Saturday, October 21, 2006

I love jessica dotter

Went to school yesterday though i knew that there won't be many people going...bt never did i predict tat the class attendence is like soo jia liat sia...13 ppl came to school lor...my clique more On...everyone went..haha!! dun wan to miss lessons ma...somemore..haish we dun have much time to be together le..haish...Somemore next week got hari raya holiday..so won't be seeing each other le...den friday is holidae liao..soo we left monday, wednesday and thursday only...think abt thursday..duno wanna go school a not..cos is half day for us...no lesson..only celebration...celebrate christmas day...haha!! Then the celebration also very sian one...every year about the same...bt is our last year already leh...den i wanna see shen dan lao ren..should i go or should i dun go?

Honestly speaking...i can't bear to leave everyone in my class..yep including those who i'm not close to...some of them had been together with mie for 5 years...some are 3 years...3 to 5 years friendship is not easy to maintain...Buddies are always buddies...friends and always friends...sisters are always sisters...Mama and Nu er are always mother and dotter... ah ma and xun nu are always grandma and grand dotter...This is a fact..nothing gonna change them...there will always be one fine day we dun meet up with each other...there will be one day we dun talk to each other..there will be one fine day when we see each other somewhere, we can't be bother to greet each other...But no matter how seldom we talk...how seldom we meet and how seldom we greet each other...Our sweet memorise will never be erase...Our relationship with one another will never be change...[ooo no...why am i crying sia =.=]

To: Geradine
hey..i read ur blog...dun think too much kies?? well sorrie..mie and minnie dun mean to say that...we noe euu are tired too...i can tell that euu are tired...stress ma...keep studying...we said that because at least euu went for swimming [relax urself ma]...haish we just saying only...why euu take it soo seriously sia...aniwae sorrie for making euu feel like crying...yep i noe it's not my fault...cos it's just a normal conversation...[alamak i think i'm soo contradicting but if people read ur blog they will understand what i mean] bt still...those words we said might be hurting for euu..i promise euu that i will be more careful with my words yea? *hug hug*

Aniwae...dun think too much about euu and jeff kies?? i noe euu misses him a lot...this prove that euu love him a lot...haha!! and yep...i think he too busy with his work liao..den euu also very busy with ur study...soo let it be lor...after o levell den go out lor...=) if after o level he still like tat..euu tell mie kies?? i go talk to him...=) heh!! ah ma help euu lecture him...cos he promise mie tat he will take good care of euu and blah blah blah...=) Aniwae You can always clal mie when euu miss him..haha cos i'm ur darling =x

And darling...dun keep things to urself...euu will feel even worse...maybe euu keep too many problems to urself liao..tat's why euu got such a nightmare...euu can tell it to ur mama about it...if not euu can tell mie abt it yea?? Need not worry for mie...i noe i'm kinda busy with my school work also..but like wad i said...if euu need mie..i will be there for euu..ask urself this lor..when euu got problem and euu wanna share it with mie..have i ever say i not free etc...?? i can multitask...haha!! soo need not worry for mie yea?? Ask yourself lor..do euu feel much better when euu tell mie ur problems in the past?? If yes den go ahead with it...dun keep things to urself..=) ehh please dun say euu will feel guilty or bad about it k...cos euu my darling/grand dotter..and euu had been there for mie when i'm feeling down...=) you deserve mie to be there for euu too...

Aniwae about that charlet thingy..if you all decide to book at the sembanwang there...den go ahead with it lor...den if shi hui against it..den euu all tell mie..den i help euu all tok to her lor...if not she will think tat her clique all against her etc...cos i dun wan to see u all conflict again sia...hahah!! Den later got problem liao den look for mie to handle -.-''it will be much more harder to handle than last time sia...den i dun wan her to have those negative thinking ma...but if euu all insist of telling her urself...den go ahead lor...but bear in mind..solve it in a calm manner...if not confirm will have problem one...

