Saturday, August 25, 2007
Attachment
28 Aug 2007 [Tuesday]2nd day of attachment wasn't as boring as yesterday...Though is another orientation..bt this time round is ward orientation. Get to noe more friends from more groups..yep they rawk man..erm..accept for alvin..hate him man..he's soo darn proud..everyone hated him...initially everyone was rather fine with him...bt when we happened to have extra time and our clinical instructor wanna let us socialised with othe nurses in the ward...we saw his true colour man...darn him man...soo proud...everything also wanna do and never ask if we wanna try a not...and he appeared to be soo busy like tat...walking from ward A to ward C...looking at casefile, flipping here and there and dun even noe wad the hard he looking at. Somemore soo KPO..not his allocated room still go and action over at my friend's room....attend to patient like as if he darn pro...come one la..he also first time attachement wad...somemore attend patients without asking for any senior nurse...somemore never provide privacy..=.=''
Darn him...wad a partner i had got man...both he and mie incharge of room 26... =.='' bt he incharge of bed 1 t o 6, for mie i'm incharge of bed 7 to 12...but well i noe he gonna KPO into my room also...and gonna snatch my job...No way he gonna do tat...i won't allowed...darn him..he better stick to his room..and dun ever dare to step into MINE.. =.='' Becos of him i gotta report work early tml..cos both our shift is in the morning 7am to 3pm...i can report at 6.55am..but i noe this guy sure come super early...and i noe there willl be parameter taking [temperature,pulse, respiration, SPO2, BP] at 7am or earlier...if i were to reach later than him..i think my patients all done with parameter liao lo. i wanna train myself...wanna do well and fast and accurate for parameter. without those patients, i won't be able to improve...ahhhh!! stress!!
oh well i love my group members..i mean the rest of the group members..they are just soo funny..especially the gals..alamak buey tahan them sia..it happened tat alvin room has this handsome guy...and the gals just get soo crazy over him..saying i wish i cld tc of him..and blah blah blah...even go see his casefile to see what happened to him, his name etc...
oh well i think they are darn crazy la...got handsome doctor dun see go see handsome patient =.='' dumb rite? =x okay you people out there sure say i more crazy...
But well too bad..tat handsome guy is only a teenager ehh...
15 years old only...
MUAHAHAHA!! xD...
The age ruin the gals excitement =x
To:Geradine darling
Darling, i read ur blog, dun feel sad about your dear didn't tell you his problem ok..this may be abit hurting for you to read but i just wanna let you noe..for now dun care everything, just concentrate on ur studies ur stuff and tc of ur health. I understand you wanna do ur job as a gf and that is being his listening ear and overcome his phobia..but what i can say is dun blame urself for being useless and all these...cos i believed your dear doesn't wan to see you like this also. Furthermore if you really wanna help, you can help in another way and that is not giving him another headache by seeing you like this. He noe you will think tat way which is why he doesn't wan to tell you his problem, moreover you had plenty of problems and he doesn't wan to add on ur burden you see? i fully understand a couple shouldn't hide anithin between each other...but i just feel tat you shld just tc of urself first ba. settle ur project and stress den health den problem... So yea..like wad people say settle ur own problem before you step into ppl problem. I dun mean anithin, i just hope you get my msg lo.Get what i really wanna tell you. I believed you will cos you always noe wad i'm thinking =) meanwhile if you seriously think you can take it den what you can do is to encourage him lo...basically he just need to open his knot in his heart to overcome his phobia. It take times =)
27 Aug 2007 [Monday]
Start of attachment, was feeling darn excited yet sleepy after chionging in mandarin for 2 days =x well, first day of attachement was rather boring cos it's hospital orientation...is like another lecture for us? telling us about rules and regulation, showing us the hospital, history and MIC...=.='' basically everyone wanted to sleep and our butt hurt man...sit from 8 to 4pm...including lunch and teabreak...wah...darn long sia...and the tok is supper boring...darn boring!!
26 Aug 2007 [Sunday]
Slept till 12am den wrote somethings...den went off to work. Start work at 3pm..is a PA thank you dinner for NDP volunteer function...sooo envy la..not like heartware..nothing at all...shitty hell!!...oh gosh..i almost died on the spot man...it was a buffet function and is like i'm incharge of 4 tables? Goshh.... end of the function i cleared their dirty plates, 40 water goublet, 40 teacups like mad...furthermore my arm was aching due to saturday function. and guessed what? i broke 1 water goublet while carrying 28 water goublet on a large tray.it's darn heavy la..darn it..most of them din drink finished their water la..
somemore this function is soo weird la...got buffet still wan 2 table course meal...make mie go in kitchen soo many times..cos can only take 2 at one go..i only got 2 hand!! and the plate is soo darn big and heavy. if i dun take 2 at one go..i will have to go in and out of the kitchen for like 8 times?
