28th September 2007 [Friday]
Woke up like 10 plus in the morning as i need to reach SGH at 11 plus...promised to pei alvin ee to visit our patients...but sad to say my patient "Mr Ng" had discharged =( okay la...i'm glad about tat...dun wish to see him in the hospital for long term also la..hopefully he's doing fine and he's able to take good care of his sore =) since we got much time to spare, we went down to delifrance to eat..aww...e food there is soo expensive..!! hur hur..no choice bt to order sth cheap there =x was listening to him abt his bangkok trip...sound fun..regreted not going nor...$300 plus onli nia..!!
Left SGH at 12.30 as i need to rush down to bukit merah NTUC to buy tuna,bread, candles, sparkles for our little pinic with geradine, justin, dear..aww it's our first pinic and i made it happened...aww!! cos pinic was wad i suggested...and sandwiches was wad i made...yea thank to darling ger...dun wanna help mie...still dare tell mie she stuck infront of the tv..=s made mie rush home and behave like some bakery lidat...slice, spread, cut all the breads... =s aniwae i dun mind la.. it's LOVE!! hahaaa!!
aww!
LOVING them to BITS!!
Mmmuuack!!
Loveee you guys
You people RAWK~
by the time i finished making the sandwiched, packed, it was already 3pm..yep time to go down to fetch dear from school..bt sad to say, im not fated to do so...cos his lecturer dismissed him like 3.10 rather than 4 plus? soo i went to his hse downstair to wait for him since he wanna bath. =)
took a bus down and met up with justin and geradine darling..aww!! our first outing to sentosa..to watch SUNSET!!! hehhh...awww i soo bad!! bcos of mie wanted to watch sunset with darling and dear, i pang seh mandarin =x suppose to go work on tis day de..den also can't find ppl to replace mie..soo TOO BAD!! nahh...still got 2 more times before kana banned..aniwae ban ban lo..i also dun feel like working there liao..there sux man..the system and the pay SUX!! always take advantage of us...keep making us free labour for while... =s
aww~ cldn't believed i watched SUNSET wif DEAR!!
e sunset is soo nice...aww love sentosa nia..the sand is soo soft to walk on...the heat from the sun is just right [by the time we go there]...the view of the scenery is fabulous..able to watch SUNSET wif dear is the happiest thing in my life...always wanted to watch sunset wif someone i love...and yep he's the one who i had watch it with..aww...
heee...i'm glad tat darling ger had finally found someone who really care about her...at least this relationship is a more blessing one for her...and i'm happy for her..at the same time i'm envy of them..haha =x duno why also =x well really hope they can last forever...may god bless them...hopefully they are able to go thru thick and thin together...and overcome their individual phobia =)
Darling,
when your phobia happened again, you have justin.
When Justin phobia happened again, he got you.
When you 2 happened to haf phobia together, pls dun forget mie =)
As i promised you since the day i know you,
i will always be there for you when you need mie...
Nothing gonna change this fact yea?
Love you...
Muaacckkk..!
Justin and darling went back home before us..and thank alot, they din even say a bye to us!! ehh..their excuse is they doesn't wan to disturb mie and dear...cos they say we very loving when they about to go =.=''
left siloso beach at 11pm and left sentosa at 11.30pm..though i really can't bear to leave the place!! i have no choice..dear wan mie to go home and rest..and he refused to go home himself cos he wanna send mie home..and mie doesn't wan him to miss his last bus cos of mie..soo yep wad to do? gotta be a good guai..."hold his hand and guai guai go home" =x
reached home about 12am. bath settled my stuff...by the time i wanna call alvin [the new friend of mine] it's already like 2am?Thus i was planning to call him on saturday nite. cos i doesn't wan to disturb him at tis late hr though i promised him to give him a call day ago...cos he say he got lot of thing to tell mie...
29 september 2007 [saturday]
soo yep never did i expect that he waited for my call thru out the whole nite and he didn't get to sleep as he feel tat i might call him anytime... =S [get to know tis when he smsed mie at nite when i was in vivo with dear] i felt bad about it...and keep aplogising to him thru sms.
Mie: I'm sorry...didn;t meant to make you wait for my call. cos by the time i finished my stuff it was pretty late den i doesn't wan to disturb you at late hr. Promised you tat i will call you tonight at about 12am plus?
Alvin: No need to say sorry to mie. I also not impt to you. even if i die le you also won't care.
Mie: wei, you alrite a not arhx? wad happened again? you dun do anything silly horr...dun forget what you promised mie..you promised mie tat you will cherish your life and won't do stupid thing becos of ur ex again le horr..
