Past few days i felt so weird. Just felt a suddened changed in mie.. Suddenly become soo quiet. Felt soo suffocated in a way. I had lots of negative thinking recently. Thinking about friends, family and my life. I duno why.. I haf no idea what made mie feel tis way.. What i noe is, Im not happy to stay in tis world. I'm not happy about my friends around mie though they did nth.
Wad worse is, what i always dislike/hate doing it.. Suddenly had a urge to do it. Suddenly feel like drinking... Suddenly feel like smoking... Suddenly feel that no one care about mie, and why shld i even bothered about them? Suddenly feel that no one is actually dear to mie [fren] That's include my 5 darlings. Somehow, Somewhat..i felt that we had distant. Only when they got problems, we will talk. If not Silence..
Yes, to you, you may feel tat i'm still as dear to you guys But to mie, i felt tat everything had changed. You may say that you still cherish mie, You may say that i'm still dear to you, You may say that i'm the special one... You can say what you wan. To mie, words does not count. Cos i dun even feel that way.. Touched ur heart, ask yourself... I'm i really that IMPT? i dun feel that way animore. [Not hinting to anione. It's just wad i had been thinking]
Ooohh!! today i'm super attentive during MIC lesson. For the first time i din slp during this lecture sia..heh!! basically i had fall in love with this subject and i wanna do it well..yep i admit i failed my MIC. Somehow it discouraged mie. Bt no matter wad, i will try my best to score well for tis subject. TML I'm having MIC RETEST!! bad news, i haven study yet cos i only get to noe the retest is tmr.. Thanks to someone who tell mie MIC RETEST is end of this mth =.='' kao!! *can't rmb who is it*
Two lectures are cancelled..FON & PAS...haiyoo..stupid sia..left MIC in the middle of nowhere..becos of MIC, have to wait for 3hrs. cos FON lectures is 2hr..den plus our 1hr break. Did nothing during the break..was replying sms to Rui Hao throughout the 1 hr. And is soo darn lame to smsed him la..Guessed wad? He was just 7 feets away from my area. =.='' yea i noe is funni..adora find it funny..can't even control her own laughter lah..haiyoo..
wee u weet!! today i sign up for Fund Raising which fall on 11th Aug. HEH!! is ownself volunteer de. sad la, duration only 3 pathetic hours only and we can get 2 CCA PTS? well, i have to say tis, i joined tis is not becos of CCA PTS...is just that i love fund raising!! i dun really like to donate money but i love to ask ppl to donate..yea i noe i'm crazy!! But well i do donate occasionally. Duno why i'm soo in LOVE with such events..haha!! yesterday wanna sign up for duno what...help to collect newspaper and raise fund. it fall on this coming saturday. unfortunately i cldn't make it cos i got ndp..Zzz..reallie wish i can make it lo..haish!!
I love helping people who deserve my help. No matter how much time is wasted, No matter how tiring it is I will try my best to help them.
Yesterday was my first day on Ground (NE 0). Being an bay ambassador was soo fun. Beside doing ur duty, you can even watch the show! Wish to participate next year.
Though my first spectacles [first guest who entered] made mie had a hard time to pursue him to sit on the first row. But it doens't spoil my day. Cos i understand why he doens't wan to sit soo front. Is just like watching movie..the centre row and the back row is always the best. Since they came soo early to que up, they shld deserve a better seat? If not come soo early for waD? But sorry!! i can't help it cos i have to follow the rules. We are just doing our job! we dun get any pay aniwae. Go ahead with all ur vagarities. Go ahead with all ur scolding. It won't help. Not happy? you can just leave. Hopefully the next few shows, the spectacles won't make things hard for us.
aniwae next saturday my job is to go to my assigned primary school and bring them all the way to the destination either by bus or by mrt. heh!! it gonna be soo fun. cos we have to take care of them..!! 2 bay ambassador per class...hopefully they are not naughty =)
Basically i watched almost all the show. the lighting was nice. the atmosphere was darn good. especially when the student "on" their star shape touchlight. it really show how beautiful singapore is...but in term of performance...i dun think is very nice..nth special at all....ohhh!! last and not least..firework!! last nite fire works was darn nice..wish darling was here watching with mie. i think they gonna make it even better..i belived they can! and i believed i'm able to watched the fantastic firework on the actual day.
Was thinking about my grandpa while watching firework. He love firework. Every National Day, he wont miss the chance the see firework. But tis year, He's no longer able to watch it animore... Miss him soo much.
was thinking of you while watching the firework. reallie wish you were there yesterday. cos the firework is simply soo nice. and i believed you will love it. Miss you soo much dear! You had left mie for 16 days. This 16 days, i had been thinking of you. Can't wait for dec to arrived. Wish to see you and feel you real soon... Love you dear..