And this function's organiser is soo demanding la...he expect the waiter and waitress to stand at the buffet line to serve each single dishes when buffet start...made my hand pain only..cos i was serving mix vegetables..and there are mushroom, carrot,corn, broccoli, califlower? which mean for each guest i have to "clam" 5 times? It hurt my fingers man...
25 Aug 2007 [Saturday]
Finally went back to mandrin to work...darn tired man...under man power for ballroom set up...in the end i one person have to put 850 teacup..!! lucky i smart one short carry 17 cups along my arm. If not sure take the teacup from teh rag till die de...den i one person clean 85 susans man!! wah liew first time sia...dun even have the time to eat lunch...suppose to have a break at 4pm to 5pm de...bt work haven finished yet so in the end carry on till nite time...den like 6 plus den eat dinner? den must go report again...now my foot is swollen after standing and walking from 11am to 11.30pm...
Jun Jie smsed mie in teh mornin asking mie if he cld send mie off to work. As usual i refused to reply him. Den he say he going to leave his house soon. Immediately, i smsed him back by telling him a lie tat i'm already in the bus when i just got up not long. =x As usual just dun wanna see him.
Jun Jie smsed mie asking mie if i can meet him after work. I rejected but in the end we still meet outside mandarin hotel due to some reasons. Duno leh...just dun feel like seeing him yet..cos i got nothing much to tok to him. Wad i need is just time to adjust back my feelings and get myself back once again. At the same time i noe i had hurt him thru the way i sms him back, ignoring his sms, not answering his call and refuse to meet him. i noe i hurt him lots...i feel bad and hurt too...bt i just dun wanna meet him tat's it. But well in the end we do meet for like 10 mins? yep basically he just accompany mie to cheers to get my peel fresh orange juice and send mie to my bus stop and waited for my bus together with mie. Yep i stop him from sending mie home cos i doesn;t wan to be with him for long. basically during this 10 mins he didn't speak a single word. i noe he wanna tell mie sth bt he just feel bad tat's why he kept his mouth silent. well expected tat to happen which is why i doesn't wan to meet him long or even bother to go down meet him the day before when he told mie he at my hse downstair.
But sth is just too funny...when i got up the bus..i got the urge to pull him up the bus =x Not becos i wan his company...just tat i felt bad la...he from his house came to my workplace meet mie..den meet for 10 mins den have to go home liao..is like what the hell la? But well i didn't went down the bus...also becos if was pretty tired after such a long day and my foot is hurting mie lots.
Becos of friday issue, i told him a few lies...but well i did tell him abt it a while later and apologised to that. Just dun wanna hide things...just wanna be honest with everyone which include my dear. ahh well..i can't keep my lies for long =x
Friday, August 24, 2007
Disappointed with JJ...
Gosh..just realised my previous entries which i blog ytd was super LONG!!...haha..You people out there, if you are those who hate reading, i suggest you not to read my previous entries..it gonna make you pissed off =x
Woke up 10.30am..went to wet market to buy chicken breast meat despite of the raining day and cold weather. Cos i needed tat to cook spag bolognese for Jun Jie. wanted to give up cooking that for his dinner de..but determination too strong liao...soo die die also must go down buy...end up freezing myself under heavy rain =x Then also suan bian help mama to buy nugget =D
oh well..it's been years since i step into the wet market once again =x
Hated wet market..it's just soo stink..!!
ewww *puke*
Marinate the chicken once i reached home. Den put it aside..and get my oven ready..cos i gonna baked both double chocolate cookies and brownie for him =D...i noe i'm mad..=x i'm looking forward for today..really..i just have the heart to do it..and my determination is just there...=x wan blame blame my heart and determination...dun come blame mie. is these 2 tat made mie like this =x
oh well..i screw up for the cookies...=x measure the amt of oil wrongly..in the end it turn up to be darn oily and soggy [for the first round]. see already also scared...soo i dump it away =x waste my money and time only...stupid mie...soo disappointed with myself man...call myself FnN girl? [Food and nutrition] NAH... it's been soo long since i step into the kitchen and cook let alone touching my beloved oven which is stored in the store room for 1 yr plus? =x yea...was kind of sad la..cos i really wish to give him cookies =x
soo by all mean i'm gonna make the 2nd round cookie a successful one...i tried all way to squeese out the oil from the remaining dough, absorp the oil using clean tissue paper...thought i failed again..bt it work man!! finally the 2nd round cookie wasn't soggy...ate 1 piece to see if it's edible a not..if not i'm not going to give it to him...well it wasn't as nice as i thought cos i baked it for quite long. Not tat i dun wanna take note of the time, just tat if i bake the cookie using the duration stated on the box, it will be soggy...cos there are still excess of oil =x So the only way is to make bake it longer...and luckily it din chars =x yea...there comes double chocolate cookies for him...wee...