Alvin: dun worry, i won't break my promised to you de. i will tc of myself de. just feel very sad and disappointed nor.. =(
*alvin called mie and chatted on the phone 4 a while* he told mie he will call mie back after he settled his things but he didn't...i call him, he didn't pick up the phone...and i get worried for him as a friend...cos i noe what exactly happened...and he's a sad case type..soo as a friend i just wanna be there for him, whenever he need mie. though we had not met, though we just get to noe each other...but i won't reject him when he need a listening ear.
Then sms came after awhile
Alvin: Sorry...i think we cut down in talking ba...
Mie: ehh? what happened? why suddenly dun wanna tok to mie? you sure you all right a not? how abt talking for a while?
Alvin: hmm...i dun wished to break ur pretty future...it's better not to contact ba..promise mie muz take good care of urself..i will always rmb you in my heart de..
Mie: Huh? wad does it have to do wif my future? ehh wad exactly happened? why you not answering my call?
Alvin: Sorry as i said you haf a wonderful future now..i dun wished to spoil it..
Mie: huh? can you at least tell mie wad happened to you? what wrong did i do? why you dun wan to tok to mie? i dun care, i will continue to call you till you willing to pick up and tok to mie and tell mie ur prob..i won't leave you alone just lidat...especially when i noe you are down...
Alvin: dun treat mie soo good hao ma? serious thing might happen..
Mie: HAHA wad serious thing will happened? i treat everyone the same de ma...i will always be there for my friends de.. soo dun worry abt mie treating you soo good yea?
there is no reply...
1st October 2007 [Monday]
Mie: Are you alrite? why you never ans my call or reply my sms? you noe i very worried for you? can you like tell mie what wrong did i do?
Alvin: You noe why this few days i dun contact u? cus i told you tat we dun contact much is beta. do you noe tat you treat nmie so good i will fall for you? this would lead to serious prob you noe?..
Mie: Diao...soo what you worried is abt all this tat's why you dun wanna tok to mie? hahaa!! dun worried soo much la...won't easily fall de la.. furthermore i where got treat you good? just a basic concern onli wad...also never do anythin for you =) dun lidat k?
Alvin: i already fall for you...i not joking. i treat every words i said seriously
Stunned...yet doesn't know how to reply him anymore
At nite, met up with dear. Initially we wanted to pei wei wei de [dear's buddy] cos he just broke up wif the gf den feeling very very down...soo just wanna see he alrite a not nor... though i noe mie and jj are in no position to continue to care and giving advice to wei wei...cos jj was pretty sad and down regarding alvin feelin for mie. As for mie i'm lost, i doesn't noe what to do abt it...geradine ask mie ignore alvin...bt i can't do it!
If he other people i might be able to do it...but difinitely not alvin..he just broke off with his gf after knowing his gf is having a bf behind his back...and he's pretty sad about it...and now i doens't wan to leave him aside or say sth hurtful...bt thank god he noe i'm interested in JJ...which is why he choose to cut down the tokin as he noe he has no chance. But the prob is how am i going to solve it? i doesn't wan to hurt anyone of them. i rather mie myself the one who get hurt rather to see either one of them getting hurt. No one will noe how i feel...
dear was understanding...he doesn't wan mie to hurt alvin.even him himself also feel tat alvin very poor thing and i shouldn't stop concerning him or even say sth hurtful to hurt him even more. bt dear was very silly to the extend tat he even mention abt "i rather be the one getting hurt and not you or alvin nor..." soo i rather give u up to him thought tat wasn't wad i wan"...tis sentence, which came out from his mouth piss mie off...and he's soo silly to the extend tat he keep comparing between him and alvin..which made mie even more PISSED OFF!!! yes indeed alvin win dear almost everything...in term of qualification, capabilities, etc...
BUT...
why can't he be more confidence wif himself?
why can't he stop looking down on himself?
Why can't he think tat the only person i LOVE is HIM?
he start arguing with mie when i said all these...which made mie dun feel like arguing anymore...yep wad i can do is to walked off...was too DISAPPOINTED wif him...dear chase mie to cool mie down..bt i dun give a darn...just treid all ways to shake him off of my way...
till rickson [his buddy] called mie and cool mie down...and forced mie to tok thing clear with dear...
thanks god, everything was fine after tat...rickson managed to cool mie down for tis once...and everything went back as per normal...geee..dear get my messaged and i truly understand why dear hit his hand and feel tat way...for one reason.."His afraid of losing mie"...
2 October 2007 [Tuesday]
Mie: Sorry for the late reply. Didn't noe how to reply you. I treat every word you said seriously. But dun worry about it la...maybe it's just a crush. cos you just broke off with your gf ma...den soo qiao you just get to noe mie...den i always there to listen to ur sorrow and make you laugh..maybe becos of tat you feel tat you love mie nor..dun lidat k?
