hmm..dunno wad happened to the blog also..can't edit the color can't change the font..stupid!! made my blog soo colourless..=x
wake up at 11am...brush my teeth wash my face...eat my breakfast...packed my bag..and guess wad i did?? haha..iron paper..lolx a stupid crumbles receipts from calvin..this stupid tutor...left this litter on the table on thursday (cc)..soo have to help him throw..just couldn't find the bin to throw..so brought it home instead -.-'' at nite he told mie tat he need tat receipt back...and this receipt is soo darn crumbled..soo have no choice bt to iron it...And he is soo "polite" that he dare to ask mie why his receipts soo crumbled?? and i'm like wat!!? helped euu iron it and euu say i crumbled until like tat..-.-'' and he there laughing...*bish*
As usual went for tuition 1pm today..yep meeting them 45 minutes earlier for lunch..in the end..this minnie overslept..waited for her like ever since 12.10pm at the beautiful staircase near the mac...at the same time looking out for calvin..wanna bikaboo him...until now i din get a chance to bikaboo him lo..yep Was looking at the direction whereby he will come out from the carpark and to to the mac..was forcusing at tat place (north)while waiting for minnie...IN THE END?? he came from the other direction..!! almost fainted lor...he came from the west!! dunno why also..bt i think he park his bike at another carpark ba...is forever soo qiao one lorr...3 times!! these 3 times...been trying soo hard to bikaboo him..end up i kana bikaboo!! WHEN will be the day i can bikaboo him!!!
1st time trying to bikaboo him is near the carpark bt he saw me 2nd time trying to bikaboo him is slightly further away from the carpark..den decided to go hide another side..while walking he saw mie -.-'' 3rd time trying to bikaboo him is much further away from him..if he came out from the carpark he confirm can't see mie one..but in the end...he came from another direction!! argh!!
why are we forever soo qiao!!! sms also sooo qiao..was sms him halfway..he called mie..[long ago]..den check my phone tat time..he sms mie...i msg my frenz tat time, receive sms from him..typing msg for him *halfway* he sms/call mie -.-'' WHY Is he forever disturbing mie msging?!?!
Ok enough of this...back to the topic =x was waiting for minnie at the hawker there..den i asked calvin go eat first cos minnie and i intend to eat mac..Calvin eat finished le minnie still haven come..soo we proceed to the mac first...den received a sms from minnie telling mie tat she will be late..that time is already like 1.10?? LIKE HALO?? SHE ALREADY late for dunno how long liao..she supposed to meet mie at 12.20!! hahaa...So end up calvin i have to wait for her like 1 hour??
dunno why also..recently see him i will shy...haha..like OMG..this feeling is back again..haha...might be due to last saturday ba..hahaha..realli i told geradine about it (saturday)and she like telling mie tat i'm blushing le...OMG..so malu lorr...is like just discriping abt tat dae also can blush..=x true la..i think of it i also feel shy lo..
had my lunch with minnie after tuition..ordered student meal which consist of one pepsi, 1 fish burger, 1 small packet of fries...and OMG!! I HATE TAT GUY WHO SERVE US!! he is soo polite and his service is super good!! BT HE CHEAT MIE!! i told him i wan to change my fries into twisters fries..bt he say cannot cos the value is different..so i told him i pay the extra and i wan a large size..and i did this before...But this stupid guy!! he made mie and minnie gong...and he come and serve mie this meal: 1 pepsi, 1 fish burger, 1 large packet of normal fries and 1 large packet of twister fries!! So my meal cost mie $7.50...when he served us tat time minnie and i stoned at the fries...like since when did i ordered additional fries?? So i have to da bao the normal fries, burger and drink home...Now i see fries i already scared liao..Oo My TIAN!! And this minnie just couldn't stopped laughing...cos i'm having a fries meal instead of set meal..lolx
wah!! So total i spend $10 today..yep including $2 donation...cos one of our junior approached us when we are having tuition..they are doing flag day..and i understand how they feel..so be generous lo..donate $2...hehe!! think this is my first time donate $2 ba..cos usually i donate a few cent for flag day..=)
wah!! my one week saving just gone like tat..*sob sob* must save again..in order to purchase class photos which will cost mie about $8...den gonna save up to buy present which will cost mie around 20 plus ba...=)
To: geradine and jessica haish feeling so ruan now..euu Noe i got 1 kor who i know him ever since sec 1...he told mie tat he got feeling for mie...yep before my tuition..on the way to mac with calvin...and i'm like ??? i dunno hw to reply him and i'm just treating him as my kor onli...haish wad should i do?? if i reject him he will feel heartbroken...bt is also impossible for mie to accept him cos i'm just treating him as my kor...and he's nt the one i love..i dun wan becos of this den affect our sister brother ties euu c?? hw should i settle this?? wad should i do??