Den went down again to buy eggs =x cos i realised my mum used up all the eggs in the frige this morning. Dumb mie, din check the fridge before i go down and buy chicken....well came back and prepare the ingredient for brownie..haha!! i learnt my lesson...i measured the amt of oil correctly =x it took about half an hour to bake the brownie...
den i move on to prepared the ingredient for spag bolognese. Boil the sauce and add in slice ham and mix vegetables and garlic into it. Boil the spag and kept it in a box. Then i waited for the time to come, cos wei told mie he booking out at 6pm..soo by the time he reach home shld be 7 plus...thus i fry chicken, heat the sauce again, soap the rinse the spag with hot water..and there comes Spag bolognese for him =D...
yea really wanna thank wei cos he did mie a very big flavour =) he help mie book JJ...so tat he won't meet his friends after he book out since i rejected going dinner with him. He also told JJ lies saying tat he wan to have dinner with him..cos i'm afraid tat he might buy food home after he book out...den yea...my food will be wasted =x cos what i wan is to go his house and surprised him and pass him the food tat i had prepared for him.
oohh well hope it's nice la..cos these 3 thingy is my first attempt =x didn't make spag for myself, didn't make cookies for myself...bt i do have remaining brownie...which i gonna let my family eat =)
In the first place, just gonan say that i make all these if not becos i wanna eat it or wad..just tat i gt the heart to make it for him. i wan to see him happy..tat's it..i guess? Have to admit tat this is my first time cooking/baking for someone...yea in the past i do bake cookie for my ex...bt at tat pt is i wan to bake it for him and mie...yes i did bake cookie for calvin...but tat is becos i happened to bake cookie for my juniors, and since there is excess, i gave him...As for JJ, i totally do it just for him and no one else...not even for mie. =/
well i spend quite alot for all these=x ytd went to shop for grocery it cost mie abt $21...then today cost mie about $3...=x nah it doens't matter la.. from now on must save up liao..going broke again..haish..i badly need to work man...heh!! working tmr and sun..=) can earn about 140plus? ahhh i'm desparate for money to enter my pocket =D but darn sian...working with semore sia..sure kana pester by him =.='' tat guy always love Poking, tickle mie de lo...kao...
aniwae guess wad? at 4.30pm..cheryl told mie i'm suppose to work for 5pm function..i totally went stun!! cos i rmb when i book tat time wilson told mie fri is fully book soo i'm not working...den suddenly my name is down..wth? actually i dun mind going though it's pretty late to received tat news...but the problem is how abt the surprises tat i had planned for him if i go and work? In the end i turned it down...cheryl will help mie explain to the captain...cos this time round is not my fault..hopefully i won't get any scolding from the manager who is incharge of tonite function tmr. x_x
Blogging time: 4.30pm
I'm sad I'm disappointed!! MY planned failed...Didn't get to surprised him at all. why didn't he listen to "wei" [a guy tat i cahoot with] to stay at home? why must he make last min plan? When he told mie he meeting his friends at 8pm, i get nervous, cos i'm already at bukit merah interchange waiting for bus to go his house. i was praying hard tat he dun leave house soo early. i was really really praying hard..which made mie get distracted and got down the bus 1 stop earlier. By the time i reached his house which is 7.45pm, he already in bus..on the way to meet his other friend.
My heart sank...really sank...really wish to give him a surprised. In the end...? everything had gone to waste...wad can i do? ask him come back to take what i wanna give him? No way!! what i can do is just to leave the food outside his door step and smsed him and go back home.
While walking to GWC bus stop, i just teared suddenly...i duno why i teared. what i noe is i'm feeling terrible. it took mie abt 15 mins to walk to the bus stop. i noe the way i walk is darn EMO...bt i dun care..!! When i reached the bus stop, didn't feel like taking bus...didn't feel like goin home soo early. Just wanted to go somwhere, yet there is no where to go...
I had lost my direction
I got no where to go.
No idea where shld i head to
what i noe is i wanna walk,
just keep on walking....
Non stop.
20 Minutes later, i realised im still at his house estate =.='' was walking one big round...den decided to walk all the way to tiong bahru to take a bus home from there.... but still..i did not stop...just kept walking and thinking a lot of things. Was thinking about calvin, the afford tat i took to take a long journey bus to bishan just to deliver him his christmas gift, also to surprise him and making use of the chance to see him since i soo long didn't see him le...Same situation, he left his house 10 mins before my arrival...In the end his mum haf to help mie passed him e gift.
I'm soo irritated with myself!
why do i come out with plans to surprised someone?
In the end...
get disappointed and sad by the result.
why is it always soo hard to surprised someone be it a girl or boy?
I hate myself..
i really do..
why is my determination soo strong?
It's not good to have a strong deternmination..
Strong determination=High Hope=Looking Forward=Disappointed!!
I had been looking forward for this day since last week.
Wanted to see his surprised face...
really wish to surprised him.