Alvin: I not having crush on u...i'm serious wif u...but i noe, never would you accept me..
Really doesn't know how to reply him...
Had lunch wif dear in bukit merah..aww drank fish soup for lunch..dear said it was nice..=) heh...very long din drink le..after lunch, went to take bus with dear to send him to school..oops!! Monica saw us lovey dovey there =x she was behind us all the while and i din notice it...darn it...bt who care xD...
went to library to read up cos stefanie jie suddenly wanna changed the meetin time. suppose to meet her at marina square at 2pm de...in the end change until 6pm in clark quey shopping centre..aww is my 2nd time there..mroe and more shops there..but still quite empty..and no ppl de nor...shop until shiokh ehh =x hmm...didn't see any nice shoe..=( bt i saw many nice clothes which cost abt 49 to 59 plus =.='' yeppies...and i bought 1 clothes for 30plus.. =) very long din buy clothes le...suddenly felt my clothes darn limited =x aww my first time shopping wif stefanie jie nia...somemore we 2 yrs din meet up le =x bt well she meet mie gt purpose one nor...bt i'm not going to say out wad is it =P
How does things turned up tis way?
I wish we cld be like last time
I wish we can still tok as a fren.
I wish i cld still be there for you
When you are sad,
wad i wan is to be there for you
You hasn't been contactin mie
I dun miss you
But im worried for you.
I always wanted you to be happy
I always wanted to cheer you up when you are sad
But it hurt mie to see you sad cos of mie.
Tat isn't wad i wan
YOu shldn't have fall for mie in the first place
Why didn't you control your feeling well enough?
why didn't you?!?!
You are makin mie in a very difficult position.
I know you expected an answer from mie.
But i can't ans you tat "yes it's impossible for us"
Tat's not mie..
i care for people feelin.
i dun wish to hurt you..
I'm here to cheer you and to let you get over your ex
But not here to reject you nor accepting you.
Though i noe you not long,
Though i dun really noe you tat much,
but i can tell tat you are absolute a nice guy.
I'm not the only nice girl who exist in ur life.
There are much nicest girl out there waiting for you...
Pls get rid of the feeling you had for mie.
I wish to talk to you real soon
I wish everything will be back to normal
I dun wish to see you feelin miserable animore
3 October 2007 [wednesday]
woke up at 6am in the morning as i promised dear tat i would wish to send him to school again. Kinda miss him...just feel tat the time spend with him is never enough. sad to say the journey to his school was pretty fast..=/ wish i cld spend more time wif him...saw junliang outside the school..and yep for once i wave at him..hahaa..guess i'm quite fine wif seeing him and rickson.
went back home to sleep for another 2 hrs after sending him to school...woke up at 12pm as i need to fetch jean [geradine's cousin] from her school chij kellock] as i promised her to bring her out. brought her to vivo to treat her lunch. den brought her to a shop to select present. today was her bdae =) bought her a watch which will be shared between mie and geradine darlin...see her off at abt 3pm as she gotta go home and complete her school homework =)
since i got the time before meeting daryl for dinner at 6pm...took a striaght bus to toa payoh...heh heh...fetch dear dear from school.aww!! dear dear not feelin well oh...soo poor thing. yep for once i send him home..den i took a bus down to vivo to meet daryl
by the time i reached there, it's only 5.10pm...chat with dear on the phone regarding the sms between mie and rickson..hahaa!! realised tat i made him until he went shock plug..=x waited for daryl till 5.20pm... pei him go for dinner at food republic as i was still full. after dinner took a walk around vivo..realised nth much to see...and we were pretty tired...soo went home. Initially wanna go meet dear again de...but he nt feeling well ma..soo wan him rest at home nor..aniwae tml also fetching him from school...den go library read up..soo it's okay la...endurance =D
Im missing euu more & more each day
I love you, dear
Muuaacck*!*!
was reading ping ping blog. felt abit disappointed wif her. how cld she say we dun care for her? time heal alrite? yes indeed we cancel the outing which ger, her and mie are lookin forward to. But the fact is day before this outin, ger darling was very moody due to her dad. and 3 days after tis incidence we indeed went for soo call double date. During tis outing, she was fine... she wasn't moody animore. can't ping be happy about tat? does she wan to see her moody all the way? she shld be proud of her and not thinking tat we left her out! we can't possibly ask her to join along since we are going wif someone who we love? it will make her feel extra. soo why shld we ask her to join us since we noe her ans? Hope she can be more sensible and think abt if her thinking is healthy anot. Just felt disappointed, we always there for her when she say she is sad..yet she lidat tok abt us.
read ping blog and found this part quite interesting to describe abt mie and dear. Somehow i find it quite accurate abt whatever they said inside. But how true abt the last sentence [capricorn women] i'm not too such abt it.
