Woke up at 8am in the morning. wish i cld sleep early. Bt i promised Jun Jie tat i will accompany him to AMK driving centre there. So yea...die die must wake up..=x Met him at GWC bus stop..den took a shuttle bus to town...den take mrt to yio cho kang.
By the time we reached the driving centre. It's just nice lo. cos his paper start at 11.45am and we reached there on the dot. haha!! bt well it end up to be a wasted trip..cos he forgot to brng his identity card...soo can't take. He was super sad la..gosh first time see him sigh soo many time. well as a friend i was like keep consoling him..then tell him "a lot of crap like well maybe tis paper too difficult, so god wan you to skip tat" den blah blah blah...
Around 12.30 we took train back to town. But we went separate way. He gotta go home and go change and report to the seating gallery for NDP. As for mie i took bus 7 to old airport road. Gotta pay respect to my grandpa. yep had lots of fun with my cousin. They are sooo funny la..!!
Reached home at around 5 plus. Very guai lo..Rei asked mie out i also never go...cos gotta study for my monday paper. yep was busying studyin. Den received an sms from Jun Jie saying tat he still feeling hungry after his dinner. Cos food is not enough and he didn't eat his lunch. See him so pathetic, offer to buy supper for him. Cos he end work will be pretty late. and since there is a striaght bus to the seating gallery
yea..thot of buying sth simple and will full de..bt this guy say he would like to eat carrot cake =.='' So i just tried my best to buy carrot cake for him. Was having some problem with it la..cos my area carrot cake shop afternoon wil close le..soo i took a bus to bukit merah hawker centre at 9pm, hoping to da bao carrot cake for him. unfortunately it was closed. So i rushed back to the interchange and took a bus to tiong bahru market. cos i rmb the last time i went there with jessica was around 9 plus.
Brough a container along so tat i cld ask the auntie to place it inside. Like tat He can eat and walk at the same time ma. den took a bus go all the way to suntec there..den from there rush all the way to the seating gallery..just nice he just realised from duty. By then it's alrdy 10 plus le. Pass him the food and we went home le. Glad tat he find the carrot cake nice...well i'm not doing all these behind my darling back. I did report to him about it.
well when i went to tiong market...it just happened to think back alot of thing. Was thinking abt jessica...the last time i met up with her was at tiong market. we were having dinner..den took quite a number of photos. We used to be soo close...But now?? becos of one big mistake i ever make in my life which causes our friendship to tear apart. i betrayed her trust cos i told a victim something who is a very close friend of mine. Till now i'm still waiting for her forgiveness. didn't approach to her cos wad i wan is to let her cool down first. But what i noe is the longer i dun approach to her..the harder i can save tis friendship. i noe her inside out. But the fact is i can't put myself to approach her. I did tried, bt she is ignoring mie totally. I'm afraid the more i approach the more worse it will become. i noe i hurt her alot. i fully understand i'm the only she really trust. yet i had broke my promise to her over someone issue. i can't blame her for being petty, for not being able to cool down over such thingy. Cos i noe is my fault. there is nth much i can do, bt to wait for her forgiveness patiently.
dear, jess Just wanna let you noe Till now i'm still waiting for your forgiveness. Till now i'm still waiting for you to tok to mie personally. Please dun tell mie our friendship had ended just like tat. If so, do you think is worth it?
Look at the ring tat we had promised to wear everyday. what had we promised when we put for one another? We swear tat our friendship will last and never ending. We swear tat we won't get angry over small issue. Had you forgotten about all these?
Till now i'm still wearin it on my middle finger. It shows how much i really treasure you as a fren. Tell mie, Just tell mie what must i do for you to forgive mie?
You hasn’t been talking to mie for 2 weeks. Do you noe how guilty I felt? Do you noe how bad I felt? Do you noe how sad I was? Do you noe how piss I was with myself with no one to blame on But MYSELF? Do you noe the way you sms mie really hurt mie a lot? I was happy to received your msg. But my heart sank to the the bottom when i read it. It's ur first time toking to mie lidat.