He say he miss mie,
I told him he won't miss mie for long and asked him to believed in mie.
Why do i say that?
Cos im gonna make a trip to his house.
and i noe i had failed to do that.
I'm sorry
woke up soo early,
spending my whole morning and afternoon to prepared,
skipped both my meals.
Cos i dun haf the time to eat.
and if i were to take my dinner,
his dinner will turned cold.
and now everything,
my plan,
my afford,
had gone to waste..
how can i not be disappointed and sad?
As i walked, i think, as i think i realised i walked pass Gan Eng Seng secondary. Determination just kept mie walking without failed...reached my house estate at around 10.05pm...den decided to run home...yea i was runny with a slipper...how retarded...Bt Running is the only way to throw all my unhappiness aside.
went to take a bath after that.
Received an smsed from him saying tat he will be waiting for mie at my house downstair.
But i didn't show up,
didn't wan to meet him..
Didn't even feel like replying or answerin his call
Think is ptless la..
So what if we met?
Both of us will be quiet...
I'm sorry that i didn't shown up...
Blogging time: 11pm
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
JJ, CL
Finally exam are over!!Gonna have 3 weeks of attachment in SGH starting from next mon. Followed by 4 weeks of holiday.
well everyone was soo shagged yet excited about exam are finally OVER!! went to tampiness mall with my classmates..wooo!! cool man at last we go out as a group ma...it's our first outing together..haha!! had lots of fun in toyrus..took some retarded pic...yea is soo childish of us..but we LOVE IT!
This is wat we called it "HAVING FUN"...and "GOOD GIRLS TURN BAD TOO"
Cldn't sleep in the nite..all thank to rei who show mie some webbie which made mie soo high...yea...online shopping!! hahaa!! darn nice man the clothes xD...basically adora, rei and i stay up till 3am just becos of online shopping nia..was looking at all the clothes darn nice...So in love with these clothes which i wanna buy it.
Then rei help to advertise some acessories...arghh darn it is darn nice...!! guarantee chop chop gonna buy it...my friends bought too..haha!! the whole clique have it nia..
21 August 2007 (Tuesday) Today is CL and my 2nd month anniversary...send him sms to wish him. To show him i do remember about our mthly anniversary and to show him i do care about our relationship. Although it's our 2nd mth anniversary..but i wasn't happy about it. like soo wad? even if you give mie 1 yr anniversary...do you think i will be happy? now the problem doesn't lie on him or whoever. I just feel that there isn't anything to be happy about.. So what if we had reach 2 mths le? how many times had we met? In this 2 months relationship, i only met him 3 days...how pathetic can it be?
Past few days, i had been feeling extremely moody!! was really thinkin about our relationship. Shld we continue or should we let go and remain as friends? i noe he is a very nice guy...a very sweet and caring guy...currently no one that i noe is as good as him..reallie dun wish to let go of such a good guy. But i noe i have to...for his own happiness, for my own happiness i think separation is the best. i dun think break up is the right word for us. cos tat wasn't wad we wan. perhaps my love wasn't strong enough to continue with long distance relationship ba. cos i strongly believed long distance relationship is workable.
Why do i have to know you in the first place?
Why are we in love from the start?
Why does god have to present you to mie?
And put us in a hard spot?
Why does god have to separate us in the end?
Why didn't i love you enough?
and wait for you till you finished your university in 3 yrs time?
Why do you have to go after we get together?
Why aren't you a singaporean?
where were you when i'm down?
Do you noe what i needed most from you all these while?
Do you noe what i needed most from you all these while?
what i wan is just your care & concern
what i wan is just your sweet love
what i wan is just a warm from your hug
what i wan is just a shoulder for mie to lent on when i'm down
what i wan is just your listening ear when i'm sad.
what i wan is to spend time with you
why can't i get all these since the day you are mine?
Date: 21st July 2007
Venue: Palawan Beach
Time: 6.34am
Why am i soo different from other couples?
when can i have a proper relationship?
My first relationship was full of quarrels and unhappiness
and didn't have the freedom to spend more time with him.
The second person that i love soo deeply, calvin,
who hurt mie soo much
The third person who i like, sunshine,
Dunno how to describe, it's just ridiculous...
My second relationship which is you..
had to somewhere which is soo far away from mie
Is that what i deserved?
So what if there are people who loves mie?
they end up hurting mie BOTH directly and Indirectly
Purposely and Accidentally!!
I'm jealous!!!
No matter what,
Just wanna let you noe.
No matter how sad i was
I did not regret being with you.
You are indeed a nice boyfriend.
The time spend with you is wonderful.
Thanks for the sweet memories that you had gaven mie.
It's enough...
i dun ask for more
I promised i will keep inside mie till the day i leave this world.
Love you, dear
Once again,
Thanks for everything.
But i'm sorry,
Cos i have to let you go...
