Saturday, July 19, 2008

Slacking at his house

Fallen deeper each day.

As days passed

I need you,

I miss you,

Cant smile without you,
ILY

Woke up at 10am plus
Get myself ready to set off with my Brothers & mum
to grandma's hse for visiting.

heard tat her condition is pretty bad.
sighhh
as usual, it never failed to sank whenever i see her.
I LOVE YOU
No matter hw much you forget me,
No matter hw skinny you became,
i STILL love you!

OHhh a little token given to you
yet it could gave you a smile.
i dun mind giving you some money whenever i visit you.
as long as its able to secure ur smile x)

Left grandma house at 1.30pm
took bus 10 to jaren's hse.
cool~ saw his sis & his 2 grandma.

slack at his hse watching korean drama,
listening to music
eating grapes
watch tv
Play hammies

Simple but Nice!

Totally enjoyed it x)

Had dinner at his hse nearby [YONG DAO FU]

Wow, seemed like my painless bruise is spreading out.

Darn depressed about it. So freaking ugly

Send me home at 9.40pm. Had fries on our way back.

Btw, prob with ping are solved. HURRAY~

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Friday, July 18, 2008

ENOUGH!
i had enough of all that.

HER;
Im stress up with ur sms.
You occured to be pushin me to a corner
& expect a answer from me.
im no longer able to take it.
I wish i could said those things yet nt hurting you
but i cant
I JUST CANT
& haf to keep it to myself!!
cos i Noe you are stressin with ur polymate,
i doesnt wan to add on to ur burden
Cant you understand i still care for you?
But it seem you had always been mistaken my words time & time again.
Even if i tell,
You would say im protecting Jaren

A urge of giving up on you.
A urge of hack care abt the "Coldness" tOpic
cos i Noe you wont Noe where you went wrong.
Never; you gonna realised abt it urself.
Ur smses simply hurt me too deep
Ur understanding simply disappoint me

DAD;
& stupid you.
who nag & raise ur voice at me
when i did nth wrong.
WTH do i deserve such treatment from you.
YOU PIG, YOU COW, YOU !@#!@#

HIM;
Stop stressing & pushin me to a corner.
Stop askin me why am i being so unfair to you
by giving jaren a chance.
like though i didnt gave you in the past.
How many forgive & chance do you expect from me?
If you wanna prove me wrong,
you had done it earlier on.
There isnt any reason why jaren dun deserve a chance

"Quit smoking for you" sound sweet
But sorry!
I once said, quit for urself & family, NOT ME
& i dun gain anithin tooo.

I haf no choice but to become someone unfamiliar to you.
I hate doing it.
I hate sayin things to hurt you futher
but you are forcing me to say more.
I hate severe friendship ties.
Is you who pushes me to end all this.

Im sorry, but TOO BAD!
im simply too pissed to use the word "F" in sms
& said 4 times on the phone!
I cant believed i said all those words & i hated it.
I cant believed i slam my fist on my thigh & said "F"
Im simply in a shitty mood
cos of you, who tried to push me to do sth tat i hated all along.

shldnt it be a tearin day for me
when you ask "haf you ever love me before"?
wad kinda sort of question are you askin me?
are you doubtin my love all this while?
Isnt my sacrifice & doings prove you tat "I DO"?
why am i being so sweet if i dun?

How many time must i tell you
when i love someone, i will go without a pausing stage
till he hurt me lots
& making me to give up on him,
i would do it without failed.

Im fine if ur fren doubt me,
But how could you?
it hurt; yet i cant tear bt pissed.

There again,
i told jaren you are quite a good catch.
cos you had the criteria of my "imaginery husband".
Im still thinking of the wedding, house, family that we once discuss on.
but still its feeling that matters the most to me.

YOU 3 STOP STRESSIN ME
how long more do i haf to hold on to it?
had been hanging onto it for 2 weeks!
IM EXHAUSTED!

I wish i could drop a tear
& let it flow to drain
perhaps i could feel MUCH BETA
instead of fuming inside me
& hurting myself physically.
Not a single tears drop.
PATHETIC!

GOD; could you let me shed a tear to make me feel BETA?

