Friday, June 16, 2006
Always be there for you
Dunno why it seem like everyone around mie are feeling down...weird*To: Jessica
Saw your testimonial todae...But had no idea wat had happened to euu..why feel so sad?? is it becos of ur grandpa thingy?? Dun be sad k...marmie will always be there for euu...although marmie also very shi bai...can't handle my case...hahaa...nvm..but just to let euu noe tat..even if i'm feeling down i will still lent you my listening ear...and will try my best to cheer you up yea?? So if euu got any problems den call mie lo..i will be there waiting for you, my dear. I once told you i will be there for you and geradine whenever you girls need mie...cos both of you are my baobeii...=)
Take care ya?? >>mUaCk<<
Rojak
Feeling tired, irritated, frastruated, heartbroken, moody and sad...wah!! can die arhx...so many feeling inside mie..>.<'' If i say i din cry is confirm fake one..First time having this kind of feeling...Feel like screaming...but den if i scream here...people will say i crazy...the best place to release your stress and ur problems is screaming at the beach...haish..hopefully tomorrow will be a better day for mie..Firstly, i gonna thank geradine for being there for mie when i'm feeling down. Finally found someone that i can talk to...usually when i got any problems..i will keep it to myself...haha...to me not everything you can tell your friends...friend like geradine...you can tell her ur problems with peace...friend like jermaine...tell her like telling to a wall like tat..and soon the whole class will noe abt it...=x friend like minnie...can only tell her certain stuff..friend like jessica..sometime also bo chap bo chap one...especially when you are settling relationship. Friend like cecillia...also a nice person to talk to...but den she will only have this sentence: if i'm you i will wad wad wad...and soon you will realised in a conversation there will be full of "TMD" =x
To: Geradine
Xun Nu...really thanks for being there for mie for the whole day..hahaa..and i gonna thank you in advance for accompany mie tomorrow afternoon...haish!! tomorrow is just like a war to mie..cos i will be facing him again..dunno how i will react -.-'' cos i realli cannot forgive him for wad he had done to mie...i hate people shuo hua bu shuan shu...like tat Kelvin Ng Jia Qian...By the way...wadever i told euu today..please do not tell vanessa about it k?? i'm afraid vanessa might tell him...I dun wanna let him know..cos i have decided to walk out of his life...i have decided to make him walk out of my life although his footprint will always remain in my heart...Tomorrow i will explain to him everything...from today onward he and i are no longer friends let alone couple...both of us can only be tutor and tutist...really have no choice but to do that you noe? i dun wish to..but if i dun do that...all of us will get hurt at the same time..(T.T) Tell mie wad should i do??
Now my biggest worried is how am i going to explain everything to my dear next weekend?? He book out today...and he keep pestered mie with lots of questions...i wanna tell him cos i do not wish to hide anything from him..i feel bad about it. But den i did not cos i promised him i will tell him everything face to face..i really had no idea how he will react when he noe it? How will he treat mie if he know it? Will he keep his word "double the hurt that i had given him??" Or will he asked for a break up?? i dunno i really dunno..i noe how he feel...cos it happened to mie before...When he told mie...i really couldn't take it...
Haish...tell him i also die...dun tell him i also die..might as well tell him..see wad he will do...at least i won't hide from him..but even if he forgive mie soo wad?? he will compared here and there...den will always have frequent quarrel again...haish..nvm..it was all caused by mie..i shall face it although i tried to run away from the problems... This time really cannot run away liao..must solve it as soon as possible..cos it's getting complicated...like wad geradine said...this issue is getting horrible and complicated...hahaa
I'm feeling very weak now..i'm tired of all this...i hate it..i hate myself..i hate him..i hate my dear...why must they treat mie like tis?? How i wish something will happen to mie (coma?? lost memory??)..haish..at least i won't think too much..
But i think i kinda funny...i here sad sad liao..still listening sad song...(Autumn In My Heart) Qiu Tian De Tong Hua..dunno lah...i love sad song especially korean one...cos you dunno what they singing...den when you sad you go listen to sad song...den you will do some reflection about what had happened...den you will cry..den you might feel better...=x i noe is a childish method lah...haha
=h3aRtBrOk3n=
Can't wait for tomorrow..cos i going to cut my hair together with geradine lo!! Weather soo hot..hahaa..but den dunno wad to cut leh..maybe let that person anyhow cut...hahaa
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
Making Cookies
Feeling much better after apologised to him..hahaa...Hopefully everything can go back like last time...=D haha...darn funny...when i apologised to him through blog and sms...he was like replying this: "ehh?? i thought i'm e one at fault leh..." Well, it wasnt totally his fault...it's still partly my fault...i believed i should be responsible for the outcome...(-.-) *sigh*Went to Genervive's house with minnie and geradine...it took us less than 1 hour to arrived at the destination (clementi) haha...but nvm la...we had fun talking on the bus..But one thing we dun like is that...genervive house is located very far away from the bus stop...so all of us have to go through long walking distance??haha...so sunny lo...sweat non stop while walking...+ what had happened last nite...den i also like a bit no mood...xD..