Muack
20 Aug 2007 (Monday)
As usual went study with daryl, and we came to a topic of our fellow classmates...=.='' they are soo lame kie? Is being close with the other parties made us a couple in people's eyes? why do my friends keep asking mie if he's my boyfriend? why do his classmate keep pairing us up and started to avoid him just becos they wan him to spend more time with mie?
Both mie and daryl were discussing about how our classmates view us after we finished studying. and i get to know that Daryl once like mie when i dun even noe he existed in this world. he said he kind of like mie when he first saw mie on the first day of school. Somehow i had caught his attention.... I was pretty shocked... but yea..i find it funny too..haha!! wadever it is that's in the past...i believed he no longer like mie. But still i will be aware of him...should not spend too much time with him unnecessary.
and stupid adora...still dare to say maybe i can consider him? =.=''
ahaha!! tat's TOO FUNNY!!!
18 August 2007 (Saturday)
Had my FON exam on this day. yea is just soo weird...sat also must go back sch for exam nia...=x okok also good la..den can get it done and over with ma.
After exam, striaght chiong to natonal library. Gonna study there with Jun Jie. Mie gonna studying for my exam, he reading books over there. cos at night we going to watch firework from china at the seating gallery there. He got 2 tickets ma. 1 word to describe hi..."SWEET"...haha!! he knew i love firework thus he asked for another ticket from his sergent.
Though i admit i was rather stressed up and feeling uneasy when we were at seatin gallery. Cos i thought we were watching with the public..but it turn up to be watching with his sergents and officers and previous room mate... =x soo i'm kind of stress up la...cos they thot i'm his GF...and the feeling is just soo weird la..
aniwae it doesn't matter la..so long as we enjoy the firework can liao. and it's our first time watchig it together =) Toking abt tat the FIREWORK Is soo darn NICE!!! the nicest FIREWORK tat i ever seen in my whole life...ndp firework is reallie NOTHING!! wee..!!
Not going to miss tat out next yr...
Busy with school work also must go esplanade stand there see!!
the firework lasted for about 20 minutes? Took about 20 minutes to walked to DXO bus stop as it was super crowded? and waited for the bus like 20 minutes? darn it...by the time the bus come already like 10.30 plus..
and guessed who i saw while waiting for bus at the bus stop?
I saw jessica's friend veron...
gosh wanna call her and say hi de...
But i saw more familiar faces [all jessica's friend]...saw grace etc...
and gosh...
Jessica was there too...
i was soo excited
Excited about she watching the firework together with mie
Excited that we are soo fated to see each other
There is a urge for mie to say hi to her...
really wanna run to her to say hi..
BUT...
Just when i was to do that,
It reminded mie abt something..
which made mie stayed put and hide behind JJ
Till now she haven forgive mie.
TIll now i'm still waiting for her to forgive mie.
I do not have the courage to see her
Not tat i dare not face her,
Things are no longer like last time
In the past when she see mie she will be darn happy.
This time,
I know she won't be happy to see mie,
So why shld i approach to her and spoil her day?
what i can do is to see her laughing with her friends.
Even when i think she saw mie,
I pretended to see nothing.
and the action she did,
already tell me everythings.
yesh...i'm disappointed with myself,
for not being able to go up to her
for not being able to go up to her
I'm glad that she is happy,
But why do i have to see her?
It really spoilt my day,
I kept silent in the bus
wondering when will she forgive mie.
thinking about the past and those promises we had made,
thinking about the happiness we had...
...and i TEARED
wanna cry it out loud,
the feelings had been stored in mie for too long
till i can't breath...
But i noe i have to control my emotions
Doesn't want JJ to worry...
darling said: so long as she cool down things will be fine.
But that wasn't how i felt..
even if she cool down,
she won't bother to approach to mie.
But if i approach to her,
things will get worse, i guess?
ahhh!!
Help mie!!
HOW CAN I LET HER FORGIVE MIE?
yepp the penguine show in the bus is indeed FUNNY
it cheer mie up abit.
Was laughing throughout the whole show.
But most of it was fake laugh...
cos i noe i have to put on a strong side infront of him
as i noe i had affected his feeling when i kept silent in the bus.
15 August 2007 (wednesday)
Met up with Jun Jie for breakfast in the morning about 11am? So sweet of him to came all the way to my hse area to wait for mie..bt sad to say we didn't get to see each other. Maybe i walk too fast liao and didn't take notice of surrounding area? Poor guy...wad a wasted trip for him=x In the end met him at tiong bus stop...den walk to the market. After breakfast, took a slow stroll to great world city Mac cos i wanna study there..cos i'm meeting my classmate in queensway in the afternoon. so it wil be soo lame for mie to go home and get out again...haha!! basically he was doing nothing beside looking at mie studying and flipping my textbook and see. aww~ so sweet of him to buy mie soya bean milk from jollibean when he saw mie soo restless =)
Made a move to queensway at 3pm sharp as i noe my classmates will be late. =x going there to collect our class tee...whooo darn nice!! hahaa!! Black and grey FBT with nursing logo and our name and practical group number behind xD...