Last nite jessica and i got an appointment at 2.15am...but she called mie slightly later..but it's alrite...yep i can say tat i'm rather happy..cos we talked for 2 hours sia.!! 2.30 talk until 4.30am!!Know her soo long liao...this is the first time i talk to her for soo long..and also the first time we taled in the middle of the nite..haha!! Yep she told mie everything...as in her problems...soo i finally noe what happened liao...yep understand her even more...=) Tonite..we gonna have another appointment at 2am!! haha!! euu people must be thinkin we are sot..but we are not..dotter and marmie talking is okies one...somemore we having heart to heart talk..first time sia!! and hehee!! glad to heard tat i'm someone important to her now...and are willing to tell mie her problems...but of cos la..her jie jie place i will never be able to replace it..hahah!! I can understand one...aniwae i dun mind la..as least i came in second ma..hoohoo!!

Aniwae something happened in school yesterday...Think mrs fang [jessica math teacher] got a bad impression on us liao...-.-'' cos during recess jessica wanna sit on my leg again ma..cos she say if dun sit...no mroe chance liao..soo must sit as many times as possible...yep she sat on my leg for 15 minutes ba...den mrs fang suddenly walked into the class room..yep we jumped up although we did nothing wrong...cos we are not lespian -.-'' yep she mrs fang saw us and she like get a shocked...

Mrs Fang: Gurls what are you all doing
Mrs Fang saying jessica: How can euu sit on her leg?? it look wrong you noe...
Mrs Fang saying mie: And you!! how can euu let her sit on euu??
Mrs Fang: How can euu all do that...what if people see that??

well..we kept laughing non stop..cos we duno what to react beside laughing...aniwae i dun mind jessica sitting on my leg though it look wrong...cos we are innocent...we are not lespian...

Went to my mother in law working place to study..yep minnie went with mie...hahha!! darling already there..cos she din go school todae...yep soo she reached there earlier...as usual went there to have our lunch..we eat potato noodle again..yummy!! never get sick and tired of tat sia...hahah!! After eating..we went striaght to the meeting room to do revision...while darling went for swimming...

while studying i suddenly feel soo heartpain sia...i duno why i feel that...i thought i sot liao...after some time..i finally noe why i soo xin tong...cos minnie studying social studies ma..den she using my guide book!! and the way she use my book is like argh!! i duno how to say it...one sentence "i see liao i super heartbroken" she is pressing my book!! the front page got line already lor..wah liew!! i passed her new book...and she gonna pass mie old book sia...haish...somemore she throw away the wrapper lor.!! ok she said the wrapper is torn...tat's why she throw away...but at least ask mie abt it what...just throw away like tat..as if tat one is her book like tat...the worse thing is that...the front page is disfigure!!! i see liao even more heartbroken...wah!! i really wanna box her face man!! the more i ask her take care of my books...the more she will torture my books!! dun care le la..next time people borrow books from mie..i gonna be bad...say NOOO!! haish but i noe i won't do that...yep...i say her...and this is what she told mie: "aiya...after o level euu going to throw away what.."why still bother to keep until soo neat??" Like helo?? whose book is that sia?? when i lent something to people i expect people to take care of it...haish...

Today wake up at 9.45am...cos got tuition at 11am ma...soo must prepare...haha!! hmm..nothing much to comment about today's tuition...nothing funny...cos we super seiour today...mie keep asking questions..den minnie keep doing her math paper...den minnie also very sian...din really tok much cos she sick ma...

Went to meet geradine at the interchange..cos we going temple..haha!! yep pray for our upcoming examination...den later went to sim lim square to buy cdr...den we decided to go vivo city...but haish..we din goo..traffic jam..if we were to go down to vivo city...den when we go back home..we need to wait for the bus for like 30 minutes sia...cos we will be taking the same bus as we took to vivo city...omg...tis is soo horrible lo...worse than orchard road sia...soo many cars..-.-'' yay!! we stuck in the bus for 30 minutes sia...

