Friday, November 17, 2006
NO MORE...
...NO MORE ...
.....FOOD & NUTRITION!!
WHOO!!
Another tough paper gone!!
Finally can enjoy my weekend again =D
Haa!! Though i still got last paper to go..
Chemistry & Biology MCQ
Gonnna score better for this paper...
Yep...Gonna be my last time touching the textbooks...
Haaa!! Hate Food and Nutrition man!! Memorise Memorise and Memorise...Memorise for dunno how many times can still forget one..can't store it in my brain for years...everytime after exam throw back to teacher liao..made mie feel soo sick and tired of the topic le..cos i have to memorise everything again and again for every single test and exam..whoo!! Bt it's alrite...it's all over!!
Yeah It's Over...
It's Over..
It's all Over...
Heep Heep!! Hurray!!
Because of Food And Nutrition...i din sleep well last nite...and i only had 3 and a half hours of sleep..tat's soo pathetic!! Start studying ever since 12pm yesterday...study study study..memorise memorise memorise..Study until nite time still haven finish studying...den decided not to sleep le..but thanks to those boring topics keep making mie yawn and yawn non stop... Then buey tahan liao..really too tired le..soo went to sleep at 1.30am..yep!! wanna sleep for 1 hour...set alarm clock..den went to bed...2.30am...alarm clock ring..wake up..on the light..open my book...read the first sentence..start to yawn again..kie!! forget it..i was too tired le..soo off the light...went back to sleep...set my alarm clock again..one hour later wake up..
hmm..not too bad..at least din yawn that much le..but still feeling sleepy..and yay keep yawning non stop also...study study study...until my mum woke up at 5.00am and came to my room asking mie "why euu haven sleep"??!! heh!! bo bian..have to lie to her that i just woke up..if not she gonna scold mie for sleeping for 2 hours onli...yay!! thanks to her sentence..made mie even feel like sleeping...=.='' "CONTROL" is the only word that made mie stay awake...by the time i finished my revision it's already like 6am liao...Place my books aside and sleep until 7.30am...But in between the 1 hour 30 minutes sleep..i woke up a lot of time..cos i'm freezing..finally can sleep well le..den here come my dad wake mie up just to asked mie what time i'm wakin up?? =.='' arghh!!
Was studying account while going school...cos i haven revise for my paper one yet...cos after Food & Nutrition...rest for 15 minutes...den account paper 1...wah!! i was soo darn tired and sick..!! i'm dying to go home and sleep...Was having headache during my exam...but thanks god it din affect one...hah!! duno what happened also..suddenly stomach pain..-.-'' but thank god..it only hurt mie for 2 minutes?? LOL...
Went Home immediaiately after my paper...Reached home bath and had my lunch...den slept for 1 hour.. had no idea why i sleep for one hour since i'm soo tired and soo sick!! Maybe i'm too stress up ba...recently hardly had a good sleep...sleep halfway wake up den sleep again..haish...hope tonite i can sleep sweetly =D Very long din have a good and long hour sleep le..
Thanks to Food & Nutrition
I'm now feeling very Sick!!
I'm having headache!!
I'm having fever!!
Arghh!!
Talk to cecillia on the phone today..yep she called mie to discuss about wheather to go for band camp..haish..i wanna go..but my shedule is soo darn packed!! is like the whole of 1 week plus is all camp?? First is charlet...den Nee Ann red camp..den band camp?? -.-'' Then was discussing about job..cos she wanna noe what i'm gonna work as ma...yep!! and she wanna join us also..hahah!! Then the two of us went crazy again..keep laughing non stop over a small thingy..Then discussing what we gonna buy after we had a sum on money..haha!! wah!! we went mad again..and this gurl was like telling mie this: "hmm..i realised something...euu love challenging jobs and task haha"...WhOo!! think i can really talk man...we talked for like 1 hour 35 minutes lor..=x ehh..I think tat's the longest time we ever talk..but never mind la..i also hardly talk to her in school..heeehee!!
