Friday, August 25, 2006
Why i fall asleep??
wah!! finally my blog is back to normal!! weee!! was darn pek cek with my blog yesterday...Type a long entries and yet publish post tat time...all gone!! waste my time, electricity, my effort to type lo...kao!! everything just gone like tat...can't be bother to retype yesterday...nvm..later retype again...yesterday wasn't in a good mood also...Was feeling heartbroken and angry at the same time...actually is not angry la..is just testing my patient...haha!! Why heartbroken?? heh!! this time round not about calvin..but is about jessica, my dotter.!! she argh!! dunno wad to say about her anymore...yesterday in msn, she told mie tat she accidentally deleted her soo call "jie jie" sms without reading it... and she over there very xintong and soo jing zhang...den asked her jie jie to send the sms again...bt her jie jie took such a long time to send the sms and this gurl over there feeling impatient for it...As for mie?? when she slping and i just happened to send her sms, she will just delete it after reading halfway or never even read..like wad is this lor?? Then she come tell mie her jie jie very important to her...So i not important to her la?? Then she come tell mie she only trust her jie jie when telling her personal problem...ok tat's fine to mie..bt then is she trying to say she dun trust mie to the extend that she dun wish to share her problems with mie ?? bt there is something i dun get it...she always say as a marmie i should i understand her more, know how she feel...bt hw am i going to understand her if she dun tell mie her problem?? well...usually i feel nothing abt this la..bt dunno why ytd feel soo heartbroken abt it haha...not beig jealous or wad..maybe is the way she phrase her sentence..and also the timing not right..cos i'm getting impatient and sort of pek cek with my blog le...
As for why i said it's testing my patient is: I received a sms from geradine..and this person...i also got nothing to say abt her...she forever cannot set her mind...she's forever changing her timing and her plan...yep long ago she said she will be buying vanessa present on sat which is today...yep was intending to go with her also cos i need to buy present for someone...bt then she said she not too sure yet cos she wanna study on saturday...so she said she might be buying with her mum on friday instead...den saturday can stay home study...Then last week she said vanessa will be staying at her house on friday..soo she might not be able to make it on saturday..den she asked mie sunday can a not..bt unfortunately i can't..soo she said see how first..see what time vanessa going back on saturday...den we go and buy...Then yesterday afternoon she said she can make it tomorrow le..which is today...Cos vanessa not going over to her place le...soo we set the time...yep 1pm...and happily at night she told mie she can't meet mie le cos vanessa will be going to her house...like wad is this lor...is always liddat..last time go out also like tat..just when can she make up her mind?? yep i noe this thing she also bu xiang one..cos vanessa just happened to go her house...yep soo wad else can i say?? knew this will happened...but when?? just when can she have her mind set and not keep changing and changing??
hm...At least i'm feeling better le..haha!! back to myself le...and i'm soo happy!! my blog is back to normal le..i can edit the colour the font liao..no need to take the code then paste..haha!! When blog got problem it's really darn troublesome lor..
>.<''!! why i fall asleep?? argh!! why didn't i feel the vibration?? The last msg tat i sent him is at 12.45am...yep was waiting for his call again =x I think it's a habit to mie le..lolx..yep was listening to radio and lying on the bed...yep as usual suddenly opened my eyes...check phone...then give a reaction...SHIT!! why didn't i feel the vibration?? I purposely put my hand on top of the phone and yet i din feel it..stupid!! yep check the time he called...and it's like 1.35 am...haha...by the time i saw the missed call was already 1.55am le...called him immediately and his phone is off...which mean tat he sleep le..*sobsob*...argh!! irritating!! tat time really wanna kok my head...