went to walk around..basically we were looking at guys clothes cos my bestie wanna buy gift for his brother. the guys clothes in queensway is simply too nice... =D
Went to ikea and explore furniture..darn it man..the furniture there are sooo darn nice la..there is a urge for mie to change my room furniture man...took a few photos of it..haha!! i'm soo lame =x
13 and 14 August 2007 (Mon and tue)
Basically these two days i was spending my time studying with daryl in vivo city starbuck..yep it's my 3rd time entering star buck but is my first time drinking starbuck coffee...to be honest with you people, i had drank less than 6 times of coffee till now..and this time round is my 4th time finishing the whole cup of drink...yep starbuck drink is nice bt is darn ex...order mocha to drink..darn shiokh...really make mie feel soo energetic..for the sake of exam..i must adopt drinking coffee habit =x
Yep after studing went to shop around vivo city for guys clothes.cos daryl wanna buy top and bottom and shoe...haiyoo!! it's soo difficult to choose clothes for him man..he tat sort of guy who dun follow trend...soo is either he find the top too simple, or find the top too complicated..=.='' in the end he only bought a colourful shirt from topman..and a converse shoe which i had pursuaded him to buy =x
On monday nite, there is little problem going on between Jun jie and mie. NOPE...nt as if we quarrel or scolded each other or wad...hmm...How should i put it? basically is becos of 1 thing, and he say he shall not msg mie soo much, and mie being abit stubborn at that time instead of asking him dun like this, i actually go fullfil his wish by not replying and poor boi was smsing mie apologising to mie cos he thot i was angry which i wasn't. I duno why am i doing this..but i just refused to reply him..not as though i doesn't wan to reply him..is just tat i'm controlling myself and it really hurt alot =x The whole nite i was doing reflection..and i didn't sleep well. Even when i'm sleeping i realy wish i can sms him back..bt stupid mie just dun wanna reply him for one reason, i'm actually testing myself. Testing myself how impt he meant to mie? so i came out with this conclusion:
My heart do beat for him recently....
not confirming what does it mean.
But for sure
-He is est 75% impt to mie
-I do miss him when i din sms him back
-I do have good impression of him
-And i'm kind of like him
You guys must be wondering why i test myself out of a sudden, cos i just find the things i do for him is just soo funny and way too far, i had never think of doing soo much things for darling...perhaps we had little time for each other and i doesn't know much about him in term of eating habit. thought darling and i can tok can play can think alike but honestly speaking i noe quite little about him apart from characteristic. Furthermore i knew him far longer than Jun Jie...yet i find myself knowing more about JJ more than darling..There are still soo much things i wanted to noe abt darling.
Finally i replied him on tuesday afternoon. First i had the answer already, Secondly, i dun wanna torture him by not smsing him. Thirdly i noe why he doesn't wan to msg much to mie...cos he was jealous over something...and he told mie about his feeling from head to toe. As usual, i told him about my feeling the other nite as i hate keeping such feeling to myself. i just wanna be honest. That's it...
11 August 2007 (Saturday)
Finally flag rising had arrived...set a target for myself and that is my can must be at least 3/4 full by teh end of the day [3 hrs]...though the youngstes will disappoint mie from the start but my determination was there to keep mie going...cos i managed to reach my target =) and my can was the heaviest among all..woohoo!!
simply love doing vountary work xD i duno why...just feel tat ever since i join this course, i seemed to love voluntart work la..i almost promised my friend to run 3.2KM for charity on next sunday...but after some consideration, feel that i shouldn't join la..first the last time i run was last yr aug? and the day before tat is FON paper whereby i will stay up till late nite den sleep. And if i were to turn up for this charity thingy...i wil just faint after running like 1 KM? futher more i can't fall sick as my exam are coming. really wish i could participate =)
Took a train back from bugis to lavander as we need to return the cans...something funny and exciting thing happened when we board the train..adora hannah and mie ran down the escalator as we dun wanna miss the train...This was what happened:
-hannah run into the train first and almost kiss a girl infront of her
-Mie running into the train and push her so that adora can run in
-we looked back and see adora missing in action...
-we panicked, was afraid she might miss the train
-we saw her but heard her yelling "wrong train!!"
-I heard tat, hannah still wondering wad was she toking about...
-we panick as the door is about to close..
-I run out of the train with one hand on hannah's sling bag and pulled hannah out of the train
-she was being pull backward
-the door almost crash on her if i were to pull her out 2 seconds later.
After returning all the stuff i walked from lavandar mrt and walked to bugis bus stop to take bus..darn hot..!! Reached home put down my bag and start cooking Mushroom spag, den bath, den pack the food and took 2 bus to Jun Jie house outside, hoping to let him eat finished the dinner tat i had prepared for him before going out with him to yishun. However he was out of the house before i even reached his doorstep. Thus we went to GWC mac to let him finished his dinner.