CAPRICORN WOMEN:
A tall slim, cool and quiet woman. Once she is mad she can be very fierce.She can work better than some men and she is very high confident woman. Inher opinion, woman is not just a flower or decoration at home or at anoffice and certainly not a weak sex who needs protection.
She likes to control and hide her weak emotions. She will never try to change anyone, but she will learn to accept them as they are. If she does not like someone, she will not comments or criticize but she will completely ignore that person.She hate plastic and an artificial flower because it make her feel that youare not being sincere. She loves real flower and it's scent.
She loves a guy who wear after shave cologne. If you are a type of a guy who wear your Jeanone month before washing, or wear an old sneaker, then you can forget about her.
She loves music and nature even there is a rare case otherwise. She loves to go picnic in nature, so if you don't have so much time for her, you can take her fishing too.She is not as jealous as Aquarius or Leo woman, but do not cross the line O.K. Better not to see she gets mad, especially in front of public when shefeels like loosing face. She loves to make up and dress perfectly and very neat, so never rush her for this matter.
She has her own goal in life and does not care if you have a doctorate degree or not, if she thinks you are not bright then she will not care about you at all. She likes smart people by character not by certificate shown. If you can not show her this quality, go and take a bus and go to the next stop.
She does not like a dreamer who talk about his dream but never put his hands in action to make it happens. Don't bother to tell her "everyone is doing it, you should do it too", or "I think you should do it, it's good for you",because she will do what she wants to do only.She is a neat and tidy person, so if your apartment is a pigsty , do not take her there. If you go out on a date with her , try to be presentable such as nice and clean dress, clean nails or else it will be your last date.
She is a cool type and will not nag, so easy on your ears. She is a slow but sure type. She will always respect and honor you and will never try to make you loose your face. If she loves you, she will help you in anything you do.She likes to help people and expect nothing in return. If she asks you for a favor and does not get one, she will feel very disappoint. She has a highhope and a high faith and beliefs in her own confident than believing in"Luck".
If she is your wife, you will have nice and clean home and a gourmet cooking. If your parents visit your house, they will be please. She is a 3 in 1 means , a perfect mother, a perfect housewife, a perfect wife or you could say "happily ever after".
CAPRICORN MAN
A man in this Zodiac will has a pair of round big beautiful eyes, a nice structure jaw line. He is a good listener and can understand everything easily and clearly. He can guess what you will say before you even say it.
He often shakes his head or touch his hair. He is a big built, but he will tend to have a small ear. He tends to have a darker shade of hair and eyes'color. He will likely have a short and strong neck, broad shoulder,muscular, strong hands and grips. He has a shorter fingers compare to theman of the same size and same height in the other zodiac. His hands can workwell at the same time can protect and care for his woman.His height will be proportional to his weight.
He will walk firmly and always take a big long step. As he walks he will look around in caution withno disturbance from his problems at present or in the past. He likes to watch things built with fascinate and wonder about how it is done, so youcould see him watching a construction site and not get bored.
He is a good dancer. He is a careful person in instinct, so even at dancefloor, he will already have to know what in front or behind him before he will take any steps. Green is his favorite color. You will mostly see him wear green, navy, blue,or brown. In all 12 Zodiacs, he is the one who can get the most satisfactionfrom possession of beautiful thing, and cherish it as if it is very valuableto him even it is just a crystal ball made in France.
It is his luck that he hardly has to chase after woman. They always come themselves without his invitation. He likes to treat his guest in his house than visiting his guest at their house. He does not like to be a center of attention, so if you need his help, you have to look up for him. He lives his life in stability and simplicity. Every decision made are already "Sure"and carefully thought out. He will not do what he has been asked to do if he is not interested in doing it. He acts casually but in reality, he always doing things seriously.
He loves peaceful and quiet environment so in his free time, he will stay at home instead of going out and look for adventure. He loves nature and dreams of a nice and quiet house with lots of trees, or he may dream of a house ina beautiful countryside.He will let you have freedoms and watching you in a distance. If you are over doing something, he will let you know by his icy cold look.
He is the perfect lover in all the Zodiac for nothing he will not do for his love one.He won't allow people to laugh at him or think he is a joker, so he will spent for himself luxury for what it is worth.He likes neat and well dressed woman, so do not be a slop if you are dating this guy. If you do that he will loose his face. He is the romantic type who would dance with you under the moon light.Love will make him shines and you will see it in his face. He will not say it out loud, you have to know it yourself.