Wee!! gonna have my own mock later...yep bought O level June paper [math] gonna used this to see hw much i can score for it...and yep gonna time myself..haha!! will be doing the full paper...lolx..confirm sit until my butt pain...=x yep will off my phone..hang up my house phone..soo that there won't be anyone disturbing mie..haha!! must concentrate..lolx
Time:
Paper 1: 2pm to 4pm
Paper 2: 11pm to 1.30am
alamak!! looked like i listened to the wrong song le...listening to korean song...autumn in my heart [qiu tian the tong hua] while scanning through some old photos tat i took with my friends etc...yep saw minnie, jermaine sabrina inside the toot photo...haha!! we looked soo toot lor..i think now better...look nicer and prettier...haha..we shall see!! now say nicer..who knows 10 years later we think it's toot...!! it's always like this...trend keep changing yea?? haish wondering how is sabrina le...is she still with those gangster?? wad is she doing?? is she running away from home again?? Is she stealing things again?? i got no idea about it...hopefully she gai guo zhi xin le ba...and hopefully she dun get into trouble outside...god bless her man...
Yep continue to scan through other photos..and uh huh saw adrian photos...yep was stoning at his photos for like 5 mins?? was reflecting wad he had said...he said he dun believed i dun love him anymore..he believed that i do love him at least a bit...yep was asking myself this question...finally i came out with an answer..i really dun love anymore..i'm serious...the feeling had all gone...yep deleted all his photos but intending to keep this photos as memory....
Dear: this is the last time i'm gonna call euu dear...I'm sorrie for being unfaithful...i have always thought tat i won't be unfaithful to euu..bt it seem tat i did...i'm sorrie...what i can say is tat i dun mean it...reallie...Also, sorry for hurting you again and again...yep i understand it can be really painful...bt what i can say is tat i really dun mean to hurt euu...If you know mie well enough euu will know that i hate hurting people...Thanks for those sweet memories tat euu had given mie...the kind of love euu used to shower mie...and the care euu had shown mie..Thanks for everything...Do take good care of yourself...=)
24 August 2006 (Friday)
Yesterday science practical (prelim) was horrible...Biology was alright to mie..bt not chemistry...time was just nice...and the question was rather difficult...haish i think i won't score better than my mid year le...haish...my mid year practical exam was rather good...bt this time i dun think soo le...hee!! the teacher incharge was miss sylvia wong!! One of my favourite teacher...hee!! Princess in my school..love her...she soo sweet and cute cann?? Asked her for helped and she smiled at mie..omg!! haha very long din talk to her le..heh even if talk also duno wad to say..=x yep jessica was darn jealous cos she love this teacher also..yep too bad she in another classroom..so bo bian lor...haha!! Like tat also good la...later she can't concentrate den did mistake or wad...den mrs leong disappointed or wad..den she will heartpain...=x Btw i did a lot of malu things during this practical...i'm darn blur..i really dunno why...
Malu thing i ever did:
1) Crushed the peanut on white tile...part of it dropped on the floor while crushing...[biology]
2) Burnt the peanut..and the testa happily fly away due to strong wind
-.-'' [biology]
3) Was asked to boiled the solution X, So i on the gas in bunsen burner 1...but i happily go light the bunsen burner 2...-.-'' Soo malu lor...[chemistry]
4) Was asked to meausre 2cm cube of sodium hydroxide and add ammonium chloride into it...after measured the sodium hydroxide using the measuring cylinder...i can happily forget to pour it into test tube...guess wad happened?? i went to the front with measuring cylinder and happily pour the ammonium chloride..no wonder i feel soo weird...haha at least i realised my mistake k when i went back to my bench...yep redo the whole thing...=)
5) Was asked to add solution into Salt X...need to take down the observation and test for gas...yep close it with a cork to prevent too much of gas escaping...cos i need to write down the observation before i forget..and happily the cork fly off with a pop sound and hit my friend who was sitting infront -.-'' Was laughing all the way...
hehee!! let's talk about today...well dunno wad happened also...time flies today...reallie..is like just enter the classroom den ding dong le...haha abit kuang zhang bt tats wad i feel about it...yep today chemistry lesson was sooo funny...and i duno wad's the problem with mr yeo..he keep rushing us...hurry hurry hurry!! yep hurry until i took out the wrong worksheet..=x Yep will never forget how shy mr yeo was and how shameless can natasha be...haha!! This was what happened...