5th August 2007
Didn't go aniwae..gotta study hard for monday paper. Spend the whole day at home studying. Darn guai lo. ehh actually not whole day at home la. Cos i did went down. Cos Jun Jie got mie something suddenly and wanted to pass it to mie at vivo by today. bt i was kinda lazy to go down la..cos i was studying ma. So he say he will deliver it to my hse. I got nothing to say but to tell him which blk i stay.
Thot he wanted to pass mie things like hp accessories or what...Bt to my surprised he bought mieDOZEN OF DONUTS...i stunned...and i was soo TOUCHED!! Till i got nothing to say. It's not normal donuts..is donuts from donuts factory...Do you noe how expensive is one dozen? it cost abt 16 bucks lidat ba..Somemore due to him wearing long sleeve and the weather is soo hot, by the time he find my blk he's like sweating non stop? Poor boi...
aww~ he's just too sweet la.. Never had a guy come deliver food for mie out of a sudden.
well he told mie a lie...bt it doesn't matter. cos the outcome is still he went to suntec and queue up for 30 mins just to buy mie the donut. somemore still took a cab down la..
The donuts is soo nice la..dun even bear to eat it lo. wish i cld keep it with mie forever. Bt cannot la..later gt mould den wasted..waste money and waste his time and his effort. So the only way is to take pic of it =x wish i cld share and eat with him. Cos he didn't buy any for himself. neither did he try before =x aww!! I'M SOO TOUCHED!!
The whole of past 2 weeks, i had been busy with my presentation. There are a total of 5 presentations to be done. I was quite tensed up during tat two weeks. Basically everyone in my group got soo pissed off and tensed up. And finally, We had completed our last presentation on Monday.
Time to relax?
NO WAY!!
Basically after presentation weeks is Practicals exam and quiz Weeks. For Goodness Sake!! Can't they just give us rest? And what really pissed us off is 1 week ago then informed us about practical exam. Furthermore On thursday i had Both my Nursing skill learning Practical exam and Microbiology Infection Control Practical exam and Anatomy and Physiology Quiz on the same day!!! and after practical it gonna be like exam period again?
The nite before i was studyin like mad..stayed up to 3.15am Just to study my Mic and read through my aap lecture notes. i dun mind staying up late to study etc..bt what really disappoint mie is my results it turn up. I was well prepared for MIC..cos i read and learn everything. Yet i screw up the whole practical. The questions i predicted and kind of questions they usually came up with turn to be soo different!!! All of us doesn't noe how to do. yays there goes our MIC PRACT..[btw it's our first attempt].
1 Hr after MIC practical, we continue with our MIC lesson...den we had our aap quiz..is abit tricky and i just passed..Darn It...did 3 careless mistakes. During tat period, my heart really sank.I feel tat my efford did not pay off.
Instead of being disappointed with my performance, i tried to make myself cheer up a bit...is like what is done can't be undone. what else can i do? Nothing...beside working harder for my MIC theory exam which will be 2 weeks times from now. I gotta pass my MIC theory cos i doesn;t wan to repeat my module next semester. Cos this module is only for this semester only. Ohh..aniwae i had clear my CNP & CITs module le..AT LAST NO PROJECT WORK!! hurray!!
Okay...after the quiz, instead of going 4 lunch,i went to prepared myself for my NSL practical exam. Went to changed and read through some notes. i had lots of time to read through cos i'm the last candidate in my group. and the practical is like 1 person at a go.aniwae i didn't read much cos i noe what to do. I had enough practices during classes. So basically i was rotting at the other class. waited for 3 hrs just for my turn!!
I'm darn HAPPY wif my marks sia..I FAILED.!! and I need a RETEST!! yesh RETEST!!