The time now is 12.00am...if we are still together..i will be on the phone with him now...i will be there wishing him happy 3rd anniversary..yep..it's 22 October...yep a day tat i always look forward to...its our anniversary ...this time its totally different...we won't be celebrating it......it won't happen...we won't have the chance to celebrate that...why must things turned out this way?? Why didn't we love each other deep enough?? Why must we always quarrel over small issue?? Why must he always force mie do things tat i dun wish to ?? Why can't things be like last time?? Why must god test us in this way?? [crying]

To: Bryan and doobie
I hope euu 2 can cool down k...dun be soo chong dong...euu 2 are buddies for soo long...i dun see the need for that...yep i noe who is in the wrong...but actually i feel that its not entirely his fault...i'm not siding for him...but ya...euu noe...euu 2 are in the wrong...just give each other some time to relax...everything will be alrite...dun wanna see euu two like tat...=)

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Thursday, October 19, 2006

O level science practical

Was kinda busy yesterday...went home immediately after school...yep take a bath and went down to void desk to meet my darling...hehee...not for dating...bt for studying...was doing my math before studying my chemistry...as for darling ah ker...she was studying chemistry...and guess wad?? i bought myself 2 cans of drink sia... bought fruit tree orange juice...and soya bean milk...haha!! well..i mistaken fruit tree orange juice as fnn orange...=x regret buying tat..it's Suck!! not nice one...peel fresh better...=) never gonna buy fruit tree orange juice....

initially wanna go home at 6pm...in the end we study and discuss chemistry stuff until 7 plus sia...we too serious in our work liao...bt tat's a good sigh ehh...yep went to sleep quite late..like around 2am like tat...yep initially wanna go sleep at 11pm...but den..mie too nervous about my practical liao..keep revising again and again...den clarify some doubts with bryan...

Yep so basically i had 4 hours of sleep only...i'm super tired but still i couldn't sleep well...keep waking up in the middle of the night...den keep thinking about wad i had learned..cos i scared i will forget ma...yep wake up as usual though i can wake up later cos we are required to be in school only at 9.15am...bt hehe!! wake up early to revise back again...mie too nervous liao...nervous until in bus stop also read...in bus also read...reached school liao also read...lol...den discussed some experiments with my friends...hehe

Everyone was super nervous when it's about time to go to the lab for our o level practical examination...while walking down to the lab as a class...everyone was clarifying about what they had learnt...as for mie..i just keep my ear shut...cos i dun wan them to make mie ruan...haha...yep walked pass the science lab and saw what were on the bench...and OMG!!! the table is sooo messy...!! soo many solutions and soo many equipment..den saw plant...and my reaction is like ...OOO SHIT!! But better than flower la..haha!! Must really thanks god sia..!!

Well...bio was slightly harder than chemistry..and whoohooo!! chemistry practical is much more easier than our prelim sia...good good!! But sad la...got one part din doo...no time..haish...3 marks sia!! and i noe how to do one lor..!! 2pid!! For bio...was a bit screw up...cos the way they describe the experiment is rather funny... make mie keep reading again and again..cos i got no idea what they want...well i thought my english got problem tat's why like tat...in the end my friends also say they dun really understand what they wan...but alrite la..at least i manage to noe wad they wan...it's just that time are wasted on it lor...sigh!! Overall the practical was alrite to mie..hope i can scold good grade ba...

Phew!! O level Practical are finally over...like what darling said...duno should be happy or sad about it...cos we won't be able to do any practial le...haish..never in our life sia..cos i'm not going to take any science course in poly ma..haha...soo todae is our last practical...from today onward..we have to forcus on theory le...haish sian..theory theory and theory...memorise memorise and memorise...study study and study...haish...

After practical...all of us are not allow to go home...we were asked to stay in a room until 1.30am...like some prisoners like tat...go toilet also must go in a group...den got teacher bring us go...buy food also must place order...den they will deliver the food and drink to us....-.-''

Yep bought food and peel fresh orange juice...cos i'm hungry..!! hahaa...yep meanwhile i was doing my math..yepyep...revision ma...=D buit this is the first time i do my work do until not happy sia..cos there isn't any table for us!! only managed to get a chair -.-'' den had difficulties doing my stuff...soo bo bian...end up i have to do it on another chair sia...and i will never forget what jessica and i did...haha!!

this dotter of mine is soo cute and tricky...haha!! But i also not stupid..i noe what she is thinking...i noe what she want...heh!! why i said tat ehh?? this gurl bought pocky...she opened it and told us this:

Jessica: I opened horr..den euu all must eat kie
Mie: ok no problem...