Mr yeo was like sort of saying natasha...
Natasha: "mr yeo can you stop scolding mie?"
Mr yeo said: "i'm not scolding euu"...
Natasha said: "I know euu love mie bt no need to scold mie."
haha!! Mr yeo was blushing and yep he am chio!!
Had my geography mock today...there is nothing i can said about it..the question is soo chim and we dun haf enough time for it...was given 50 mins for 35 marks question (map reading and structure)...well wad i can said is watever we studied din really came out...bt nvm la..can used it for our prelim rite?? at least we revised halfway for prelim le..prelim just need to read through tourism and development and environment degradation...so only left 2 topic to study and tat is agriculture and industry...=) Furthermore...geography, chemistry and biology prelim paper fall on the same day lor..teacher mad one lorr...
Went to bukit merah with jermaine and minnie...accompany them to hawker centre to eat..yep i din eat anything..dun feel like eating...dunno why also...it's always like tat exam coming dun feell like eating one..haha!! maybe stress ba...need not worry i will eat a lot at nite...Yep went to mac at 3.55 cos we got tuition at 4pm...Calvin was already there...yep eating fast food...haha still say he dun like to eat fast food..lolx...
Dunno wad happened to mie also...wasnt feeling well suddenly...hate the smell of the fries..it's so strong...might be becos of my fries meal last weekend....yep suddenly feel like puking bt managed to control myself..yep was communicating with minnie through writing =x Din talk much bt laughed the most..lolx..as you noe i a bit of thing also laugh one..=x Den dunno what happened also...calvin teaching halfway i run to toilet to puke...Was inside the toilet for 5 minutes...just nice came out of the toilet and minnie was about to look for mie..haha!! and this woman..i really wanna struggle her lorr..she asked mie euu vomitted arhx?? Den she asked mie how come...i got no answer for tat So i said "expected" and this woman go heard as "expecting" And she started to give mie that kind of weird looked "huh??" =.='' wah liew i'm saying i expected this thing to happened and not saying i'm pregnant la...aiyOo!!
The two of them good!! Both minnie and calvin very good!! Combined force to hamtam mie...asked mie help them buy this buy tat...minnie was like asking mie to help her take a cup of water...Den this calvin is like asking mie to help him buy ice cream den take this take that..haha!! bt i dun care...din help them..where got tutor asked tutist to do this do tat one?? aiyOo!! So in the end calvin go buy himself...haha!! dun try to hamtam mie..=x yep...was doing math halfway...and this calvin really treat mie as waitress lorr...asked mie take order...an i'm like take wad order?? -.-'' yep this time round he wan tea -.='' troublesome leh he!! bt i dun care...soo he went to buy himself...ahaha!!
Well...i dunno why i soo blur ...especially after i puked...haha!! said something tat i shouldn't have said it...Well this was what happened...after tuition...calvin was like saying bye to us..and guess wad i said?? i said "bye" den i said "thank you and may god bless you" =.='' Minnie was like stoning at mie..and i'm like ehh?? why am i saying tat arhx?? lolx...yep even asked minnie why i said tat?? and this was wad she said " you blur until you thought euu in school" Anyway no harm saying tat also la...haha...trained by the school le...whenever i said thank you confirm will have the sentence "may god bless you" haha..it's a habit le..lolx
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
Class photos!! =D
ytd is such a long and tiring day for mie..yep..Went to school then went for tuition...Initially all of us have to stay back for account lesson which start at 2.30pm...unfortunately mr poon is on MC...soo minnie and i went to telok blangah cresent (hawker centre)to eat lunch...Cos we got tuition at CC at 4pm...Minnie ate chang fen and shui jiao..as for mie..dun feel like eating..yep like wad calvin said i eat air can le..haha..cos during recess i also din eat anything..=x dunno why also..maybe stress ba..haha..was revising my stuff while waiting for minnie to finish all her food. Den we went to a shop cos i wanna buy candy bt end up i bought a bar of chocolate =x well...went to cc to wait for calvin..yep 1 hour more to 4pm =x Soo take out book again to revise..minnie do her math homework while mie revising my geography...
