Saturday, September 23, 2006
Went out with geradine
Went to school in the morning just to attend Mr Yeo lesson..hehe!! did chemistry practical on "Titration"...yep first time doing it...and we master it!! haha! it was soo fun...and the way we did this experiement is sooo serious..it look as if we are some scientist =x heh!! Hope O level practical will be on titration ;)Went home with geradine and priya...yep took the same bus together...Went to bath immediately i reached home..cos i gonna meet geradine at 1.30pm at the bus stop...went to citylink..cos geradine wanna mie to accompany her to buy something for her dardar "jeffery"...Then also shun bian buy present for shermaine cos her bdae coming soon...
Guess wad we ate for lunch?? lol..we ate ICE CREAM!! lol...mad us rite?? heh!! nvm la..cos very long din eat ice cream le..so we bought haagen ice cream then went to see scenery outside the esplanade...!! Yep!! eat until i full..eat until i see chocolate also scared liao..heh!! i ate 1 box of ice cream lo...is like 398g!!! OMG!! I can't believed i ate tat much...all thanks to geradine..dun wanna share with mie..cos she wanna eat strawberry ma...yep..also served mie rite la..hahaa!! i still soo proud say i can finish the whole box without geradine help..in the end have to force myself to finish up everything..=x but heh heh!! I FINISHED EVERYTHING!! Must be proud of mie yea?? =x but sigh...gonna gain more weight le..BoOOhOoO!! wah!! Very long dinn go there le...yep went there to see river...enjoy the breeze...and enjoy our haagen ice cream..lolx..and of cos took lots of photos with geradine..!! hahaa...we look soo lovey dovey...!!! lol..dunno why also..might be due to the surrounding ba..heh!! we are just good friends =) Hmm...feel more relax and much more happy after going there..heh!! It seem tat all my unhappiness and stress had all gone le..=D Gonna be a happy happy girl from now on!!
heheh!! super happy today...yep mainly because doobie had finally promised mie tat he will quit smoking...HE PROMISED MIE!! had been waited for this day..and finally he said tat to mie on the phone...*jia you* yep and today is his 4th day din smoke le...i'm soooo glad to noe tat...=) Then another reason why i'm soo happy is i feel more relax and happy le...yep like wad nick said...it's a double happiness...lol...
But then..i feel heartbroken..Cos Calvin was sick..and he is soo sooo sick...He got fever...muscle ache...sore eyes and sore throat!!! Soo poor thing lor...have to suffer until like tat..somemore there isn't anyone to take care of him..soo he have to take care of himself...yep..and he din tell mie anything abt it...only today then i found out...Lucky today tuition cancel liao...if not he have to come all the way down to teach us...bt haish..really miss him badly!! cos our next tuition will be on next saturday...which mean tat i'm not going to see him for 3 weeks!! Wah!! =.='' Haish...also O level coming le...i left 7 lesson with him before my O level..cos nw we only have tuition once per week...This mean tat i left 7 chances to see him!!! The rest have to date him out lor...hehe!! But nvm..after my O level i gonna go see him =D
Well i think i gain weight le..!! SobSob..beeen eating alot during my prelim..dunno why also...i had been eating non stop during this period of time...Usually exam period is the only time i can slim down..cos i no appetite to eat etc...Bt this time..it seemed tat my metabolism rate went up le..Keep eating non stop...ahhhh!!!! cannot i better watch my diet sia...i dun wanna look like a pig!! Told doobie abt it..and he seemed soo happy cos he wan mie to look chubby -.-'' eeee!! the day i become chubby...is also the day when i can't wear nice clothes..=x Fat ma..=x
Thursday, September 21, 2006
Dad nag again
Wah horrible sia!! Just get a shocked from a LIZARD!! Stupid lizard!! horrible sia..made mie screamed until soo loud...=x I'm not scared of lizard...bt when i suddenly saw the lizard..i will scream...Bt if i see cockroach..i will jump up and stand onto the something =x k la..i gotta admit i'm darn scared of cockroach =x especially those tat can fly!!!Well..went to school today...hmm..dunno why also..dun used to have lessons le..ahaha!! sooo long din have lessons liao..due to holiday and prelim...den suddenly have to follow time table..abit weird weird one..den cannot go home early =x Den think about tomorrow...school dismiss at 2pm..wah sian arhx!! hahaa...Monday worse...school end at 3.15pm sia...ZzZ..