Den jessica passed mie the pocky...I took one and i feed her...she din say anything about it..but i knew that is what she wan mie to doo...hahah!! tat's why she was soo shocked when i feed her with pocky...Then this gurl soo selfish sia...my friend jermaine was doing her work...soo i asked her euu wan pocky...den wanna feed her also...and this jessica is like pulled my hand and say : you are not suppose to feed anyone beside mie!! LoL!! and this minnie is like saying her...as if she ur boyfriend lor...

duno why...today she like my dotter sia...haha..marmie feeding dotter with pocky...bit by bit somemore...yea..hand tired also...cos she took such a longtime to finish 1 stick of pocky..lolx!! bt i dun blame her...mouth small ma..=x just kidding...hhahaa...Next she sat on my leg...yay!! when i'm doing my work sia...had some difficulties writing cos she sitting on mie...den my body facing the north..and my writing materials are on my left...soo can just imagine how difficult it is...phew!! but it's alrite...haha..cos she was doing her homework also ma..and ya...she prefer sitting on my leg and do..instead of sitting on the chair..weird rite??

Yep my friends saw it...and they got no eyes to see...haha!! But we dun care..it's mie giving concern and care and motherly love to her..lol!! But den this action arhx...will have consequences one...lol...soo many people saw it lorr...later people thought mie and jess and togethe [lespian]...den later rumours abt us being together and how lovey dovey we are...-.-'' But never mind...i being accused that i'm a lespian in the past..-.-'' First my band juniors thought mie and cecillia are lespian...den later rumours saying tat mie and minnie are lespian...den when i'm in relationship majority of my juniors noe tat...soo i dun think there will be a rumor saying tat mie and jessica are lesbian ba...Unless they noe tat mie and him break up liao..OMG!! tat will be worse...they gonna think that becos of this i become les _._

Sian think of it...we only have 3 more days staying together in class le..haish...den wil be our o level..den will be holiday..everyone busy with their stuff etc...den duno what will happen le...haha...well..mie thinking too far liao...No matter what...my dotter is forever my dotter..my grand dotter is forever my grand dotter....Nothing gonna change it....

After 1.45pm..finally we got freedom sia..can go whereever we want..can go toilet ...can go eat.. can tok etc...Yep Geradine have to stay back in school till 7pm cos she got tuition with mrs leong...the tuition start at 5pm...so in between got a few hours...soo dun wanna waste time ma..soo she intend to go library to haf her self-revision. then i see her like soo lonely soo i decided to accompany her. In The end i found out dat shi hui also needs to stay back as well ..=.='' ya i was darn tired..wanna go home sleep...but still i stayed back for my darling sia... so sweet of mie rite?? ! darling no need say sorry to mie! yep minnie joined us too ..

But before that...we went to have lunch in the canteen...yep..bought a cup of drink for moiself...and also shun bian helped moi darling buy drink while she ordering her rojak ...SoOO sweet of her...order soo much...cos she sharing her food with mie, shi hui and minnie...

after eating, geradine went to clear her plate first.. and she went back , i was putting my leg on the chair .. heh heh! sooooo... geradine pull out one of my shoe lace .. and haha!! i pulled hers too...!! then mnnie and shi hui came along ! yep gang bang !! i got moi revenge .. !! minnie and shi hui is like grabbing geradine. yay!! stopping her from escaping .. den i pulled her shoe out, tickled her and pulled out her shoe lace as well.. yep and i was saying : " THIS IS MY REVENGE !" hahas .. i still cant forget the day when geradine did this to mie outside bugis cinema after our sports day carnival .. wheehee ! ok gurl ! u LOST!!..i was luffing like hell.

