phone le...I duno how am i going to sing it to euu with this type of mood...bt im nt going to break my promsie...so i gonna sing it here...
Happy Birthday To you~ Happy Birthday To you~ Happy Birthday To Doobie!! Happy Birthdya To you~
Happy Birthday To you *Oink Oink* You Are Born In The Zoo *Oink Oink* Happy Bithday Happy Birthday Happy Birthday To you...*OINKOINK*
Was talking to Cat till late night...haha!! we are soo horrible k...Been having a few hours of sleep only...lol...tat time have 3 and a half hour of sleep before school...den the next day got 3 hour of sleep before school..den ytd got 2 hour of sleep before going to church today...lol..duno why also..we just have lot of things to talk about...last nite we talk about the funny thing we did in camp etc...laugh until peng sia...Too bad doobie gonna go sleep early cos he got work the next day...if not the conversation confirm will b more funny...hehe!! Aniwae i regreted sleeping for tat 2 hours...cos i had a nitemare!! Soo scary sia...somemore dreamt of doobie and geradine...-.-''
Heh!! surprisingly i din sleep during mass sia..lolx...bt ya la..even if i wan to sleep also must control..must pay respect ma..rite?? how can sleep when praying one...well waited for this day for 5 years!! And finally it arrived sia!! hehe!! Everyone was soo excited about it..and hehe!! of cos we took lots of photos..=) and all looked nice =) can see our sweet smile lol...just couldn't stop ourselves from taking photos...especially with our candles in our hand =x people who read this will think we are sot...especially Nick!! aniwae NICK uu lost again!! i din cry...bleh..but i also very surprise about it...Too happy to cry le la..haha
Wee..!! Tomorrow gonna wake up early to meet jermaine at bukit merah interchange...den proceed to tiong to meet jessica and minnie...hehe!! Cos jessica dad will be driving us t o Red Star Restaurant to eat dim sum..lolx..soo nice of him yea?? Somemore he treating all of us sia...feel soo pai seh la..
28 September 2006
Bleah!! this is soo stupid!! Mouse hang!! made mie have to retype my blog again...argh!! irritating...-.-''
Tomorrow gonna wake up early to go church with my darling geradine..haha!! lol..sound soo wrong ehh..like as if we gonna married like tat..hehe!! bt also good la..hahaa..the whole school will be witnessing us..lolx...just kidding!! Well going to St Theresa Church to celebrate Patron Day?? haha!! And hopefully i won't cry...haha!! dunno why also..it seem ed like everyone...especially the graduating classes..they tend to be super emotional..hmm...bt can't blame also..everyone dun wish to separate with their friend ma...haish...after O level..everyone will be in different school...doing different thing and busy with different stuff...hopfully our friendship will last forever..and i believed we will =)
hehe!! Recently been listening to Japanese song..heh!! Love it man!! Duno why also...haha suddenly soo in love with japanese song..hehe!! Aniwae gonna Give a BIG THANKS to Nick!! heheee!! For helping mie to download the japanese song tat i want...it's soo nice of him..=) And i dunno what's the problem with the two of us..been exchanging songs and music..lolx...especially those sad sad song..=x
hmm...soo happy!! i dreamt of calvin this morning..bt haha...dreamt until halfway..den gonna wake up to go school le..cos i gonna be late if i continue to dream..bt never mind..at least i'm able to see him in my dream yea?? hhee!! today is another special day for mie..it's our 3rd month anniversary!! known him for 3 months liao..hiphip!! Time flies sia...well..i din manage to contact him on the dot of 12am...dunno wad he busy also..send him sms bt he din reply...heh!! cos there is nth for him to reply also...=)
During CME lesson..mrs chua show us a video..about abortion...it's eww!! and its sad..haish...see the baby soo small...haven even form finish den have to leave this world le..this is soo cruel...the babies are soo poor thing...they are soo excited to see the world...in the end...parent took away their life...they din even get a chance to see the beautiful world...and all thanks to the video sia...make mie think of her...but honestly speaking...i'm against abortion...bt becos of * future etc..i will encourage * to go for it..bt still i feel bad about it...duno la...wanna go dun wanna go...also duno wad i'm thinking sia...cos if go...really very cruel to the baby inside the womb...bt if dun go...have to face a lot of problem in future..bt still i'm always against abortion..the babies are soo innocent!!
Duno wad happened today sia..19 people go school only...-.-'' yep exactly half the class went school only...heh!! feel weird la...firstly sec 1 to 3 students..they are having their end of year english paper...den the school is like soo quiet...den teachers also dunno fly to where liao...hardly see them walking around the school...Then now..our class is like darn quiet during lesson..abit nt used to it...erm..i dun mean we make a lot of noise during lesson...bt the atmosphere made us feel weird!!