Heheee!! Today Pe soo funn!! We play Floor ball!! ehh...abit not used to it la..cos it's a new equipment..duno wad happened also...the school like suddenly soo rich like tat..buy sooo many new stuff...Den somemore the area tat we played at is not smooth floor...gt friction lor..Used the stick to hit the ball...in the end the ball still at the same spot...somemore made mi almost fall down =x
Today CME lesson was rather interesting..heh!! first time pay attention during CME lesson..lolx..finally she is teaching something tat is useful..yep abit bored la..bt better than she talking about government and singapore etc...lol...guess wad was it abt?? heh!! it's about "Pre-Marital Sex" and "abortion" ..erm..sorrie arhx..i dun mean i'm horny or wad k..or excited abt this topic la..
Well...she said we should avoid pre marital sex...yep it's normal in this generation..bt still we have to repect ourself..dun go against your principle...If the guy asked for it...it's nt worthy to give him even though euu love him a lot...Cos he is not respecting euu...soo this type of guy wan or dun wan also nvm...Dun be afraid tat euu might be laugh by someone cos euu discourage pre marital sex...people who go for it are stupid and if anything happened..they have to bear the consequences...especially girls...Yep she mentioned something tat i strongly agreed with it...and tat is give your first one to ur husband...they will appreciate it =)
Heh!! today i'm super tired..dunno why also...heh!! was sleeping during english lesson..haha!! not to worry..teacher was talking about other stuff...not abt english..lol..Duno why i soo tired also...Very long din sleep in class liao...duno why today will..haha!! maybe too tired le ba..somemore prelim just over...haven recharge my energy yet..haha!! Plus some other reasons la..=x WhOoO!! GOnna used up all my energy by tomorrow...den saturday and sunday gonna rest and recharge my battery...den next week gonna start my revision again...=) GOnna haf my own time table...Then Last two week of October...i gonna recharge my battery for 2 days..before doing REAL INTENSIVE revision till the end of my O level..which is 20 November 2006!!! wah!! can't wait sia!!
Hmm...Collected our Class photos liao..hehee!! Been admiring the photos...hehe!! ehh..not admiring myself..just taking a good look at my classmates and teachers... heehee!! all of them look pretty =)
Went to Honey's house to watch OURANG HIGH!! wooo!! soo nice to watch..hehee!! soo funni...funnier than yesterday episode...Just couldn't laugh at it...especially episode 18!! Loo-Bi-Lia!!! lol...yep was talking to doobie in the mid of the show..haha!! cos he miss mie ma..soo called him to talk for a while lor..if nt later today he gonna dream abt mie again..=x Stupid Honey!! Stupid Brother [minnie]!! Go pull my belt...lucky the belt din come out everything...if not i gonna made euu 2 help mie sew my belt to my pinaform arhx.!! Always bully mie..bleh!!
Was a bit irritated when i reached home..dad was naggy non stop abt the same old topic..!! Like hello?? the person who made mistake is my brother...not mie lo..why is he keep nagging to mie abt tat?? Keep asking mie to be careful etc...Like as if i duno what will happened if i do wad my brother did...I can see it one lor...i no need them to remind mie tat...i'm 17 years old youngster...not a 7 years old kid..yea i noe they concern abt mie..bt do they need to tell mie everyday?? Yesterday was my mum..Today is my dad..My second brother was doing it...yet?? They said nothing...yes they told him...bt speak soo soft like a mouse like tat...Tell mie like some lion like tat..so loud..as if i can't hear...Always like tat one...brother commit mistake yet dad speak like some mouse like tat..i did nth yet say until as if i did like tat...All thanks to my brother la..now go anywhere also must report here and there...irritating!! bleh!!
Saw someone blog...it affected my mood...yep i'm sad i'm angry and i cried...how could they say mie until like tat?? Is there anything wrong to talk to guys?? Is is a wrong to Noe more guys?? Is it a crime?? No it's not a crime...!! Talking to guys mean trying to seek for attention?? Why do i need to do tat?? Talking late nite with guys?? anything wrong with tat?? I talk to calvin late cos tat's the only time available for us...He is working and schooling...he need time for himself...Is that call flirting with guys?? HELLO??? I hate people who say im flirting with guys...cos i'm not...i hate being accused.!!