GER;
Im glad that you told me ur prob
Im glad that you allow me to find & accompany you when you are down.
Cos i had always wanted to be there for you, if possible.
& this time, i rushed down after my meeting at 9.30pm.
No matter what, dun think too much,
what you need is juz to talk thing out with her x)
well well,
i guess is our first time talkin when its drizzlin
i guess is our first time walking home from vivo when its still drizzlin yeaa?
kinda love the rain drops x)

Just wann let you know,
you could count on me no matter hw stress i am.
cos i could hide myself well.
without failed, i would push aside my stuff just to be there for you
Wishing you lots of happiness!
Muack

Just wanna put everything aside

& forcus on studies and red cross oversea project.

I believed; im strong

I believed; nothing could defeat me

I believed x)

God; pls give me the power to endure all these

& able to stay strong & cheerful

without failed

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Thursday, July 17, 2008

Outing with jaren

Tuesday, Practical exam on patient teaching!
hee, so much better than skill practical xD

aniwae its GREAT!

Comment was "Very Well Done".
Zara said, i taught like some polyclinic nurse -_-''

Wednesday
Simply LOVE white shorts x)
yet afraid of dirtyin it.

Basically nothin to comment abt schooling
Hasnt been attentive to lectures every now & denn...

Its a waste of time going to school.
I can absorb more by studying alone
well well, yet i cant skip lectures too much -_-

Rei has cute thingy LOL

Okay Bought BEARD PAPA'S

6 Chocolate Fondant & 6 Eclair Cream Puff

for Jaren & Myself.

There goes $29.40

zzz

Overall its great!

Nice and tempting x)

Thank chia Yen, for helping me to place an order

hee~

Met up with jaren at clementi Bus Stop

as lectures end slightly early x)

Okay basically,

we spent our time @ Vivo.

went to pets shop & admiring hammy.

We both love HAMMY x)

Laughing the way thru...

Well,

was comparing who's fatter =x

Ans is obvious!

But someone doesnt wanna admit it =x

Shop @ Mini Toons & "a shop which i forget its name"

Baically we laugh at every single thing there

He laughed at this when i arrange it this way -_-

And we both laugh at this cute yet disfigure piggy.

Okay, its actually the way i turn it
make it funnier.
We both expect it to be darn cute with NON- disfigure look
yet,
is an disfigure look

Basically we laughed for 30 minutes continuously in both shop!

Happy laughing~~

Whose leg is these?

seriously we both are darn blur.
we both step onto the wrong escalator
and we WOOOOO~
instead of going upward direction, we going downward -_-

& we laughed though is kinda ambarrassing .

Set off to Lao Pa sha at 8.30pm?
Share Stingray & Meatball soup
hee~ been craving for stingray months ago.

Walk to esplanade & slack.
cooling places.

ohhh
a thai woman approach us for donation.
we both donated $2 each x)

As usual he send me home,
reach home at 12.40am =x

Thursday,
met up with him at clementi bus stop.
as usual end lecture earlier.

Plan is to go geylang eat durian =x
But a suddenly changed of plan to east coast eat SATAY BEEHOON
well well,
alight at fort road [near old airport road]
& waited for bus 401 to east coast.
waited for half an hour
& realised bus 401 nt functioning during weekday.

darmmm... -_-
we laughed yet felt silly.

thus we walked,
past by playground & decided to play awhile.

and den
we carried on with our journey.

walked all the way to parkway east coast area.
and feel tat the stall is too far away.

& thus a change of plan again, we ate in HONG KONG CAFE.

Food was delicious! [first time there]
well, it remind me of jessica.
she once promise to bring me there to eat.
well well, things change.

ate from 8.40pm to 9.15pm
and den we slack at east coast.

stand at the rock & kana pour sea water by the sea
from 9.20pm to 11.30pm.
Cant believed we stood there for 2 hours =x

and den we fast walk to fort road till 12.10
and we missed the last bus..
lucky got cab.

Mozzie gave me a super big love bite.
Bite with bruise!!
Mum saw and noticed me -_-
Non itchy, Non pain feelin.
a weird bruise infact.
& there's a lump inside laa..
Hopfully it didnt lay eggs =x
Okay too much movie for me LOL

aniwae reach home at 1am x)

Afterall, im still nt contented
SHE; fallin apart

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Monday, July 14, 2008

Outing with ping & ger

Alrite
Finally had the time to update entries for 5 July 2008 =x
Basically met up with cutie and darling.
Its our anniversary with cutie.

well well..
3 of us were shagged out.
I duno what happened to both of them.
But basically i was on my recovery process
I had No mood to eat anithin, only KFC for the day

What cutie did for me x)

Thanks darling