Aiyoo..poor dotter...my darling's forth finger got blue black..and is like blue black darn jia liat..! like kana poison like tat=x haha like wad jermaine describe...like some elephant trunk..=x beside tat...her toe also kana blue black...haha!! poor thing poor thing...play captain ball play until like tat..dunno hw she play also..=x aiyOo...horrible arhx she...
Had my GCE O level english oral today...dunno can pass well a nt leh..i screw up for my passage...too nervous liao..thus some word a bit out..For conversation..it's alright...quite easy..it's about friends...Den picture discussion also a bit die die..haish...nothing much to say about it...and they asked a 3-4 question on it..dunno will affect the mark a nt leh..cos they asked soo much mean i din say until very good...But then when i asked my classmate...they told mie tat they also kana a few questions on it..soo should i say i'm safe?? haish..hope i can score well ba *pray*
Dunno wad happened to shi hui and geradine..aiyo these two arhx...realli made us get a shocked when we knew that 2 of them argue today...erm..this time round..it's a childish argument...and it's onli a small small issue onli...is even worse than the previous issue...=.='' ok wadever it is...hope tat they are fine nw..and yep saw them talking about oral..hopefully the two of them ok le ba..=)
Received sms from adrian today and this is wad he said: I kept telling myself not to love you anymore. I dun want to love you any longer. But my heart still feel so much for you and its still so painful like its only yesterday that we broke off. Last night i teared before i sleep cos i yearn so much to feel you loving mie once again...
I din realise how precious you are to mie until now. You worth more than any treasure. Ur more than just a girl. Ur a girl that brought hope and joy to my life once.
To adrian: I hope you can understand that we won't be together again. Even if calvin and i are impossible, i will never consider you again. My love for u had gone..i couldn't put myself to love you again. You said the word break up although you dun mean it...i din blame u bt i should thank you instead. If we were to carry on...we will face even more problems...and you won't trust mie anymore..yep im being unfaithful..i'm sorrie..i dun wan thing to turn up this way either. But what is done can't be undone...
During this period of time..i realised something tat meant a lot to mie..and i believe you ought to noe this...I love him more than i love you...realli...i love you, half of it is to help you while the other half is true love...For calvin, i'm purely in love with him with no reason..i'm sorry this might be hurting for you...and sorrie if i hurt you again..Bt i'm sincerely hope that you will forget mie..dun wait for mie...you xie shi qing shi wu fa hui tou de. Wo xi wang ni neg ming bai. Ni zhe yang zhi hui ran wo shu yuan ni...and i believe time will help you forget our past..."old 1 dun go,new 1 dun come right?" i really wan to put aside everything and start afresh..yep including those that i shouldn't have done it.Once again we will always remain as frenz...no further than that..i'm sorrie...
*haish...i Noe i sound heartless..yep i show jermaine these 2 sms tat adrian had sent mie..and i told her tat i will just ignore those sms and nothing gonna bring us back again...and this is wad she said: soo heartless..not like you leh..actually i also dunno wad happened to you and adrian..but to be honest the sms that he sent you are so touching...