yep tuition end at 5.35pm...Was chatting with minnie on our way to the bus stop..den saw my bus gone le..so saddd...cos i wanna go home and sleep...hahaa...intend to sleep for 2 hour den wake up study my bio cos thursday got science practical *prelim* Yep reached home around 6.15...by the time i bath finished already 7pm le..went to bed bt den can't slp..haha.!! man zhe reply sms to Geradine/jessica/calvin..haha!! Then forget it dun wan sleep le..Went to kitchen to have my dinner with my mum..haha..den super tired after tat...was having a slight headache le..den bo bian have to go sleep..by then already 9.20pm le ...lolx..yep managed to wake up at 12.30am.den went to study my science for 3 hours...den went to bed at 3.30 =x Time flies at nite..=x Yep then wake up at 6am for school..lolx!! Pathetic rite??
Went to bus stop to take bus to school...yep miss my bus while walking to the bus stop..timing forever not rite one.hhaa..yep was revising my chemistry while waiting for my bus to come..Then suddenly gt auntie came to the bus stop...den she accidentally dropped a plastic bag which contain longan...den all the longans rolled on the ground...Yep went to help her picked it up..and she like soo touched..haha!! Keep saying thank you thank you..and i'm keep saying bu ke qi bu ke qi..haha...Yep after helping her to pick up the longan on the ground...i actully offered her a piece of tissue paper..cos the floor is darn dirty and sandy...so let her clean her hand..=) Yep..this is wad we called "person for others right"?? when people need help..just give them a helping hand...a good deed and euu will feel happy abt it =)
Whoohoo!! finally get to see our class photos le!! soo happie!! finially can order liao..haha..it gonna cost mie $12.50...ordered 2 funshot photos which cost $2.50 each...den ordered a full package which consist of 1 class photo, 1 individual photo, 3-4 passport photos..yep and this package cost mie $7.50...Yep today have to prepare a short caption tat will be printed in our yearbook together with our individual photo...haha!! love being last year..soo many memorable events..Looking forward to Patron Day where we will be holding candle in St Theresa's Church =x I know wad euu ppl thinking!! Like as if i first time holiding a candle/ Holding candle onli wad...haha!! bt then only graduating classes can be able to light up/hold candle. Only once in a lifetime =x euu say memorable a nt?? Looking forward to graduation Day..!! wahh!! receiving certificate from Principal..lolx..Den must dress in all white again =x Tat time i really dunno wad time must go geradine hse le..lolx..cos 8am must reach school le..yep might be going for Pom nite On the same day..[24 Nov 2006]..See the venue nice a not lor..if nt nice mie nt going le..!! Rather go eat international buffet with my clique..bleah!!
Love being in IJ school..!! haha..uniform soo unique...soo special..bt den very warm =x...Love being in gurl school..gurl rawks!! =D Somemore IJ school is spread around the world...Singapore, France, American, Japan etc...All IJ girls join together can really go for war le =x The population is super huge can!! IJ school is the best!! And it will always be the best..=)And IJ girl wearing IJ blue is soo easy to identify by the public..Cos onli Ij school will have the same IJ blue uniform..=)
Wah!! we soo fortunate sia...After this year lots of teacher gonna leave le..haha..Mr tan wanna go to neighbourhood school..He sound serious abt it...yep..unless the MOE nt allow..den bo bian have to stay..Then Mrs Ong also leaving le..*retiring* This year is her last year..and we are her last batch!! soo fortunate!! =x Then heard from mr tan tat Next year Might be a new principal!! lolx...dun euu think we are fortunate?? Then next year we won't be able to see Mrs Low (geography teacher), Mrs Ang (Our lower sec english teacher), Mdm Chen (Chinese teacher) Cos this 3 teachers are pregnant!! haha...So they will be giving birth like around End of year to Beginning of the year (2006) ?? WhooOhOO!! 3 mothers in STC..hahaa
Haish bt also sad la..tat mean after we gradualate, we go back to school is like visiting the school and not the teachers..haha..cos some gone to other school le..Also cannot blame them...Teaching in our school is super stress..like mr sng like tat..left us becos it's too stress for him to continue teaching in STC...den some on maternity leave..haha..Next year confirm lack of teachers sia..somemore the 3 pregnant teachers are those very experience in teaching one..