Wah!! Till now i couldn't believed tat i talked on the phone for 6 hours 30 minutes plus!! This is my first time talking to cat for soo long..and i gonna admit tat this is my first time talking to someone for soo long...my longest is 3 hours and nw...OMG!! unbelivable!! Heh we talked from 8.20pm to 11.00pm...den break...den continue to talk from 11.30 to 3.40am =X We the champion!! and oooYa!! we had great time talking to each other...heh!! 2 sot people talking together confirm will make the conversation funny and full of crap...lol...hehe!! this is also the first time cat talk for soo long..his longest is less than 1 hour =x and now..hehe!!
yep...guess how many time i recharge my hand phone?? lol...i recharge my phone for 2 times!! lol...dunno why also...time really flies when talking to him and doobie...heh!!
heh!! aniwae i din fall asleep in class...yep i'm tired bt i din fall asleep during lesson...heheee Cat euu lost!! Wad will i get from euu ehh?? See la..dun trust mie tat i won't be sleeping in class...in the end haha..euu lost ...bleh =x
Hightlight: Erm...talking to guys late at nite doesn't mean flirting...Talking to guys for soo long doesn't mean flirting with him...
OMG!! i hate this...doo i need to explain things clearly to him?? If i dun..he will think im flirting..if i does..it can be darn irritating..have to explain every single thing to him...but still i gt the right for not explaining to him...
hmm...got back my social studies paper today..i failed my SBQ!! ARGH!! Soo overall i failed by 2 mark..argh!! irritating!! If i'm given more time...haish..i will be able to complete my SBQ and i will pass my social studies!! =.=''
hehee!! i had make up my mind liao...i gonna continue to learn piano..i will go look for jessilyn jie!! yep i gonna earn my own money and pay for it...hehehe!! OMG!! i miss jessilyn jie soo much...it had been months since our last met...Reason why i wanna learn piano is..hehee i love music!! i love piano!! and yep..piano can allow mie to express my feeling out...yep learning part may be tough...but once euu master it..OMG!! eu will feel as if euu are floating in the air...hehe!! Can't wait for this day to come man!!haish...the only thing i'm worried is..i'm afraid i won't have the time to learn...haish..nvm...if really no time..at most sacrifice my shopping time ba...hehe x_x At least i'm will be doing something tat i like...
HipHip!! wanna congradualate Mrs Low and Mrs Ang!! hehe!! They went for scanning..and it's a girl!! wah!! Good sia..the 2 baby girls confirm will become good sister..hehe!! Just look at how close mrs low and mrs ang are...wah!! Can't imagine how close will their kids be..and hehe!! Plus Mr Sng's baby boi!! Lol...these three kids confirm can be super close sia...=D Lol...one prince and 2 princess
Had a conference with nick and doobie last nite...they are soo funny!! just couldn't stop laughing when talking to them...they brighten up my life sia!! heh!! Dunno why also..i feel relax and comfortable talking to them...and yep i got the courage to talk to them....dunno why also...i just feel relax chatting with them in msn bt not my other brothers...tat's why till now i din even talk to them on the phone...eh...beside the one tat fall for mie...=x dun get the wrong idea horr!! cos he's such a good brother...So caring and always give mie good advice..hehee!! not to worry..i already talk things up to him liao...he and mie will only be Mei and Kor =D yep no further than tat...Aniwae gonna gong xi Nick!! Finally he talk a lot...=) See some improvement on him le..hehe!! Doobie also agreed with mie..haha!! Nick!! keep up the good job =) hmm..it seemed tat both of them are happy with their life now..no longer see their sad face anymore...tat's good!! As for doobie...heee!! he din disappoint mie le...he din smoke for about 1 week le..*clapclap* i believed he will be able to quit smoking real soon...doobie!! i believed euu can doo it...and dun ever touch cigarettes liao...if not all your effort will be wasted and those WITHDRAWAL SYMTOM euu had gone through will be ..... !!
Weee!! collected my english paper liao...i passed my english!! HIPHIP!!