yep..i admit i sound heartless..bt you Noe this type of thing no such thing call heartless or not heartless...yep it seem to be heartless..bt can't possibly asked mie to get back to him when i dun even love him?? yep if this happened in the past..i will..bt nt nw...i had enough of break up and patched back..it's tiring..and i dun see the point of getting back again..here he treasure mie very much..next time anything happened...he gonna dump mie at one corner again...i dun wan to get hurt anymore..haish..i realised a changed in mie...in the past i dun realli care abt soo many thing...bt nw every single thing matters to mie..haha...WO ZHANG DA LE..lolx..getting to have a more mature thinking...=) And this jermaine arhx..dunno wad's the problems with her also..when i'm with adrian..she used to ask mie "when are we breakin up"?? now she say i heartless *bish*
To: Geradine and Jessica Gurl, you noe something happened during midnite *today*. I needed someone to be there for mie bt still i wish to keep it to myself. Just dun feel like saying it...And it's pretty late for mie to call euu...Yep..i was crying alone in my dark room..[yep my eyes swell when i wake up this morning]...he told mie something that made me keep silence for long...i dun even wan to listen to him playing his guitar..cos i noe i will cry even more...he told mie tat he fall for his senior etc...Bt why?? And why her?? He knew its impossible for them...yep he said tat...But why bother to tell mie n hurt mie?? Yesh..he read my past entries and he should noe hw i feel if i knew it...Did he do it on purpose? Or was it a lie to see my reaction? I knew this day will come but i din expect it to come so early..i'm not prepared for it...wad can i do?? wad should i do?? And wad else can i do?? Im in a lost..reallie...why do i love him soo much..to the extend that i can't even stop loving him..once again he broke my heart...Initially wana haf a good tok with him cos i knew he won't be calling mie everynite [when his school start]...and i noe i gona miss him a lot...haish in the end the conversation was rather silence...i din tell him how i feel but i think he noe ba..
He asked mie why i soo silence...bt i din answer his question..just act as normal...bt deep down my heart i'm feeling sad and disappointed and eventually i cried...Why?? Why am i soo in love with him?? And why mie?? I just knew him not long and yet?? i'm realli serious about him..No joke..Im nt desperate abt him...although i sound like one...yep i admit i wan him..bt i'm not doing any things to make him be with mie..haish..also dunno wad i toking..euu noe sometime it's hard to express yourself in words...
Sound ridiculous rite?? yesterday i was darn happy with him...no words to describe how happy i was...bt today feeling heartpain...i find it funny...realli...dun you think soo?? Everything can just change within a nite...yep jess gonna hate guy even more..bt pls dun...And pls dun hate him...it's my fault...Haish..need not worry for mie...i had vent out my anger by hitting the wall real hard...dun be xin tong k?? At least euu two should be glad tat i din cut myself..was thinking of that..but think think not worthy to do that..den dun wanna let euu all worry also ..haish hopefully the pain in my heart will fade...and things will be better again?? This time i'm gona be strong!! I DUN CARE!! aaahhhH!!!
Honestly speaking...i'm sick and tired of all these...reallie...i dun wanna think about it anymore...i dun wanna face it anymore...i noe i'm gonna escape from it...i hate escaping...bt i think i will feel better this way...yep escape abt the fact that i still love him as much as last time...i'm gonna tell myself tat i dun love him anymore...etc...haish...do you think i'm doing the right thing?? And wad do euu think i should do??
Was listening to some chinese songs...and find certain sentences quite meaningful...started to wrote them down on a piece of paper...
Guang Liang- Yue Ding You ren shuo... Shi jian ke yi lan ren wang ji yi xie shi qing... Shen zhi yi xie wo men bu xiang wang ji de shi qing...
Ni Na Me Ai Ta Ni na me ai ta... Wei he bu ba ta liu xia lai... Wei he bu shuo chu xing li hua...
<=Memories=> * 28 June 2006 [The day we knew each other] * 11 June 2006 [first time listened to him playing his guitar] * 21 June 2006 [Second time listened to him playing his guitar] * 28 July 2006 [Third time listened to him playing his guitar] * 29 July 2006 [Forth time listened to him playing his guitar] * 12 June 2006 [Our first argument about math stuff] * 12 June 2006 [First time tag mie in my tagboard ] * 16 June 2006 [Our second serious argument about kept mie waitin] * 10 June 2006 [Told him that i Miss talking to him] * 15 June 2006 [Gave him a jar of Home Made Cookies] * 10 June 2006 [Din talk for days cos he went for his camp] * 31 July 2006 [ Move into hostel ] * 31 July 2006 [Eat dinner at beauty world Bukit Timah] * 1 Auguest 2006 [ Went JB and return home late] * 1 August 2006 [ Went home sleep instead of hostel ] * 11 August 2006 [ Call mie darling for fun] * 11 August 2006 [ Was force to call him darling for once ] * 12 August 2006 [ Hugging ] * 13 August 2006 [ Disappointed with him ]