Adrian...Just for your INFORMATION...Calvin is my tutor..tat's why i noe him...Doobie is i noe him ever since sec 1...IS just tat we only talk to each other only recently...For Nick..yep i just knew him..i admit...bt i'm not doing anything.l..i'm not flirting with him or wadever...Sec 2 sec 3 sec 4 sec 5...i din make friend with any guy...beside Nick...And please...do asked abt yourself..aren't euu making friend with girls?? What are all this called?? Making friends from dunno where...den Vanessa Den my dearest friend geradine...Den telling them how euu feell...What are all this called?? I dun mean euu are flirting with them...I DUNO WHY ARE EVERYONE SIDING FOR EUU!! You the one who mentioned break up...you the one who said euu wanna start afresh and asked mie stop doing things tat will haunt euu...and yet?? Now everything seem to be my fault...and everyone is saying i'm seeking attention?? Even denise jie...
What had i done wrong?? Must am i always in the wrong??
Another reason why i wanna noe more guys is I WANNA OVERCOME MY FEAR...is tat wrong to do tat?? i had been afraid of guys ever since i in girl school...talking and chatting with guys on phone or msn is alrite to mie..bt not outing!! I hate the feeling when i see guys... i tend to run away from them...I hate tat!! Is it a wrong to overcome this kind of fear?? I'm no longer able to stay in a girl community...Just another 2 more months..i will be in a community where there are boys and girls...CAN'T YOU JUST UNDERSTAND TAT?? but tat doesn't mean i'm making use of calvin nick and doobie...i'm sincerely wanna be friend with them...
And dun forget the last patched back..i used something to exchange for it...euu lose trust on mie for whatever reason...[before i noe calvin]...i need to xi shen something just to safe our relationship...yep something tat is important to mie..And till now i can't believed euu need tat small xi shen just to gain trust.
I HATE YOU..
DUN WANNA SEE YOU...
DUN WANNA HEAR FROM EUU
EVER AGAIN!!
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
Calvin called mie last nite
Heehee!! I dreamt of Calvin!! i dreamt of him yesterday..yep after i blog finished my entries..i went to take nap...and i dreamt of him..ya!! FINALLY!! Finally feel his prescence...No longer miss him tat much..at least i feel better..ahaha!! Was soo darn happy when i wake up...And guess wad?? He called mie last nite...wee!! Din expect him to call mie also...OMG!! he got sore eyes sia...soo poor thing..confirm see thing not comfortable one..haish...hope he is feeling better now..=)Had my last paper today...combined science paper 1...it's rather easy...yep managed to finished it within 1/2 an hour...=x So the other 1/2 an hour was like stoning at the question, sleeping, checking my answer...haha!!
Had a conference with Doobie and Nick on the phone..yep talked to doobie about half an hour le..den decided to asked nick to join in..cos we din manage to have conference yesterday...So yup..first time talk to nick on the phone..hhaa!! hmm...tis guy arhx...quite quiet lor..den a bit shy shy one...=x heh!! dun see him quiet quiet shy shy type...mean he not funny..hhaa!! he made mie laughed alot..especially when he being forced to meow by doobie..lolx...it's soo darn cute and funny of him..wan to meow dun wan to meow like tat..lolx...well i noe wad doobie gonna said liao..he gonna said "wad?? euu say he cute??" den he will asked mie: "how about mie."
