24 of December...Christmas Eve...a memorable day for mie..lol...cos it's my first time spending moi christmas eve in mandarin hotel =.='' But i dun mind about it..it seem like working had taken over everything...i dun mind sacrifice anything just for work...well...as usual suzanna cheryl and mie request OT from the manager...1stly we wanna work..so tat we can earn more money..2ndly there will be $1 extra per hour when euu work during christmas eve. Unfortunately manager said we can't work OT cos he need man this time...yea we were pissed off cos in teh first place he say can...then last minutes say cannot..pig!! bud what can we do?
haish..left the hotel at 10.30pm..wah piang ehh...walked out of the hotel den kana sprayed by people..we hate it..made us soo soppy!! argh!! yep we were holding hand and running in town..cos we simply dislike people to spray at us...especially when they wanna spray at our face...when we kana sprayed we screamed =.='' it sound stupid i noe..haha!! it was darn dangerous sia..almost everyone was holding a can and spraying at those people who walk pass them...
Run to the bus stop and took 124 to geradine's house..yepyep!! jessica was also there...we had lots of fun..talking teasing playing screaming eating at her house...and of cos we took 100plus photos..!!! haha..crazy rite? Actually i wasn't really in the mood to take photos due to one sms from him..."Merry Christmas. Sorry i've been avoiding you. it's just tat i dun want to hurt u. i don't think i can bring u happiness. Best short pain than long pain." yep i'm glad tat he reply my sms...But When i read tat i almost cried...but i can't cos jessica and geradine were infront of mie and geradine's house got soo many relative around...thus i need to control myself...tat's why i was kinda silent...
i dun blame him for what he did [avoiding mie]...i understand why he does tat...and i noe he dun feel good about it...we wish to be together but there is something tat is blocking our way..is only tat he or mie can give in...but none of us are able to give in...
went home at 4am...went to bath immediately...was kinda tired...yet i stay till 6am just becos of his xmas gift...was cutting colour papers and place them inside a silver box which i bought it for $5.50 at citylink...den put ferrero rocher and meiji chocolate inside...although he hurt mie tat day...but still i wanna give him a xmas gift...nothing much..it's just a small xmas gift...and it doesn't cost much...
work up at 1pm [christmas day]...get moiself ready and took a bus to bishan...just becos i wanna pass him the gift. waited for the bus like 25 minutes? and yay!! regret taking bus to bishan..i should have took mrt instead..wah liew...journey soo long sia...it took mie 1 hour 30 minutes to reach bishan interchange!! but thank darling for accompanying mie...lol..actually is we accompanying each other through the phone..cos she was on her way to tampiness [to see her bf]..and she was feeling bored during the journey..hahhaa!! yep when finally reached the interchange...i stunned..cos i had no idea where to walk...cos i had never been to bishan..cos none of my relative stay there. And i have never been to his area/house...=.=''
yep was walking quite a distance...was searching for street 11...OMG!! i'm like touring the whole of bishan sia...from street 14 walk to street 13 den to street 12 den to street 11...den look out for the blk...=.='' while walking i was thinking of something...why am i doing that?? Staying up late just to decorate his gift...going to bishan alone just to pass it to him?? one phrase "cos i love him a lot" haish...before he sent mie tat msg..i just wanna pass him the gift personally then go off...at the same time giving him a surprised...but after he sent mie tat msg...i dun wish to see him...just intend to pass it to his parent den go off...when i finally arrived outside his house i was kinda happy though it's rather tiring to walk from interchange to his house!! why am i soo happy?? 1stly i managed to find his house...i was soo afraid tat i couldn't find it...2ndly i'm able to pass him the xmas gift...3rdly i might be able to see him again...Duno why...when i reached there i really feel like seeing him...cos i miss him a lot...unfortunately i get to noe from his parent tat he was out an hour ago...yep my heart sank..i was rather sad...while walking back...i teared...
went to cine to meet bryan and jessica...yep their 2nd time going out together...hmm..wad i can say is they weren't as shy as tat time...and yep things are progressing...=) took 1 neoprint together...took 2 neoprint with jessica...and bryan took 2 neoprint with jessica...woo!! in the neoprint they look like couple sia..Then we took a bus to suntec...den walk to esplanade there to have our dinner...we ate alot...and the food there are nice..!! yummy!! during the dinner we were rather silent...1stly i wasn't in a good mood..i was thinking of him...waiting for his sms...
After dinner...we went to view night scenery...was taking a stroll there...bryan and jessica were having heart to heart talk...as for mie? i'm still thinking of him...the things he said..the things he does and the sms he sent mie...Duno why at tat moment i wish sunshine was there for mie..i wanna tell him everything..i wanna tell him how i feel...wanna gave him a call and ask him if he can make his way to here since he is in suntec...but i didn't cos i dun wish to disturb him and his girlfriend...
Took a bus home at 11 plus...was reading those old sms sent by him...yep i didn't delete it...and i dun wish to delete it...i got nothing beside those sms from him...i can't talk to him..i can't see him...what i can do is to read to sms...at least those sms are able to put a smile on my face...During the journey back to my area...i received an sms from him..."Thanks for your present and for making a long trip down to deliver it =)" Only then my mood was slightly alrite...cos finally he sent mie an sms...
Reached void desk at 11.55pm...but i did not go up...i stayed at my void desk until 12.30am...thinking of him..yep it was raining at tat moment....haish..was thinking of him walking under a heavy rain...was thinking whatever happened when he came to moi void desk...yep was actually staring at tat place for quite long...was leaning at the wall looking at the rain...
tomorrow...i gonna noe calvin for 6 months le...woo..time flies sia...haha!! yep knew him since june 28...haish...very long din see him le...the last time i see him was november 11..hope to see him real soon...