I would like my examiner to be my lecturer, she is good. But i hate her to be my examiner for practical exam. is soo unfair!! basically the step tat i do and say is what my lecturer had taught mie. Cos those are the pts found in marking skin. In the end this examiner keep asking mie to skip here skip there. Deep down my heart i thot i did sth wrong and was quite worried it will affect my mark. What worse is in the mid of no where she always ask mie questions which really disturbed mie. the questions she asked is like i hasn't been taught before. All my ans is just my assumption? Like come on, this is a practical test, we are suppose to show you how we assess the patient and not here to answer theory question. And dun she think is wrong for her to pause what the student is doing just for her to ask her question? Is like we will get confused. We are not machine. We won't rmb where we stop at. What worse is she keep rushing mie and i was given given like 15 minutes? The first candidate actually took 1 hr? she said she's having 1 to 1 lecture during the practical. [Dragging time at the start, Rushing time at the last] =.='' No wonder my lecturer said sure gt 1 or 2 ppl fail one.
End of the day i was super shag and disappointed. Wish darling was here bt i noe is impossible. I'm no longer looking forward for it cos i noe it's simply impossible. When i needed him he just Cldn't be here for mie to console or cheer mie up. It really piss mie off after accepting the fact tat for the next 3 years he won't be able to be here for mie or even listen to my problems. At tis pt of time,i noe wad i really wan, tat isn't the type of relationship tat i wana be in. Just feel tat going separate way is the best choice for us. Moreover i dun wan him to feel bad about it. See how things goes ba..dun wanna hurt him also..haish
Let mie make tis clear, this has nothing to do with Jun Jie. He may be the one consoling mie and being there for mie. We may be very close with each other. Bt he is not the one who make mie came up with this decision. So people out there pls do not misunderstand us.
At night i was feeling much better. I'm physically tired la.. only had 4 hr of sleep onli. But despite of how tired i was, i manage to stay awake to study for my Psychology and Sociology retest which i had failed by 1 mark during my common test. soo stupid!!
Gotta go sleep le. Gonna wake up early to accompany Jun Jie to ang mo kio. Cos he going to take his driving theory exam. Must give him my support. Also trying hard to motivate him to do well n to achieve his goal. cos he tat kind of guy who had no interest in study..So ya..dun get any wrong idea. After that, gonna go to my cousin hse to pay respect to my grandpa and then go home and study for my monday NSL theory Exam and AAP Pract exam. Last and not least Fri FON Quiz...oohh!! i feel soo stress sia.. HELP HELP!!
ohh yea..i'm thinking of joing Red Cross as my CCA =x i noe it gonna be fun and is something new to mie. yep...i noe i will love it. and i believed it will help mi in many way since i'm studying nursing.
Can't wait fro exam to be over. Gonna work for money I'm broke!! Ever since i din work just becos of my ndp =x
Yesterdae was the preview. Met rei at city hall control station at 10.30am cos we gotta reach the benjamin shear bridge at 11am. Went to 7 eleven to buy curry puff and peel fresh orange juice for Jun jie. Cos he didn't eat his breakfast and he is bored over there.
Is soo easy to buy food for him bt not drink. Wanted to buy coffee for him cos it gotta be a long day for him. But i got no idea which type of coffee he like. So i plan to buy him Fresh milk since he love drinking it. But i can;t cos he will be eating curry puff. Later he diahhorea..isn't it worse? So in the end bought him orange juice.
Passed to him immediately i reached there. 20 minutes later, he called mie asking mie where am i. Cos he gt sth for mie. Guess what was it? Beancurd!! LOLX. Cos he noe i love soya bean... It was his sir who bought for everyone. But he doesn't wan to eat soo he pass to mie. And thanks to his buddy saying: "Your darling wan you to eat, just take la" den my grp mate really thot he my bf and refused to shared with mie.