Ok!! now i shall proceed to my sweetheart jessica..lolx She will love this paragraph alot..cos this 2 paragraph will be talking abt her ONLY!! yep..was asked to blog abt her in all my entry -.-'' Beside that she still asked mie to admire her photos -.-'' And ask mie to love her more than i love calvin -.-'' yep i can promised her to blog abt her everyday, admire her photos everyday =s bt definitely not loving her more than the one i love...
YEP..lucky this time got something for mie to blog abt her...lolx..yep is about her toe nail!! tat time i mentioned abt duno hw she play captain ball..play until her toe nail blue black..den ok...monday nite she called mie and told mie tat her toe is bleeding..and the blood just couldn't stop bleeding..yep was expected this thing to happened..Cos her nail come out ma..soo of cos will bleed...And this women darn cute lo..asked her go clinic c doctor to stop the blood etc..den she said her area no clinic..den i asked her go call her dad..den asked her dad to bring her to see doctor..and guess wad she said?? she say i wan to bath!! i just came back...very stinky!! i wan to bath!! -.-'' for goodness sake..!! At this moment euu still wan to care how sticky and how stink euu are?? yep was telling her wad to do with her nail and wad food cannot be eaten...reallie like her mother liddat lo..still must tell her to bandage her toe when she go out and when she go sleep...den take out the bandage when she is at home cos she need to air it...-.-'' Den was asking her to buy "xiao du shui" to wash her toe...and this gurl just dun wanna buy cos she dunno wad is it =.='' Ok will never forget wad i said to her ytd...haha!! was telling her this: OOO...btw even if euu dun use xiao du shui to wash your wound...and if euu still choose to use water to clean ur wound...bear in mind tat euu need to open the nail...den clean it...den close back..=x yep this sentence is darn er xin..and yep minnie was laughing at the way i describing it..cos i just need to to describe in detail..if nt this gurl confirm will ask mie how to wash inside -.-''
To:adrian
Let mie warn euu one last time..dun ever call mie till my o level end...im getting to feel irritated by you...can euu just stop pestering mie with ur stupid topic tat euu wanna talk abt...Can euu just get out of my life completely? i beginning to hate myself cos of euu..i dislike hurting people, dislike treating people like the way i treat euu...Bt euu are always pushing mie to the extend tat i haf to hurt u..i hate myself when i treat euu like tat. Bt i ought to tell euu hw i feel towards euu..plus dun train mie with this stupid attitude tat i am using on u..i dun wanna make it a habit..N this is my last time telling euu tat i dun feel comfortable talking to euu..i rather talk to tat irritating baowei than toking to you..yep..tok to her can puke blood bt at least i feel much comfortable toking to her than talking to euu..hope euu understand tat. So please stop calling mie..if not i gona change my handphone and hse number...Dun think i'm just joking..i'm serious abt it...Worse come worse serve we can't even be frenz..is all up to euu...there is nothing else for mie to say abt euu...gai shuo le wo ye shuo le..Once again sorrie
Monday, August 21, 2006
Love Baking Lasagna
Wee enjoyed fnN lesson today..we did cooking!! haaahaa!! very long din cook le..all because of our project...nvm..now our project alreayd 100% completed le..both PART A n PART B...yep we cooked Lasagna =) yummy!! soo chessy...cos we add a lot of cheese on top..=) Copy down the receipe...gonna make it after my O level!! haha..looked like i will be darn busy after my O level..got lots of thing to do..lolx...den gonna make cookie for jessica etc...den gonna learn to make brownie from shi hui...den going to peirce ear with geradine...etc...