Hmm...was rather happy today..cos doobie didn't smoke today =) Yep his friends smoke bt he din..he managed to control it...good job doobie =) Keep up the good work yea?? I know euu can do it..trust mie and trust yourself =)
Went to Bukit merah NTUC to buy ingredient for cooking...walking round and round...had no idea wad to buy...in the end buy back the same ingredient tat we used tat time...=x yep cook the same dishes..haha!! Had a great time with my honey geradine =x Was treating her house like my house like tat..lolx...cos her key was with mie..soo i'm like open her gate...open her door...walk into her room...switch on computer etc...den serve myself drink =x
After our lunch..we went to her room to watch OURANG HIGH...hmm..is a japanese animation..it's soo darn funni!! Laugh until i peng..bt gt one part i almost cried..haha!! Luckily they change scene when i feel like crying...heh!! once the scene change liao..i'm back to normal..lolx..yep had a few mins break in between...was lying on geradine's bed..haha!! den she started kajiao mie...hitting mie with her soft toy...yep i used another soft toy to hit her...cos she dun wanna let mie rest..so ya lor..mie and honey went for a war...lol..minnie was like telling genervive...ignore the 2 of them..ta men zai da qing ma qiao..lolx...and this stupid genervive...third parties..go come and hamtam my darling!! made my darling keep screaming and yelling for help...wanna save my darling..in the end kana scratch by genervive!! PAIN!! *baobei!! No matter wad happened wo hui bao hu ni de*
Such a loser sia..lolx..was darn tired in the mid of the show..lolx..tired until fall asleep on darling's bed...yep first time sleep in my friend's bed...and first time sleep at my friend's house...heh!! onli wake up when the show got classical music =x In the end i missed 2 episode...lolx..so bo bian have to borrow my friend thumbdrive...=)
Monday, September 18, 2006
Wake doobie up
WhOoO!!Last paper for prelim!! hiphipp!! Gonna go geradine's house to feng!! yep..going to my second house..lolx!!..yep!! minnie will be going too..heh!! the three of us gonna be as crazy as possible...will see the three crazy woman inside the house screaming playing and teasing...hahaa!! Gonna cook ourselves lunch again!! ya la..before tat must goo buy ingredient..llol!! hheeehee!! Dunno why..recently love to cook soo much..haha!! It's soo funnnn tooo cook!! And it's much more healthy than eating out rite??
Wake up at 7am in the morning...For wad?? Just to wake doobie up...he said he very touched...bt i duno for wad reason...he's the one who asked mie to wake him up...yep duno since when i become my friend's alarm clock and notebook liao...Some asked mie to wake them up..some asked mie to remind them to bring something. Well..was intending to wake up at 8am in the morning...already set the alarm clock le...den here come doobie sms telling mie he going to sleep liao..and ya..telling mie this "if possible do give mie a wake up call at 7am" soo ok lor..reset my alarm clock den planning to revise my account after waking doobie up...however i went back to sleep after i wake him up..cos i slept at 3am and i'm super tired..plus this weather is soo darn cooling sia..dun wanna wake up lor...hee lucky i managed to force myself to get out of my bed at 8am...About 9am doobie sms mie..i thought he wanna tell mie he in school le...instead he was telling mie tat he just woke up..cos he went back to sleep after i hang up the phone -.-'' Stupid rite?? Made mie wake up soo early just to wake him up..end up he still went back to sleep...Somemore i wake up earlier than him...thanks arhx..!! And horr!! dunno yesterday afternoon who asked mie this question arhx...: "You need mie to wake you up tomorrow?? Later euu late den your friend have to wait for you again". Oink Oink!! Does this sound familiar to euu ehh??
OoO YAA!! talked about being an alarm clock arhx..this Dotter of mine "Jessica" soo bad to mie k...!! Remember the day i did not sleep at all just because of my prelim?? This girl asked mie to call her at every interval from 1am to 5am...cos she scared she will fall asleep without knowing it...So i called her 4 times in this 5 hours lor...In the end she come and complaint to mie the next day "You arhx!! last nite called mie soo many times"...like hello?? My fault is it..!! You asked mie to call you 5 times...and i only call you 4 times?? Pig arhx euu!! Instead of saying thank you...you come and say mie!! *sobsob* PIG arhx euU!!