Then Thursday nite also...talked to my darling for soo long sia...talk alot of stuff like GST, shopping, hightlighting hair, piercing ear etc...haha!! The conversation was darn funny..like some crazy woman laughing non stop...=x First time talked to her for soo long..ahahah!! talked to her like 3 hours and 25 minutes!! OMG!! In the end we went to sleep about 4am in the morning...!! hahaha!! OoOO..nOoO!! i can't wait for our next appointment with geradine and jessica..!! We gonna conference...yea..!! CONFERENCE!!
Can't wait for Monday!!
Gonna go out with my darling Geradine
Gonna go out with my dotter Jessica
Gonna go out with Erin mei mei
yep!! will be buying her present
and giving her a surprise
cos it's her bdae =)
though it's our first meet =x
To: Jessica
Nu er...marmie not angry with euu..last nite i was quite upset cos euu deleted the photo without sending it to mie..and becos of that i can't have that photo anymore..cos euu are the last person who has the photo.yes i wanna it badly..cos that photo very nice...plus i told him tat i will send to him one..he din remind mie abt it..but i just wanna keep my words euu noe?? yep i was angry with euu..ehh..a bit only...cos euu deleted it without sending it to mie..is just like when euu finally have someone photo...and tat someone is someone special to euu...den i go delete it away without sending it to euu..i believed euu will be angry rite?? I hope euu can understand why i was angry with euu...but not to worry..i only angry with euu for like less than 20 minutes =x No point angry with euu also cos what is done can't be undone wad..i can't force euu to produce one for mie rite?? aniwae i wanna say thanks to euu..though i was rather sad about not being able to have that photo...but it tell mie one thing...it tell mie tat he still meant a lot to mie...if not i won't be angry and sad about it rite?? thanks nu er...=)
But now i'm feeling sad again...cos of ur sms tat euu just sent mie...haish..euu really dun understand marmie..euu dun..i always thought euu do...but think of it euu dun..how can euu think tat i'm still angry with euu?? euu should noe tat marmie won't angry with a person for long...euu should noe tat under which circumstance then i will angry with the person for days [maximum 3 days]...euu should noe that if i'm angry with someone over a small issue...it won't take mie more than 30 minutes...furthermore euu moi dotter...haish..nah i told euu all this i sjust for ur information..i no need euu to feel sad or disappointed about it..i dun wan euu to feel tat i'm not fit to be ur marmie..i dun wan see all this in ur blog kie?? Love you dotter =)
To: Geradine
Darling!! muack muack!! =x Thanks for keeping your words..i trust euu tat's why i tell euu my problems..=) thanks for not saying out anything to him..yep euu are rite he deserve someone better than mie..i'm not his mrs right...and i dun wish to be his mrs right =x in the past i want...but now i'm sad to say NOPE!! cos i dun believed in our relationship anymore..i lost trust in our relationship le..even if i get back to him i dun believed we can last...we are not suitable for each other..even if i go back to him..he won't be happy also..cos he won't be happy with the things i'm doing now etc...and i'm glad to say tat i noe what i wan in life...his life and my life are totally different...and i believed he can find a nicer girl in the world...is just a matter he wan it or not...aniwae thanks =)
To: adrian
Hey..it's time for you to move on with you life..come on..i noe there are better gal out there waiting for euu..willing to serve euu..willing to please you...willing to be scolded or vent anger at...why do euu still wan to be like this?? aren't euu sick and tired of all this sad stuff?? as in euu noe it's impossible for us to be together again..but why aren't euu moving on with ur life?? i noe it's hard..yea..bt euu gotta try...u din try..how are euu going to move on like this?? Didn't euu told mie that girls love commando guy?? they wan their boyfriend to be commando?? go find those girls lor...since euu are one of the commando...den according to ur salary that euu are getting per month shouldn't be a problem...they won't mind one..