Miss Him a lot...wondering wad he is doing recently...yep i had no idea wad he had been doing..cos we din talk ever since sunday...wanna give him a call..bt i din..cos i dun wish to disturb him studying...if he wanna call..he will call..if he dun wan..den never mind lo...at most miss him badly...but still i will wait for his call everynite...but it's alrite!! i gonna see him this saturday..hehehehe!! =D 3 weeks le...it had been 3 weeks since we last met...>.<''
To: Adrian Sorry about last night...i dun mean to used those tone at you..i'm controlling my temper..i dun wanna shout at euu...yep i noe the tone i use might be hurtful to euu...but you should noe why i used those tone at you...the moment i think abt wad euu wrote in your blog..it made mie feel hurt and frastruated about it...like wad i said...you used to be someone special to mie..so i expect you to noe mie well more than other people...If other people said i flirt...i will just ignore it..bt i can't do the same to you!! yes..you no longer the special one nw...bt still i expect you to know tat i'm nt tat sort of girl who flirt around...yet after being 2 years 8 months relationship...euu are saying i'm a flirt?? And when i explain it to you...you keep insist i did...how can i nt be angry at you...??
You asked mie then why am i always chatting with guys everynite...and not turning in after my revision...then let mie ask you this..if this is call flirt...soo do you think you are flirting also? You are calling gals whenever you feel lonely isn't it?? And dun forget i did call my gal friend...one thing i have to admit is tat i dun everyday tok to her..bt still i did call her for a talk... yea rite...now wadever i said is excuses to you rite??...NVM..I LOST...
Another reason why i angry with you is...you said i like to hear good/nice things from people...and refuse to hear bad thing about mie...i got nothing to say about this...bt if euu think i'm tat sort of people then go ahead..you just dun understand!! i dunno wad i must say...or how many times i must say then euu can understand wad the hack i'm trying to say...I GAVE UP
I'm sick and tired of this thing le...i will settle this issue with you tonite...i promise i will control my temper and won't talk to you in tat tone...yep i feel bad about it...you can ask doobie about it...the reason why i bother to talk things out with you is i hate people to accused mie...especially when someone said i'm a flirt...the word "FLIRT" can be hurtful to someone who are not flirting around...yet they are being called a flirt by some dodo who does not understand anything...
Get back some of my prelim papers..wad i can say is i did badly for it..I failed my fnn..yep first time..!! When i get back my paper..i get a shocked!! i get 39/100...i can't believed it...bt i have to..cos tat's the marks tat my teacher wrote it in RED INK!! I had never done my paper soo badly...god wad happened to mie?? I did study..bt why is it like tat?? yep i'm sad...at the same time i felt guilty...cos i din learn sensory evaluation...i skip tat chapter cos it will be lame if the teacher ask this type of question...yet?? haish...wad to do..i have to blame myself for being too smart...I did pretty well for my section A and B but section C [ESSAY] i did badly...yep is like 45 marks?? Well...everyone did badly for this paper...only 3 people manage to pass...cos the essay questions are hard...
Collected my math paper 1 today...(T.T) i failed!!!!! argh!! Not surprised tat i failed...cos i had been failing my math ever since sec 3...yep beside N level =x haish..thought i can managed to pass my math paper 1...in the end short of 11 marks...careless mistake!! argh!! haish..Feel soo sad...Calvin gonna be disappointed...haish duno why la...do assessment book..doo homework...almost all can doo..do exam paper..haish...Duno how to tell calvin abt it..i dun wanna him to be sad...i broke my promise..i told him i will aim at least a C6 for my prelim..in the end?? F9 haish...
Next is my account...yep i passed bt still nt the mark tat i wanna get... 61/100... how can i get such a mark?? I had always been scoring 70 plus...bt why?? What happened to my acccount?? I dun get it!! i studied..!! i really did studied!! haish...think wad i need is more practice ba...gonna practice my account le...gonna get back my good mark tat i used to have...
Next is my social studies...yep i passed...i get 14/25 for my SEQ...bt i think i gonna fail my entire social studies paper...i won't be able to get 12 mark for my SBQ!! TAT's soo impossible!! Just hope miracle will happen...
>.<'' Wad happened to mie?? wad happened to my result and my prelim?? Why am i getting such a result?? aRhHhHhH!!! =.= i cna't take it anymore..i'm not happy with my result..i'm disappointed!! Tat is not the result i wanna get for my prelim...let alone O level!! Tomorrow will be getting back my english paper..which is also die liao..everyone find it's soo hard...especially the summary!! Hard to change and link...Just hope tat i can pass..even on the dot i also dun mind...-.- haish..left chemistry bio and geo...hope i can get good grade...dun wanna be disappointed again...
Hmm..Today gonna start my revision again...need to on my engine again..gonna be serious liao...left 1 more month to O level..tat's fast...haish...
Sunday, September 24, 2006
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