Yep after studing went to shop around vivo city for guys clothes.cos daryl wanna buy top and bottom and shoe...haiyoo!! it's soo difficult to choose clothes for him man..he tat sort of guy who dun follow trend...soo is either he find the top too simple, or find the top too complicated..=.='' in the end he only bought a colourful shirt from topman..and a converse shoe which i had pursuaded him to buy =x
On monday nite, there is little problem going on between Jun jie and mie. NOPE...nt as if we quarrel or scolded each other or wad...hmm...How should i put it? basically is becos of 1 thing, and he say he shall not msg mie soo much, and mie being abit stubborn at that time instead of asking him dun like this, i actually go fullfil his wish by not replying and poor boi was smsing mie apologising to mie cos he thot i was angry which i wasn't. I duno why am i doing this..but i just refused to reply him..not as though i doesn't wan to reply him..is just tat i'm controlling myself and it really hurt alot =x The whole nite i was doing reflection..and i didn't sleep well. Even when i'm sleeping i realy wish i can sms him back..bt stupid mie just dun wanna reply him for one reason, i'm actually testing myself. Testing myself how impt he meant to mie? so i came out with this conclusion:
My heart do beat for him recently....
not confirming what does it mean.
But for sure
-He is est 75% impt to mie
-I do miss him when i din sms him back
-I do have good impression of him
-And i'm kind of like him
You guys must be wondering why i test myself out of a sudden, cos i just find the things i do for him is just soo funny and way too far, i had never think of doing soo much things for darling...perhaps we had little time for each other and i doesn't know much about him in term of eating habit. thought darling and i can tok can play can think alike but honestly speaking i noe quite little about him apart from characteristic. Furthermore i knew him far longer than Jun Jie...yet i find myself knowing more about JJ more than darling..There are still soo much things i wanted to noe abt darling.
Finally i replied him on tuesday afternoon. First i had the answer already, Secondly, i dun wanna torture him by not smsing him. Thirdly i noe why he doesn't wan to msg much to mie...cos he was jealous over something...and he told mie about his feeling from head to toe. As usual, i told him about my feeling the other nite as i hate keeping such feeling to myself. i just wanna be honest. That's it...
11 August 2007 (Saturday)
Finally flag rising had arrived...set a target for myself and that is my can must be at least 3/4 full by teh end of the day [3 hrs]...though the youngstes will disappoint mie from the start but my determination was there to keep mie going...cos i managed to reach my target =) and my can was the heaviest among all..woohoo!!
simply love doing vountary work xD i duno why...just feel tat ever since i join this course, i seemed to love voluntart work la..i almost promised my friend to run 3.2KM for charity on next sunday...but after some consideration, feel that i shouldn't join la..first the last time i run was last yr aug? and the day before tat is FON paper whereby i will stay up till late nite den sleep. And if i were to turn up for this charity thingy...i wil just faint after running like 1 KM? futher more i can't fall sick as my exam are coming. really wish i could participate =)
Took a train back from bugis to lavander as we need to return the cans...something funny and exciting thing happened when we board the train..adora hannah and mie ran down the escalator as we dun wanna miss the train...This was what happened:
-hannah run into the train first and almost kiss a girl infront of her
-Mie running into the train and push her so that adora can run in
-we looked back and see adora missing in action...
-we panicked, was afraid she might miss the train
-we saw her but heard her yelling "wrong train!!"
-I heard tat, hannah still wondering wad was she toking about...
-we panick as the door is about to close..
-I run out of the train with one hand on hannah's sling bag and pulled hannah out of the train
-she was being pull backward
-the door almost crash on her if i were to pull her out 2 seconds later.
After returning all the stuff i walked from lavandar mrt and walked to bugis bus stop to take bus..darn hot..!! Reached home put down my bag and start cooking Mushroom spag, den bath, den pack the food and took 2 bus to Jun Jie house outside, hoping to let him eat finished the dinner tat i had prepared for him before going out with him to yishun. However he was out of the house before i even reached his doorstep. Thus we went to GWC mac to let him finished his dinner.
guessed who i saw ? i saw angues and stacy!! goshh miss them soo much la..soo long din see them le..especially angues..!! ahhh!!! she slim down alot!! darn pretty now..wee u wee!! 72 bian sia..
yep went to Yishun to catch a movie "secret" cos that's the only cinema that is not full house. =x the show is darn nice..though it's kinda sad...almost cried bt was controlling my emotions =x but sad to say the show lasted for an hr plus..soo it ended like 9 plus? took mrt back from yishun to city hall...guess where we went to? haha!! we went to esplanade there...just right beside the seating gallery...was standing there chit chatting and thinking back about the national day parade...and time really flies..we went home around 11.30pm =.='' yep can say it's our first outing and our first time catching a movie together =)
9 August 2007 (Thursday)
Finally this day had arrived. Missed NDP deeply yet i doesn't wan it to be over...There is nothing much i can do but to enjoy myself as an bay ambassador for this one last time...enjoyin the day with my group mates, and enjoying the firework.