Wah!! Finally arrived at Gen house..all of us is like chiong to her room..on the air con..lay on her bed...haha..her bed is like darn comfortable...cos cold cold one...No wonder he love it soo much...hahaa...While waiting for suzanna, we watched 3 episode of show...erm...1 episode 1/2 an hour...it's soo funny lo...i wanna watch next time...cos we dun have the time to watch the rest...
Went to her kitchen and started messing up her kitchen table..lolx..teh table is like full of flour?? guess wad we doing?? well suzanna, genervive, minnie and i intend to baked cookies for our band juniors...cos we already step down liao...haish!! i will miss my juniors...they are the best =D
To: Juniors
I will never forget all the fun that we had as a section
Keep up the good work...i knew trombone is currently the best section..
I dun wan it to be a temporary one...i wan it a forever one..
I know you people can do it yea??
I dun wish to see you people slacking around..!!
Cooperate with your Section Leader kie??
I know i'm lenient to all of you..but if i Know that you people bully your section leader..i'm sorry...No Mercy!!
Work hard for your syf next year..wish to see you people getting gold for band...i believed you can =D
Lastly miss all of you badly (T.T)
I Promised all of you that i will visit you people more often after my 'O'
Juniors!! You are the best =D
Love every single one of you [2006]
To: The sectional Leader Han Ya Ting
sorrie ehh..have to put your big name down =x Well..i trust you that euu will lead the section well…wo kao ni le..=D Jia You!! But den one think I wan you to do before you continue to lead the section…haa…euu noe wad is it?? Be mature!! Dun be so childish…-.-‘’ I dun wan my juniors to become like you…=x
To: Kezia (Librarian)
I know this is your first time being a committee member…I know it's not an easy job to handle library stuff…but one method that you won't goes wrong is that…do your job as soon as possible…cos you will never know when you will be given task again…Den when you free, you can just go tidy up the library cupboard…think of a way to minimize the problems. Give punishment if the band members broke the library's rules…lastly give tasks to other 2 librarians…although you are not the chief librarian…I hope you will take charge of it cos currently there isn’t any suitable member to take over my place…But I believed mr wong will have someone in mind…who knows it might be you?? Hahaa..just got that feeling…You had been telling me that the library system is getting horrible ever since I left. But I'm really sorry..i couldn't do anything about it..i can only pass down my skills to you…the rest is still up to you to solve it…But of course..end of the year I will solve the problems with you yea?? But if there is serious problems regarding library system…feel free to ask mie yea?
Lastly, please help ya ting when she got any problems kies?? Teach your juniors well…love them and be patient when teaching them…But of course seniors must set a good example for the juniors to learn ma…
Oops!! Look like I already out of topic liao =x Nvm…tis paragragh I shall made it short..hahaa…well…we actually baked 5 jars of cookies for them…den got some extra…we brought home and eat…heh heh…the cookies are very hard…but den it taste nice =D yumyum…nvm la…tis is also the first time we baked cookie =x So is not that bad lah…=x wah!! I love gen’s house!! Cos she got swing outside her house…so is like while waiting for the cookie to be done…we went to the swing and play…den her dog “travis” is like soo cute >.<’’ heh heh…the dog look cute but then super desperate for girls =x Below are some photos that we took during the process of baking cookies…
This dog is getting horny in this picture x_x
Monday, June 12, 2006
Wat's Wrong With mie?
Well, This is the first time i type my blog soo late...and it's also the first time i type 2 entries on the same day...haish..feel like talking to someone..someone that can listen to me...cos i'm feeling sad/hurt right now..but definitely not a guy...not even my dearest dear. Well i just had a so call "calm quarrel with my tutor" =.='' wad he said is realli hurting mie..erm..he not criticising me...but just a normal sentence that i feel hurt. Actually his sentence wasn't something that is suppose to be hurting...but den i just suddenly feel heartbroken for dunno wad reason...i think i'm just too sensitive about wad euu had said...omg!! i think my feeling is realli going headwire already...haish..Haish dunno wad happened to me also..recently keep feeling moody. Seem to be thinking lots of things..but den also dunno wad was it abt -.-''
Help help!!