To: Nick (maomao)Be more confident in urself...and the most importantly...trust yourself..tell yourself euu can doo it...dun be shy..dun be afraid of doing anything...your enermy is "fear"...bu yao ran ta da bai ni yoz..!! You must overcome it and i believed euu can..=) heh!! lastly...learn to speak out more!! Everyone has it's own weakness...just have to overcome it lo...hmm..euu once asked mie am i a quiet girl..i told euu i am bt i will be noisy in my clique...bt i forgotten to tell euu tat...i'm trying to motivate myself to speak out more..yep to those people i dun really noe..to those people who are quiet and to classmates tat i am not close to...especially if my friends are super quiet..i will tend to find topic and talk..Hmm..maybe i might be talkative to euu..=x bt honestly speaking..i'm still a quiet girl...bt of cos...not as quiet as last time =D And i feel happier this way...cos euu won't feel uncomfortable when euu are with a group of friend etc...So do motivate yourself to talk more yea?? Well...happened to found a lyric through my friend blog...and i think it's quite meaningful for you and mie =) *wink*
DuckliNg [QuackQuack]
Born To Try
Doing EVERYTHING that i BELIEVE in
Going by the RULES that i've been TAUGHT
More UNDERSTANDING of what's AROUND me
And PROTECTED from the walls of love
All that you see is ME
All i truely BELIEVE
That i was BORN TO TRY
I've learned to LOVE
Be UNDERSTANDING
And believe in LIFE
But you got to make CHOICES
Be WRONG or RIGHT
Sometimes you've got to SACRIFICE the things you like
But i was BORN TO TRY
No point in TALKING what you should have been
And REGRETTING the things that went on
Life's full of MISTAKES, DESTINIES and FATE
Remove the clouds to get a bigger PICTURE
All that you see is ME
All i truely BELIEVE
To: Doobie [OinkOink]
Just received A disappointment from you again...wad on earth had euu told mie?? You go reflect yourself..You told mie euu will try your best to stop smoking...and today euu told mie... euu smoke yesterday and today...and the worse thing euu did is..you even asked ur friend to smoke with euu...yep i noe he is someone who pick up smoking too..bt still?? haish...you should noe what i wanna say..i already say until i dun wanna say anymore...you noe...i thought euu din smoke yesterday..yep i was super happy abt it...in the end?? I was happy for nothing...i duno why..the moment euu tell mie euu smoke...my heart really sank...i had high hope on euu...My dear friend, do euu noe how disappointed i was?? You just sent mie a sms asking mie not to give up on you...and even say a "please" behind it...i really duno wad and how to reply you...Since the day i started talking to euu..wo chong lai mei you fang qi guo ni...You are the one who give up on yourself..not mie..Chances are in your hand...Decisions are in your hand...No matter what decision you had made..i hope euu won't regret it...And no matter what decision you will be making..i will respect it..i hate forcing people..In another word..If you choose to carry on smoking...i won't support you bt i will respect your decision...It's time for you to do some reflection again...
To: Geradine
Hey!! Dun be sad about your grandma gona live alone yea?? I understand how you feel..but if there is other solution...the only way is to help her rent a house near your house..like tat she can always come to your house whenever she like...Try talking your dad about it..it's still not nice to let a elderly staying alone in a house...yep it's not safe...i noe what euu worried about...No matter wad decision your family made..doo respect it yea?? dun be sad over it...at least your grandma is healthy, hyper etc...unlike mine..she dun even recognise mie!! Everytime i see her..my heart sank..not because she dun recognise mie..bt her appearance affect my mood...she's soo skinny...so qiao chiu..she changed alot...she no longer as cheerful as before...she no longer as active as before..If you have realised..i very long din see her le..YES!! I MISS HER!! i miss her badly...bt i choose not to see her...everytime i see her my heart will sank...i almost cried whenever i see her...so i choose to escape...In the past i helped my mum to feed my grandma...noe why?? cos she dun wan to eat whenever my mum feed her *sometimes* So i have to take over the job...yep she eat..i'm happy about it...but NW?? Even if i do tat..i will end up disppointed and sad...
Ker!! i really miss the happy days i had with her...i miss her!! i wan her to be like last time and not getting from bad to worrse...I miss those sundays when my family will go my uncle's house to visit her..she's always offering me food..cooking delicious food for mie..she really dote on mie..cos i'm the only grand daughter. I miss the days she came over to my house to stay for a few days...i really miss those dayss...she will always be there to help mie when i got problem with my dad...Gurl..sorrie.i broke my promise le..i once told euu i won't cry because of this..bt i am crying now..you noe wo de xin zhen de shi hen tong...cos i can't do anything to help her...There is nothing i can doo...beside seeing her in this state until the day she leave mie...