whatever darling wrote for you are right...you are just wasting your time onli...cos i told euu before le..we will not get back together no matter what method euu gonna used to touched mie..cos i no longer have any feeling for euu...furthermore even if we get back together..euu think we will last?? according to ur personality euu think euu will trust mie again?? I doubt soo...euu should noe why i said tat..cos when i did nothing wrong euu already dun trust mie liao..euu think after this incident euu will trust mie?? euu think euu will ever trust mie since i'm getting to noe more guys now?? i'm happy with my life now..i can just simply talk to who i wanna talk to..i can go out with who i wanna go out with...i need not report anything to euu or care about how euu will feel if i go out with him or her...i need not worry that im not spending enough time with euu...cos i can simply do what i wan..this is the life i wan and not a life tat is within ur control...
and please...can euu please stop asking geradine about mie..it can be quite disturbing to noe abt this...is not i dun trust her or what..is just tat i feel tat euu are disturbing her about my stuff...things tat i dun mind people to know i will type here..things that i dun wish people to noe...euu better dun ask soo much..cos it doesn't concern about euu anymore...it's my life..euu do not need to ask about how things are going on with mie and calvin...or even asking who is my sunshine...as in soo what euu noe?? conflict?? or another sad week for euu??
anyway sorry for not replying ur sms or answering your call..cos i wan to keep a distance away from you..cos tat's the only way for euu to forget about mie completely...i wan euu to move on...and honestly speaking i dun wish to talk to euu..and i dun wish to see euu...i duno why...but tat's exactly how i feel..ever since euu mentioned the word "break up" i already told myself not to talk to euu or see euu ever again..euu too..euu said euu dun wish to hear anything from mie ever again...yea yea i noe wad euu gonna say..euu wanna say tat time euu angry tat's why euu like this...but sorrie...when a person angry..."break up" shouldn't be the word to use if euu dun mean what euu said. Once euu said it...tat's it.
Sorrie tat my words might sound hurtful to euu..sorrie..but i'm just speaking what's on my mind...i seriously wan euu to move on..i noe euu can do it..euu can doo everything..euu dare to doo everything..this type of small thingy shouldn't be a problem to euu...
yea...and i noe euu gonna complain to geradine about whatever i wrote here yea?? Aniwae i dun care what euu gonna complain to her or what..just dun blame her for telling mie soo much..first she is my dear..secondly we try not to hide things between each other...thirdly i noe what sort of questions euu will ask even if she refuse to tell mie...
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
Wanna wake up at 7.oo am to study. But i was soo tired tat i dun wanna wake up soo early...but still i get out of my bed and wake bryan up..haha..den i set alarm clock at 8am...den i went back to sleep..yep woke up at 8am cos darling wan mie to wake her up to study...ehh...well i was still half asleep..and my mind was still blank...wad i noe is tat i need to wake her up..lol!!! soo i took out my phone...go to contact...and almost wake the wrong person up...ahaha!! i almost call doob...yea at that moment i dun even noe i abt to call the wrong person...i still thought is darling lor..den when about to press "call"...i think think think..."ehh...wait...darling wan mie to wait her up at 8am or 8.30 am arh??" then think think..oo...she wan mie to wake her up at 8.30..den i closed back my phone...and went to sleep...
alarm clock ring at 8.30 again...=.='' irritating..soo fast sia..wanna sleep more...but then haish..this time die die also must wake up to study le..and die die must wake darling up le...went to called her...and guess wad?? i went back to sleep..lol!! sleep until 9am den i wake up...den suddenly realised that i almost wake the wrong person up...yay! only then i noe...soo slow rite? wah liew..tis show how tired i was...brain processed soo slow..
was studying and eating my breakfast at the same time...poor thing rite..can't even eat my breakfast in peace...x_x...was doing some account questions...and yay! i still remembered what i learnt..good sia..was darn happy...but still very scared la..duno what the questions will be...
In the end what happened?? i screw up for account paper..i dun even noe what they trying to ask...the theory is like ??? and my trading profit and lost and appropriation for partnership is like duno what...i get decimal place...kao!! i noe i'm wrong..so i went to check my working before i continue...cos if i continue..i will lose a lot of marks..cos everything are linked...first part wrong..the rest will be wrong...-.-'' haish...but no matter how hard i tried to figure out my mistake...i just couldn't find out where on earth it goes wrong...so bo bian..have to continue...at least can get some marks behind...-.-'' haish...Then club and societies questions...alamak!! i forget how to do sales and purchases control account...-.-'' i'm too nervous until i forget how to do...stupid mie...well i got to admit tat this paper is harder than last year and much more harder than my prelim paper..and all my friends also duno how to do...hopefully i can pass ba...and hopfully paper 1 will be much more easier ba...