I knew wad euu people will say -.-'' i knew wad my dear will sae...you people gonna say that i had fallen in love with him rite?? haish..i do miss him somehow...but nt in love wif him...-.-'' dear dun get the wrong idea k..and pls dun question mie abt all these...i dun wish to sae..cos i dunno wad to sae abt it...also i realli dunno wad i'm thinking...-.-'' i just feel so lost...i dunno wad to do abt it...argh!! irritating..dun wanna care anymore...
To Calvin:
Sorie abt the last 3 sms that i had sent euu..i dunno why on earth did i type that...i noe it somehow hurt euu...yea maybe euu dun...cos euu not sensitive?? hahaa...Never Mind...just wanna apologised to euu...cos different tutor got different thinking ma...maybe euu think it's not right for a tutist to ask math question when we are not having tution. Sorry...
Unfaithful
Tis morning weather too good liao...made mie dun feel like waking up..hahaa..suppose to meet geradine at "our bus stop" at 7.30. However i overslept..haha!! Is like i suddenly think of her...and den OH SHIT!! wad time is it?!?! It's 7.32!!! argh!! ooo noo!! i sms her immediately and asked her to go school without mie...at the same time i told her that i will be joining them at around 9+ (self study)...however i went back to sleep and finally wake up at 9+ lolz..heh heh i sms her again, telling her wad i'm doin..and tis is wad she replied..: "i think euu no need to come liao..we intend to go home earlier...by the time euu come...the sun already rise in the west"...=x i'm like keep laughing at myself...haha..To geradine:
heh heh...realli sorry abt todae...promised you that i will go school with euu..but in the end...like some pig like tat..still sleeping...But can't blame ma...who ask the weather so shiok?? =x Den somemore last nite..slept so late...euu should noe why horr??
Listen to the song that cavin had sent mie a few days ago "unbelievable and unfaithful"...well i prefer the song "unfaithful" However it's kinda sad...just search for the lyrics and started singing =x
Unfaithful
Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company
He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
But clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true
And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer
I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss up on my cheek
He's here reluctantly
As if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well
Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer
Our Love, his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore
Uh
Anymore (anymore)
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
And I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer (a murderer)
No no no no
Yeah yeah yeah
11 June 2006
Meet geradine at around 12 pm ...feeling happy that we are going shopping again haha...like 3 mths din go out liao...time flies!! Went to bugis village with geradine and her boyfriend jeffery...haha..first time see him...he was like complaining why i never take good care of geradine -.-'' like as if i din?? Cos before he went to indonesia, he asked mie to take good care of her when he is not in singapore...so i just do what i can do...
After going to bugis village, we went to bugis junction...hahaa...we tour around the whole shopping centre without buying any clothes..heh heh cos got guy ma..den like dun wan him to wait for us?? So we are just doin some window shopping?? We went to pastamania...he offered to treat mie...i'm like so pai seh and rejected it...however he keep insist mie to order something...so i just order 1 cup of ice lemon tea...den a plate of garlic bread which is shared by 3 of us...haha..but in the end i only ate 1 garlic bread and 1/2 cup of ice lemon tea =x
At around 4pm jessica came to join us...i'm like soo happy that she finally arrived?? haha...cos i'm like bored to death. Why?? Cos there is 2 lovebirds infront of mie?? And they are like holding hand when they walk?? put each other hands on the waist when they go up the escalator?? sitting on each other leg when they are tired?? well...i'm not jealous about it...but it's just that hello?? ur frenz is here and u all are like doin tis?? =x
In the end the whole entire shopping trip is like soo boring...?? Even jessica also find it boring...lol...just imagine i'm with them for the whole entire day?? first time go out soo sian
To: Geradine
hee...sorrie to say abt all tis...but of cos no offend abt it k??i had already explained it to euu personally and you also admit wad i had said...sooo dun feel offended k?? Lastly dun feel sad about it k?? cos no one expected tis to happen ya?? Den maybe also becos he sick ma..so din realli joke...den jessica like see guy very malu type one =x so when he seem to be bored..i already tried to talk to him...but just nothing much to talk abt...haha...No matter wad...i really want to thank you for accompany mie to the M1 shop...haha..=D But now there is a question in my mind...am i going to continue this card for next mth etc?? or just onli tis special mth??hahaa...cos if continue it forever...it seem that my expenses per mth will increase...x_X