HAPPY 1ST MTH ANNIVERSARY
to dearie =)
Loving you as ever
Muackie
Is that how we know
if there is any hidden feelin inside us?
Is that how we know
we had been untrue to ourself all the while ?
why?
why didnt you accept mie
when i was so desparate about you?
When you told mie
"you love mie"
&
wish i cld accept you,
i gave you a chance
but you change your mind
&
hurt mie badly
juz becos of "tat" perspective
You had been hurtin mie,
juz to let mie forget you.
Its been 9mths,
that i had get rid of you in my mind.
And now,
Im attached with dear.
You realised you really love mie
&
regreted abt the past.
You realised you had been untruth to you
was that fair to mie?
You gave mie
your most selfish thought,
which you agreed.
You said if i were to give you another chance,
you will make up everything.
How are you goin to do tat?
Sometime,
there is nth you cld do to amend the scar
in my heart.
I told you,
sometime i do think of you.
You asked will dear
only my substitute?
The answer is No.
We had been together without status.
For one reason,
i wish that wasnt true.
Is all in the past,
Its too late to say "You love Me"
I cherish our memories,
I treasure you as my good fren.
Last & not least,
We are impossible.
Im Sorry
"Im sorry that i hurt you and it took me to long to realize it, that i really loved you and wanted the best for you, on matter what i meant for me. I guess its too late now. I wish i could get a second chance. sigh...if only i could turn back time..."
If only, we could turn back the time, i wouldnt mind givin you another chance. perhaps it cld even reduce the pain that i had in the past. But there is no way we could do it. Its too late to say all this. The things we ever did will only remain as memories and it will never happen again. Thanks for wishing mie & dear happiness. I know you felt the pain in your heart, is as though you had just gotten urself ur retribution. But trust mie, it will be over real soon. Since we cant be couple, but we can always be good friends =)) Wishing you all the best for your future too. Im waiting for your good news yaa? Huggies
I felt terrible after that,
I know i had hurt him in my words.
Hurting people wasnt what i wan.
But i noe i have to speak
and let you noe we are impossible.
This is my first time
steping out and have the courage to
reject someone
I felt so bad
If all the while he had been my friend to mie,
perhaps i wouldnt felt tis way.
But the fact was,
he was someone that i used to love
Went to find dear in the afternoon,
as i misses him lots.
Catch a movie "The leaps years"
and ya, i CRIED!!!
its soo darn sad x(
haishh think there is sth wrong with my lacrimal gand x(
recently watched movie kept cryin.
I teared a bit for "L change the world" when L abt to die
I teared in modearate amt for "CJ7" when the dad died
and ya..
is obvious tat i spent pretty much on movie x(
some stupid season,
suddenly soo many nice movies x(
met up with him "Calvin"
as a fren @ 5pm in marina square.
ITs been a yr plus since we last met
and this is our first time goin out.
He treated mie movie "The Eye"
and treated mie dinner @ restaurant
=x
Went to esplanade to see scenery
and chit chat @ starbuck,
he asked mie how i got together with dear etc.
And then we ahead home at 10.30pm
btw,
recenly i kept dreaming of dear at nite,
almost everyday tis week.
First 2 times, i dreamt of him arguein with guy
Third time, i dreamt of him studying in STC with mie
Fourth time, i dreamt of him on his way going to msia and stay.
ya, it wasnt a nite mare
but a bad dream.
the dream is soo real
that i force myself to wake up
and i cried badly.
This coming week gonna be a stressful week for mie,
with dear going outfield from tue to fri.
with mie having attachment during weekday
with mie not having any rest day on weekend
due to working in "IT FAIR from 12 to 9pm.
OMG,
hope i cld overcome e stress
and hope i got good sales, at least it make the weekend more worthy =x
aniwae,
tml is adrian's 23th bdae
HAPPY BDAE FREN!!
Enjoyed yourself yea?
=))