Sad is sad la...but i dun wanna affect my mood..soo i dun wanna think about it...like what jessilyn jie and sunshine said..."dun think about those papers that are over..forcus on the next papers"..hehe i will always remember this sentence ;)
Wee..today darling told mie a good news...hah!! about the children holiday programme..!! she say 4th and 5th of december we need to work..wee!! can't wait to work man.. can work with darling again...den can play with kids...den can noe more kids..cos it won't be the same as the previous batch le...*sobsob* Misses them...but it's okay!!
dunno my boyfriend going a not..hhehe!! i wan him to go though he can be darn irritating..keep holding my hands...asking mie to follow him...keep sitting on mie...lol...ooo...the boyfriend i mentioned here is a small kid who wrote a love letter for mie...yay!! the small girl beside mie laughed...-.-make mie malu onli...-.-
OoO...ya!! i gonna work as waitress in mandarin hotel...work there first until im able to find a better job with a better pay den change..hahah!! yep next saturday going to take the form together with my friends...den haf to go for training on sunday...ZzZzZ...ooOOo...ahhh...have to buy black pant and black shoe -.-'' cos i dun have any black pant...and i can't possibly wear my black shoe which i bought for syf cos got heel -.-'' i must be mad to wear that...sigh...haven even earn money den must spend a small sum of money liao...
Monday, November 13, 2006
Met up with bryan today...weird..i seriously not scared of him..i seriously not shy when i meet him..duno why also..tat's why when he asked mie to accompany him go eat lunch at tiong..i just said okay. yep also got another 2 reasons for meeting him...well why i not scared of him?? why i not shy when i see him?? instead he the one who is shy..LOL...nah not because i finally overcome my fear...cos i do scared of meeting mama and doobie..i duno why..but just scared..haha!! Instead i still play with him before i meet him..hahha
Bryan call mie at 2.45pm when i'm at hm
Bryan: he finished my exam le..soo meet early ?
Mie: ehh 3.15 pm cos i still at home.
Den i hurry changed and pack my stuff
Den i waited for bus for like 10 mins
Den i sms him
Mie: i still waiting for the bus to interchange, i meet euu 3.30 instead
Bryan: i reached liao..LOL
Mie: Diao
Den i pretend ..
Mie: pek cek le la...dun wan wait for the bus liao..
Mie:haish..euu la..soo early goo...made mie late..
Mie: dun wan meet euu liao..euu go home la..i pek cek liao..going home now..dun wanna wait for bus le
Bryan: i will wait for you..you dun worry etc
Den when i abt to each tiong...
Mie: sms him...huh ? euu still waiting? i reach home liao leh
Mie: Thought i ask euu dun wait for mie??
Brayn: I told euu i will wait wad...euu still go home for wad?
Den i intend to give him a surprise ma
Den i wanna treasure hunt him
Den i go up the esculator...to 2nd level..
Den he happened to pass by the escalator
Den he turned to his left..den i looked up
And we stoned...
Thinking if he is Bryan..and if i'm Jia en
well..went to eat at Qi Ji...yep chat alot while eating...he showed mie a lot of photos in his phone and some sms tat he kept...den he showed mie his neocard...and yep it looked nice..=) den he took out his personal diary and let mie see.ahaha!! ya his diary is with mie..lol!! my bed time story...after my o level...got 5 booklets leh!! gonna read finished everything..haha!! no la..not my bed time story la..gonna read it before my charlet start..cos i gonna return it back to him when i see him in charlet...i must be mad if i really treat tat as my bed time story...cos he say it will take mie 2 years to read if i do tat..hahah!! ehh..ya..still wondering why he allow mie to read sia..lol..