Went back to the library and wanna start our revision...yea man...and this is when i get my retribution from minnie geradine and shi hui!! Geradine wan mie to go bookshop with her...but i refused...so she started to pull my belt and i'm like...OOO NOO!! not again?? Then minnie happily rushed to her and start pulling my belt..yay!! my belt piak lor!! kaoz!! 2 pinaform 's belt also kana...somemore kana by the same person...geradine and minnie -.- YOU two watch out!! i will take my revenge!!

Aniwae Mrs Leong cancelled the tuition . i guess she is too busy abt todae's practical dat she cant make it barhs. haiyOos. make us stay back for nth .. bud its okay ! cos i enjoyed myself alot todae. ya and i was enjoying cracking my math questions sia... was solving dis stupid maths qns on trigonometry. and guess wad ? i gave up and asked my friend...see they can help mie with tat question a not...bt too bad..they can't solve it also..so we end up spendin 45mins on that toppid qns which is like so easy to solve ?? poor mie spent more than 1 hr ++ .. hahs ! the 4 of us were like cracking like mad !! Den we gave up..so we went to look for my math teacher...and she lead us...however when we continue doing...we realised...we still duno how to do -.-'' Den we end up thinking how to solve the question again...

hahahaha ..shi hui went back home first. cos the 3 of us still dun wan to gib up .. trying hard to solve dat qns . the time is already 6 plus .. arhhhs ! den we gave up again..we go look for miss wong again .. went to find her to solve dat qns & realise that it was so easy !! arhhhhs ... all of us realli wanna bang the wall. hahs . cannot blame us also. all of us were so tired already .. my battery going flat liao .. and i am dying to go back and rest...yep was having headache also..4 hours of sleep neh!!

To: Jessica Dotter
Baobeii!! i'm soo happy hahah!! finally we are soo close to the extend that euu are willing to share ur problem with mie...wee!! and u kept your promise!! Lastly i'm glad tat euu promised mie tat euu won't do anything silly...hope euu will keep this promise forever and try to move on with ur life yea??!! Anyway dun feel bad kie?? Looking forward to our conversation [tomorrow nite]...*2.15am* This time will be ours..others call shall be ignored...yepyep including calvin one...=) Are you touched?? LOL

Girls who are Special To mie:
Jessica Dotter- 40%
Geradine Darling- 40%
JunPing Mei Mei- 20%

Boys who are Special To mie:
Calvin- 50%
Doobie piglet- 30%
Nick mama- 20%

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Monday, October 16, 2006

Message for jessica

Read jessica blog...she seemed to be super depressed and sad about something...but something really hurt mie is why she always think that no one care for her etc??

What Jessica Wrote:
yes, in school i may seem to be happy, my usual normal self. joking ard, being crazy with my classmates.but who actually knows my inner feelings? who really know how terrible i feel in my heart? who would actually ask me "jessica, how're you?"who would really come to have a private talk with me in school?who would do all these?none of my close classmates. all seem that they do not really care for me.friends always say "i'll always be there for you?"yes yes, so where're they when i do need them ?nobody seems to ask me how am i at all.. nobody.even if there's somebody, it's like only a while and after that, they don't bother you?hais.so next time whenever they say "don't wry, i'll always be here with you"i will just say in my heart "ya ya ya. as if" because i've enough of these.all are just lies. nobody is really here with me 24/7.call me a loner or anything. i can't be bothered anymore.friends are afterall just friends.no true friends.true friends are indeed very difficult to find.and i am crying now while typing this very entry.

