Happy Bdae,
to my beloved brother x))

Enjoyed urself for tis day yea? gee
yea i noe we dun celebrate as a family for pretty long =x
im nt sure why our family are lidat x=
So you gotta enjoyed urself wif ur outside fren yea?
wish u lotss of luck
and sweet sweet love with ur gal.
LOVE MIE TOO <3
cuz im a sadist =x



Someone said tis last week:
"We both wan to be faithful"

Didnt reply him,

but now, if he's still reading this, i would wish to say,
"I will, cos i have found someone tat i truly love"

Cheers for our LOVE LIFE
xD

As far as you people can see,
guess i had simmered down after the news tat he had told mie.
once again, i dun blame him
once again, i kind of forgive him...i guess?
once again, i wish him happiness without tellin him?

hah,
crap!
Am i that nice to that extend that i cld forgive ppl so easily?
or was it him the only special case all along?
goshhh...

but i guess no matter wad,
i wont wish to contact him animore.



Since monday nite,
i had been having a cold war with dear till wednesday nite

Completely, no talk
Completely, no sms
Completely, insane abt mie
Completely, crazy for mie
Completely, sad for him
Completely, hurt for him

just becos he smoke 2 puff on sunday nite,
and his buddy blurt out to mie.

He didnt mean to hide from mie,
cuz he noe how i will react.

But still i doesnt wish to be hide in the dark.
i Just felt soo cheated,
i just felt soo hurt, disappointed and loses trust on him
tat i even wanna end our relationship.

how cld i carry on without any trust?

Past 2 days was a madness to him.
i know.

till he looked for mie on wednesday nite,
we talked thing out.

and yep,
i was just being stubborn nt to care for him
but deep inside mie i was HURT, REAL HURT to see him TORTURING HIMSELF

without slping the whole nite,
running and doing exercise without resting.

who's know my feelin?
Rick know,
he knew i care.
In fact he scolded mie, screamed mie, beg mie.
But its useless

My "acted" stubborness had win everything
till it hurt inside mie,
and den cried while confessing to dear abt my feeling.

how cool ehh? =.=''
Acted tough, just dun wana be taken advantage etc..
in the end, i teared

Just wanna thank Rick and Jaren
for being there for us when we are having cold war.
without you guys, i wondered wad will happened
I might just be "gone case"
and dear might just be dead.

Jaren, thanks for being soo supportive
when i just needed some peace!!
i know you tried very hard to make mie forgive him etc..
Overall thanks for all the advice ;)

Rickson, thanks for all the lecturing,
and allowing mie to noe how dear felt in camp.
thanks for the SCOLDING tat made mie teared
and den made mie laugh at the next moment.
Thanks for concerning dear at the same time x))


One happy new for the day,
which really perk mie up x))

Jessica, my darling had finally allow mie to view her private blog x))
zee
things got better i guess?
i believed one fine day she's able to confide in mie again
Is a matter of time ((x

and ohhh~
she smsed mie like last nite to tell mie hw she was feelin?
though it didnt contain much of the content
bt im contented x))

i knew things are improving between us x))

NU REN, xie xie ni..
Ni yao JIA YOU ohhh~ ^_^

at the same time,
i do feel bad.

Becos of some incidence,
tat i happened to betray her trust for once.
She had lost confidence to confide her problem to mie anymore.
and den,
now she's back to the square one.
the old jess tat i know
who kept all her sorrows to herself
and not letting anione know.

the feeling of wanted to share with someone,
yet no one to be told.
The feeling is soo horrible.

If only i didnt made the stupid mistake
she cld haf told mie her problems anytime.
she cld haf let mie share her burden with her
and receiving my advice, nt a good advice, at least a little way out of problem
and a shoulder to lie on

at least im glad you are trying hard to confide ur problem to mie once again,
is the obstacles tat you need to settle
before you can release ur problem to mie x))

If only, time cld be turn back
and i promised, i wouldnt have told tat issue to tat victim regarding tat backstabber

It may seemed nth serious to tell someone
To her, it matter alots.
till now, i finally understand why she took it soo seriously when the issue arent impt.
cuz is a matter of trust of a close & trusted fren
and nt the issue alone


and ohh yea
She agreed to turn up for our DATES
on 17th april, her 19th bdae
if only ger and i able to make it on tat day.

tats like WOOO~
DOUBLE GOOD NEWS
xD

thanks darlin,
Mummy luv you lots!!

thanks for giving mummy a chance
and a hope x)

Darling,
just wanna thank you for giving us a chance to start all over again.
though e obstacles still there, bt at least i noe you would wan to try.
I know you are trying hard.

i would sit there patiently for tat day to come by,
waiting for you to tell mie ur problems urself
and doing all the things we used to do
fulfilling our sec 5 "dreams" tat we had promised

but if there is any need,
i would assist you to fulfill that

Like what i once said,
when the bond & tie is still there,
when there is still feelin of you wantin to confide to mie,
It's not hopeless
but there is some little hope within it.

take care gal,
and you gonna be strong yea?

<3
whooo~
IM LOVING ALL MY GAL FRENZ
you gals rawk my life
cheers ;)