okay...after meeting him..i seriously wanna him to be my son in law...hope he and jessica can be together...well..i believed if they really end up together and they truely love each other...both will benefit and they will last..=) and i believed tat jessica won't regret to be with him..hahah!! and i will be happy to see the two of them together...bless the two of euu..=)
Sian...haish...today i cried again..-.-'' stupid sia..well this was what happened...After meeting bryan..i went to bath den i revised my account...den i eat my dinner while watching tv...the show was rather funny and loving..hhaaa!! couldn't stop laughing...bt certain part quite touching...almost made mie cried..lol..bt i din..i think of other thing...tat's why din forcus on tat show at tat touching part...den i went to washed my plate..den went to my room to check my phone...no missed call no sms...sigh...my heart sank...duno why also...missed him a lot...sat on the bed and hug my leg...den tears just start to rolled down my cheek non stop...until i told myself tat's stupid to cry just becos of tat...!! yay...reason for crying is..i can't talk to *him* and sms *him* tat often le...due to some reasons...nah i gotta get used to all these...-.-''
hehee!! i was shocked sia...while studying he message mie sia...and ya couldn't stop laughing about it man...
"Him":Sign..is another time crying towards to JB...Jam...
Mie: Going JB again for petrol again arhx?? haha...ehh no need cry la..while waiting just think of mie can le...confirm very fast ur turn le...heh!! i soo thick skin...bt tat's mie..LOL...
"Him": haha..ok i'll try to do that. all the best. jam a while no more le..
Mie: huh?? hhaha..no need force urself to think of mie la..just kidding onli..plus there is nth to think also..
"Him": Actually day dreaming about you really helps a bit ma. Haha...hmm..times flies. Already nov le..
Mie: ooo....soo what did euu day dream about mie arhx..describe!!
"Him": shoo. Go study la. tickle mie again
Mie: wah!! shoo mie...euu good!! aiya someone day dream about mie ma..soo honoured..soo must noe what euu day dream about mie ma..haha!! euu better say it out...=p nah!! dun worry i'm studying and smsing at the same time..need not worry...
"Him": o..o...good good study hard. Days left to study one hand also can count le. Then got long long long holiday. Last time i also not so long. 2 months go jc le. Then A levels also 2 months go army. After army then got 4 months. U one shot got so many months..haha
Mie: ya lor...last year this timing mie having fun outside after n level sia..long holiday where got good...euu like tat good ma..like speeding in ur life like tat...good ma...short holiday..den school finished faster..den enter workforce faster..den settle down faster...den have kids..[kids soo cute]...ehh euu dun come and change topic horr...
"Him": Speeding? normal rate for guys la. we wasted 2 years in army lo. hehe..wad change topic? me reach custom le. later the other side jam then ka jiao you again. reception going out soon...
Gonna delete all these message in my phone...my sim care and phone memory no space liao..inbox got 200 plus sms from "him" and outbox got 200 plus sms that i sent to him...oMG...gotta delete the newest one den can store some other message from other people..hehe
Sunday, November 12, 2006
sigh...yesterday met up with calvin...but din go for lunch together...soo in the end only passed him my tuition fee...cos it was raining heavily...and he was all wet!! like as if he dropped inside the pool like that... soo poor thing lo...walking and riding under a heavy rain -.-'' somemore weather soo cold sia... i was shocked when i saw him walking under the rain man...
Then he over there complaining very cold...wanna hug him tight...cos he say he cold ma...but i didnt hug him...cos "something" is stopping mie from doing it...is not i scared i will get wet...is not i'm afraid i will catch a cold..and not as if we din hug before?? but it's just "something" tat is stopping mie from doing it..."something" tat is telling mie i can't do that to him...i duno what is that "something"...but i seriously hate it...
*I dun anyhow hug guy...i dun anyhow let guy hug mie...even if i really hug a guy or allowing a guy to hug mie...i will think before i act it...i will think about the impact, is it wrong or right to do it, what kind of image will i create for myself etc...All this questions usually took mie for weeks before deciding to hug someone special to mie or allowing someone special to mie to hug mie...*
Then i saw his face was all wet...rain water is dripping from his hair to his face and to his body...took out a packet of tissue paper...wanna help him wipe away the rainwater on his face...but i didn't...is not i dare not do it or what..is "something" tat is stopping mie again..So i just pass him the whole packet of tissue and asked him to dry his face...