To: Jessica
Nu er...who say we dun concern about euu?? i told euu before..even if everyone dun care about euu..i will still be there for euu..euu noe it urself..euu urself said i will always be there for euu...and why are euu saying no one is concerning euu?? Sometime i wish to ask euu "how are you"...but i refused to ask...cos i dun wan euu to think back and feel sad again..i understand how euu feel...who said i dun...i noe euu are acting...though i'm not ur real mama...but i can feel it...cos i had gone through all these before...i noe wad euu are thinking...and how euu feel about certain thing...

i dun think euu should say ur close classmate in this way...mie and geradine dun wish to mention about ur unhappiness stuff...hope euu can understand...as for minnie and jermaine..they duno any single thing about it...we din tell them about ur problems...in the class..onli mie and geradine noe wad happened to euu..i hope euu will understand we really care a lot for euu...No matter what we won't leave euu behind..trust mie...=)

And please, i told euu many times eu can call mie whenever euu wan..including late nite etc..i noe euu are considerate...i appreciate that...bt what i wan is to be with euu when euu are sad...dun keep things to urself anymore k?? Dun hesitate to call mie when euu wanna tok to mie...it hurt mie when i see you like tat...where is the jessica i noe in the past??where is the strong and brave girl i saw?? please...dun hurt urself..dun do anything silly..please...it's not worthy...euu told mie it's not worthy to do that and now euu are doing it?

Aniwae thanks a lot...at least euu tell mie ur problems now..i appreciate that..once again dun hide anything from mie k..euu noe it very well..i will always be there for euu and my friends...tat's mie...i dun promise euu that i will solve your problem...but i can always give euu my advice...=]

Cheer up yea?

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Sunday, October 15, 2006

MIss hugging him

Went to Mac at 11am...meeting minnie for revision before our tuition...yep super hardworking...study and study..ahha!! first time sia..usually we will crap a lot...look like we are serious in our work le..HoOhoo!! Good!! anyway haf to be serious le la...o coming le..2 more weeks sia...scary!! think of it really wanna faint...haish...

had lots of fun during tuition... can't have such fun with our friends..hehe!! cos this fun is soo special tat we can't have it...is something to do with math questions one..ahaha!! think of it...really wanna peng..hahaa...the 3 of us solved the questions using 15 minutes sia...den realised we din read the question carefully...alamak!! And ya!! it was my fault...they also din read properly wad...in the end push all the blame on mie..humph!!

Went to have lunch together..yepyep!! very long din have lunch with him le..hoohooo!! as usual he order zai cai fan...den mie and minnie order fried oyster...ahaha!! bt this fried oyster very funny one...no oyster one...yep soo we end up eating fried oyster without oyster...calvin said "i trying to be funny ehh" ...the ans is nope..cos i dun eat oyster tat's why dun wanna waste food...yep we joke a lot during lunch too...=)

After lunch..minnie and i went to CK...ahaha!! bought 2 packet of biscuit...cheap ma...plus i need to refill my stock at my house..exam coming...must study...den must eat..soo might as well buy now rite?? heh!! next saturday will buy hello panda...cheap ma..no is much more cheaper...=D then got new flavouor somemore...woohoHoO!! wah!! i gonna be a pig...*oink*

Anyway people...i won't be going online tat often le..need to spend more time on my study liao...might be going online on weekend only...unless i got something that i wanna blog..den i will go online on weekday just to blog only...yep my o level will end at 20 November..which mean that only after 20 november i will be going online almost everyday yea? Take care peoples...and for thsoe who are taking o level...drink more water..eat well and sleep well..lastly dun stress up too much yea?? Study hard =)

Special Someone:

Miss the day when we hug together

The feeling is so good, soo love and soo warmth

When i hug you i don't feel like letting you go

I wan to hug you longer

I want us to be hugging forever and never let go

Can't wait for another hug from you

I won't ask you for another hug

Cos I know it's wrong to do that

You are not mine

And i'm not yours

So why must we hug?

But if you want a hug from mie

I won't reject

Instead i will hug euu tighter and closer

I will let you feel that i'm seriously in love with you

Till now i can't forget you

Cos you meant a lot to mie

Just wanna let you know that

I will treasure the sweet moment that we had that day

The feeling will always be there

The memories will always be there forever

Nothing Gonna replace it

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Saturday, October 21, 2006

I love jessica dotter

Thursday, October 19, 2006

O level science practical

Monday, October 16, 2006

Message for jessica

Sunday, October 15, 2006

MIss hugging him

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