Sunday, September 17, 2006
Miss Calvin badly
Wake up at 9am in the morning...yep you people must be wondering why i woke up soo late for school yea?? Hahaha! well..my FnN paper start at 11am...tat's why i can wake up late =) hmm...bt still i woke up late..lolx!! initially wanna wake up at 8am...Wanna revise my work before meeting geradine at 9.45pm...yep my alarm clock wake mie up...bt still i went back to sleep cos the weather is soo cooling =D So sleep until 9am den wake up...duno wad made mie think tat i meeting geradine at 10.45...so happily i went to revise my work..yep she called my hp bt i din answer cos my phone was in silent mode...and i off the vibration...at 10.10 my house phone rang...i get out of my bed to answer..realised tat my phone got light shinning...grabbed my phone and it was a call from geradine...Called her back using my house phone..and happily asked her...
Mie: Yes Yes??
Geradine: huh??
Mie: you called mie for??
Geradine: You still at home arhx?
Mie: yep yep...why??
Geradine: You noe wad's the time??
Mie: yep..meeting euu at 10.45 wad
Geradine: NOOO!! IS 9.45!!
oops!! i'm darn blur..i duno why...feel soo guilty..made her wait for mie like 1/2 an hour..?? haha bt nvm la...tat time i also waited for her 1/2 an hour...cos she overslept...so fair liao..=x
Yep today is just not my day...after hanging up the phone with geradine..i immediately chiong to the toilet to wash my face...brush my teeth...then grabbed my breakfast and chiong to my room to pack my school bag and books...den get myself changed quickly and ran out of the my room...Wear my sock and shoe... pressed the lift button..was revising my work while waiting for the lift...waited for the lift for 2 minutes..and feel soo weird suddenly...look up and realised "OUT OF ORDER!!" OMG!!...hurry close my books and run down the staircase...yep from 8th floor to 1st floor...was panting like duno wad..bt luckily din sweat..heehee!! and thanks god i din miss my bus..if not i gonna be late for my exam...yep need to be in the hall by 10.45am
Been talking to doobie recently...he's soo funny and crappy..yep sometime really can't stand his nonsense..bt it's ok...anything tat came out from him made mie happy...tat's why i called him sunshine "yang guang"..yep he brighten up my days...=) As for Nick...a buddy of doobie...he's funny and crappy too...bt depend who is he hanging out with...nothing much to say abt him cos i just knew him not long ago...yep today is the 5th day...=) time will allow mie to understand him more...
Although i had been chatting with my brothers in msn...talking or smsing to guy like doobie...bt still the only person i miss is Calvin...haish..9 days din see him le...6 days din talk to him le...he's just like disappeared into thin air...disappeared from my life...Miss him badly...can't wait for prelim to be over...yep 2 more days to go..bt haish.. duno he will be calling mie after my prelim...wanna call him..bt dun wish to...dun wanna disturb him studying...was controlling myself since his school start...yep last nite i dream again..tis time i din dream of him...bt i dream of mie waiting for his call...bt still in the dream he din call...haish..it's just a dream...why can't i dream he called mie?? at least i can feel his prescene and not missing him soo much....when i woke up from my dream..i feel terrible..i feel like crying...i feel like calling him...bt it's already 5.15am...i feel like calling geradine...haish bt dun wanna disturb her cos she got paper today...i feel like calling doobie...bt i choose nt to...first he went to sleep rather late...secondly wad can i tell doobie ?? He dun really noe anything abt calvin...In the end i went back to sleep after replying doobie's sms...
17 September 2006
Was rather disappointed when doobie told mie he smoke 2 sticks in the afternoon...bt what else can i do?? Ask also ask liao...say also say liao...care also care liao...if he dun wanna change i also got no choice...but heehee!! after talking to him about smoking...he finally promise mie tat he will try to reduce the number he smoke...hmm...although he din promise mie he will quit..bt at least he is trying his best to do it...bt ya la..with one condition from mie...and tat is when he feel like smoking...he will call mie to ask from a phone hug from mie -.-'' dun wanna give...bt it's just a phone hug...soo it's not tat bad..at least can help him quit smoking can liao...yea as a friend i'm rather happy about it...doobie!! euu better dun disappoint mie again!! If not i ask nick to slaughter euu =x Jia You!! i believed euu can doo it yea??