Work up extremely early..like 2 hr earlier than usual. Cos i gonna made breakfast for myself, jonathan and Jun Jie. Smart one will noe tat i made this breakfast is not specially for jonathan or myself bt is for Jun Jie. Reason for making for jonathan is "shun bian". i got no idea why am i doing that, what i noe is he had been kinda sweet to mie so i dun mind being sweet to him though i noe i'm someone who is already attached. But Please remember i dun hide thing..i did report to my darling. yea..he doesn't mind...tat's what i love about him though i really wish he cld interfere about my personal life abit =.=''
Another reason why i made breakfast for him is he got up early in the morning and i noe he dun eat breakfast...and since and i knew he very long din eat tuna sandwich and since i wanna surprised him..soo why nt waking up early to make for him yea?
yep went to Yishun to catch a movie "secret" cos that's the only cinema that is not full house. =x the show is darn nice..though it's kinda sad...almost cried bt was controlling my emotions =x but sad to say the show lasted for an hr plus..soo it ended like 9 plus? took mrt back from yishun to city hall...guess where we went to? haha!! we went to esplanade there...just right beside the seating gallery...was standing there chit chatting and thinking back about the national day parade...and time really flies..we went home around 11.30pm =.='' yep can say it's our first outing and our first time catching a movie together =)
9 August 2007 (Thursday)
Finally this day had arrived. Missed NDP deeply yet i doesn't wan it to be over...There is nothing much i can do but to enjoy myself as an bay ambassador for this one last time...enjoyin the day with my group mates, and enjoying the firework.
Work up extremely early..like 2 hr earlier than usual. Cos i gonna made breakfast for myself, jonathan and Jun Jie. Smart one will noe tat i made this breakfast is not specially for jonathan or myself bt is for Jun Jie. Reason for making for jonathan is "shun bian". i got no idea why am i doing that, what i noe is he had been kinda sweet to mie so i dun mind being sweet to him though i noe i'm someone who is already attached. But Please remember i dun hide thing..i did report to my darling. yea..he doesn't mind...tat's what i love about him though i really wish he cld interfere about my personal life abit =.=''
Another reason why i made breakfast for him is he got up early in the morning and i noe he dun eat breakfast...and since and i knew he very long din eat tuna sandwich and since i wanna surprised him..soo why nt waking up early to make for him yea?
yea...
gota admit tat this is my first time making breakfast for someone.
This time round both mie and him was located at the concourse bt different sector..soo hardly see each other. So the only way to communicate is through smsing during performances =x yep as usual the firework is pretty nice..and is the nicest tat i ever seen it in singapore..it's soo fantastic..and it make mie went soo high =x took a video of the firework as i noe he won't be abe to see it..nah aniwae he saw it..=x
Met up with him at the end of the day...tis time round is not for supper but to take bus home together..=) Both of us were soo shagged at the end of the day. But i managed to stay talkative and active during teh journey back home..
oohh btw i saw my sec 3 classmate, Vanessa...gosh didn't see her like for years? and we cld recognised each other *clapclap*...but actually thank to her la..cos she keep staring and looking at mie which caught my attention...den i realised it was her =x Then soo conincidence also, my boss saw mie and he went up to talk to mie..somehow i feel tat mie and my boss zhen you yuan fen sia...like everywhere i go sure bump onto him =x den he will keep asking mie abt my life...den tell me holiday wanna work inform him...the fact is i doesn't wan to...=x
gota admit tat this is my first time making breakfast for someone.
This time round both mie and him was located at the concourse bt different sector..soo hardly see each other. So the only way to communicate is through smsing during performances =x yep as usual the firework is pretty nice..and is the nicest tat i ever seen it in singapore..it's soo fantastic..and it make mie went soo high =x took a video of the firework as i noe he won't be abe to see it..nah aniwae he saw it..=x
Met up with him at the end of the day...tis time round is not for supper but to take bus home together..=) Both of us were soo shagged at the end of the day. But i managed to stay talkative and active during teh journey back home..
oohh btw i saw my sec 3 classmate, Vanessa...gosh didn't see her like for years? and we cld recognised each other *clapclap*...but actually thank to her la..cos she keep staring and looking at mie which caught my attention...den i realised it was her =x Then soo conincidence also, my boss saw mie and he went up to talk to mie..somehow i feel tat mie and my boss zhen you yuan fen sia...like everywhere i go sure bump onto him =x den he will keep asking mie abt my life...den tell me holiday wanna work inform him...the fact is i doesn't wan to...=x