WhoHoO!! will never forget wad mrs ong told us..she told us tat she going to retired le...this yr is her last yr..and we like ??? soo young can retire meh?? den she said she nt young..she already 59 years old..and we like WHAT?? OMG..thought she was joking with us...cos she looked like 48-52 years old lo..see left see right see top see bottom...just can't see tat she already 59 years old..haha..then she admit she vain ma..den asked we all to be vain also..onli vain people will be able to look younger =.='' And then she said tat mdm lim is younger than mRS Ong..Omg!! we always thought mdm lim is the oldies..!=x we thought she is mrs ong senior...in the end?? She is much younger than mrs ong...Plus mdm lim looked as if she is 58-60 years old lo...diao!! now i Noe why people say never judge someone by it's appearance..lolx
Sunday, August 20, 2006
Misses him
Wah!! so jealous lor...geradine told mie tat she saw mr sng ytd and i'm like soo darn jealous!! i miss him a lot..i'm dying to see him lorr...especially his newborn baby lor.!! argh!! geradine get to see his newborn baby + mr sng and not mie!! *sob sob* misses him badly..so long din see him le..haish..about 3 mths le?? hope to see him one fine day..yep near my area..heard tat mr sng's newborn baby is darn cute!! of cos la..mr sng's baby leh..say not cute is fake one lorr...and whoever dare to say not cute i will ah bish him/her* Mr sng soo cute..baby of cos cute la..next time older le..of cos will be as handsome as mr sng one..hehe!! ehh?? i sound very hua chi leh..=x hhaa..mie nt in love with him k...just misses him very much...his my favourite teacher...yep..no one will ever replace him..he's the onli teacher tat i trust the more..the onli teacher tat i respect the most..the onli teacher who respect students..he may be strict and look firece bt if euu noe him well..he's nt..he's the best teacher tat i ever met...love him to bits...haish dunno wad's the problem with those people around mie..My dad been showing black face for a few days..dunno wad's the problem with him..see his face just make mie no mood..like as if i owe him million dollars like tat..make mie can't be bother to talk to him...den my mum also..ytd came back home like throwing temper on plates -.-'' My elder brother also..this few days look soo moody and sian..den face also a bit orh lu lu one...asked him question dun answer one..den geradine also..dunno why she a bit of thing den start to piss off liao..for her still ok..at least i not every minites facing her...den calvin also another one..dunno wad happened to him also..his behaviour is rather weird these 3 days..For him also alrite la..maybe he busy with his studies ba..
yep..den these two days he also din call mie le..soo sad and disappointed..yep waited for his call till 12 to 1 plus..like wad i always do everynite..dunno he will call a not bt i will still wait...meanwhile take out a book to study lor..tired le..keep the book away...lie on the bed while waiting for his call..unfortunately i fall asleep...the moment i opened my eyes...i will think of him..den check my phone c got any missed call..is an immediate effect...action is super fast...[OPEN EYES..CHECK PHONE]..bt was rather disappointed..cos he din call mie at all..yep was telling myself maybe he busy with his study ba..yep went back to sleep and dreamt abt him -.-'' The dream is about mie toking to him on the phone happily..the feeling is soo real..and i'm soo excited and happy about it...When i wake up the feeling is still there...is as if i just talked to him...bt den see the phone beside mie...haish..it's just a dream..yep disappointment again..am i really misses him too much?? am i thinking of him too much until i can even dream of him..??
was reflecting about wad vanessa said..she asked mie to ask myself this question: who can give you happiness?? being loved by someone or having to love someone?? After 1 day of reflection..i finally got an answer...able to love someone is a happiness to mie..and it may be hurtful at certain time and situation..But being loved by someone can really be hurtful, sad and heartbroken..when there are problems..But for sure there will still be happiness
To: Vanessa
I understand what euu trying to say..and dun say sorry to mie..=) i won't accept it..yep wad i wanna tell euu is mie and adrian is really impossible..there is something tat euu won't understand why i dun give us another chance...bt euu noe..in the past we had problems..we try to solve it...bt no matter how hard we solve it...the problems are still there..soo i dun see the reason why i should give us another chance...=)Even if i give us another chance..the problems will still be there...