When he said he couldn't have lunch with mie..i understand..even if he say let's go have lunch...i will also reject..cos i seriously dun wan him to fall sick just to have lunch with mie...i wan him to hurry get home...bath and drink warm water...den eat something for lunch...i'm not disappointed though i waited for him from 12.30 to 2pm just to have lunch with him...yep i din eat anything for breakfast..just a cup of milo...nah it's not his fault for keeping mie waiting...it's the sudden rain which held him up in queensway...he asked mie to eat something first..but i refused..instead i fake him tat: "it's okay..i will wait for euu to have lunch together...i'm still not hungry" But well..i was actually hungry =x
Then when he about to go off..i wanna ask him to wait for mie...cos i wanna go to my house and take an umbrella den shelter him to the carpark...but then i didn't...instead i asked him to take care...be careful...the road is slippery...And yay...i was watching him running under the rain to the carpark...den i walked off slowly. While walking i was thinking of something again...thinking about him and thinking about that "something " that is stopping mie...at the same time worrying for him...
hheee!! tomorrow i'm meeting bryan...my son in law..hahah!! meeting him in tiong bahru..cos he wanan go there eat lunch ma..den no one to accompany him..soo i going with him since it's just for a while..after he eat liao den we go off le...another reason for goin is to take things from him..cos he wanna show mie something ma...and tat something will be super huge..if i'm going to collect from him in 24november den go for dinner..i must be crazy man...soo huge lor.. duno why i'm not scared of meeting him...-.-'' weird..??
To: Geradine
Darling!! i read ur blog le...thanks..thanks for telling mie ur problem...as in thanks for sending mie an sms at 3 plus just to tell mie euu very sad etc...but then i'm sorry i'm super sorry...i read it immediately when euu sent mie...but then i din reply euu or call euu...cos i was super tired...my eyes was half close when i read ur sms...i read it for three time before i get what euu mean...sorrie...i'm super sorrie for not being there for euu since i said i will be there for you no matter how late it is...haish..i feel soo bad sia...I noe euu won't blame mie..cos ur sms mentioned tat..."dun call mie...sms will do..cos i dun wan to disturb ur sleep". After i read ur sms liao den i fall asleep immediately...without closing back my flip phone...-.-'' Tat's why the first thing i do when i wake up is to sms euu see euu alrite a not...
Hmm...there is nothing much for mie to say regarding ur nitemare...what i wanna say i already sms euu about it le...just dun think too much lor..like mie..heheh!! i never think about those dream le..though it may seem real..but i won't let it affect mie and my thinking..i won't allowed it to happened no matter what happened...in conclusion..if euu keep thinking abt tat nitemare..there will be a high possibility tat it will happen...i dunno how to explain leh..it's like euu keep thinking it den etc...tat's what many adult said...soo dun think too much yea?? i understand how euu feel..it's like mie..hahah!! remember the dream that i told euu before?? yep..soo just cheer up and forget about the dream...and forcus on ur literature paper tomorrow yea?? dun let the dream haunt euu...=)
Aniwae...according to ur dream...u say euu couldn't find my hp number when euu wanna tell mie abt what happened to euu and jeff rite?? aiYoO...silly gurl..dun worry soo much..euu see what number den call wad number nor...no need die die must call my hp number one...i noe euu dun wanna disturb my family member...but it's alrite..cos u are seeking help not for a casual chat...soo in future no matter what happened...euu lost my hp number or wad...just call my house number k..?? if euu lost both my hp and house number...den euu get urself changed and come to my house...=D Only a few blocks away ma...
And i read ur past entries [yesterday] about what the master said...hmm...he said now euu will face alot of challenges in life..Just wanna let euu noe tat ...not to worry and not to afraid of all these challenges yea?? it's hard to go through all this hardship etc...just to let euu noe tat ..no matter what happened..i will pei euu till the end yea?? i won't let euu face all this alone...trust mie..=)