So sweet of him to pass mie his beancurd. and so caring of him to care about my safety etc.. He's a very caring friend. =)
But darn it.. I Was soo disappointed with something. OR4 OR4!! what is that? My group. What does it mean? Orange sector [vip] yet? we were posted at concourse area [ground floor]
A place that you can't see the performance A place that you can't celebrate ndp with other ambassador A place that you can't see the nice view in esplanade. A place that will be squeese by the crowd
we argue with the incharge we were darn pissed off. Cos we will be station at the concourse for ndp also. Is very unfair. Is like wad's the pt of going for interview? In the end we get such a place? In fact if i dun go for the interview, i can be station at the seating gallery where i can get to see nice view?
Their excuse is not enough ppl statin at concourse. Soo? Our prob? Who ask them din include ppl to station there in the beginning? And why must they get people from orange sector? Can't they get people from blue and green sector? Since they no need to go for interview. How abt red sector [vvip]? They are too many people there!! Are they being fair to us? There are four groups of orange sector, why of all must be OR2 and OR4 be station at the concourse at all time? Can't they rotate to be fair to us?
Another excuse for puting us there is We got not much experience in seaing gallery. Cos we only stationed there for 1 time. Come on leh..they themself put us to be sch ursher for 2 time. Now they say we gt no experience. Our Fault is it?
And who on earth say we got experience in concourse area? Only 4 people in my group did there be4. And now they compared about experience..? wth?
No one will noe how pissed off i was. In fact no one noe how pissed off we are.
Nvm..i had train myself to be ble to "Forgove & Forget" =D Soo im no longer angry abt it after a while.. aniwae i'm quite lucky la.. though i can't get to see the performance.. bt i'm able to see the firework.
OMG!! the firework was FANTASTIC!! The best firework tat i had seen soo far!! It's soo fantastic till i thot of no one. I din think of my grandpa.. I din think abt my bf... I din think of anyone... Only after the whole thing..i think of darling geradine =x Wish she was here to view it. I wish to share my moment happiness with her. Cos she didn't get to see nice firework last sat.
After the show, walked out of the place with my groupmate was standing outside waiting for friend. I was waiting for Jun Jie to finish his work. cos we had planned to have supper in town, so tat i cld take back my nursing shoe from the hotel. But i didn't tell my grpmate who i'm meeting with til she asked mie. didn't wan her to get the wrong idea abt mie meeting an army guy.
Conversation: Pearlyn: Are you waiting for army guy? Mie: *Stun*...erm ya...you? Pearlyn: *started laughing*...Mie too..
*Blast into laughter*
Mie: Is he your ALP for the sch ursher? Pearlyn: ya...we stay nearby soo going home together...you? Mie: *laughing*...SAME SAME!!
*Laughing Non Stop*
Pearlyn: does he msg you when he book out? Mie: erm..we msged everyday, even during the show =x Pearlyn: ooooHhhh!!! Mie: wei dun anihow think horr..
*Laughing*
Mie: Today he ursher blue sector upside, mie blue sector downstair. Pearlyn: Mie also...but mine is GREEN!! Mie: Erm...okay..tat's soo conincidence..
*Laugh Non Stop*
Mie & Pearlyn: Who knows later they know each other.
and guess what? our alp really noe each other la.. =.='' Is darn funny la.. We laugh like no business lah... cos we acted like soo secretive IN the end we are doing the same thing =x
While waiting our alp, mie and pearlyn were at DXO bus stop toking. Then i saw the bus 700A from far... and i stunned! Cos i see wrongly.. Instead of 700A i thot it was bus 2008. In my heart i was thinking since when there is 4 digit bus number? So i asked pearlyn abt it. When the bus is driving toward us.. I Blast into laughter..cos i see the wrongly.. Haiyoo!! horrible mie sia..tired until lidat...xD
oohh gosh!! iss soo conincidence!! Just heard from Jun Jie... He know jessica =D This girl won't be able to rmb him.. Cos they din tok before. One work outside, one work in the kitchen as PC but what i can say is last time they used to work in Great World Mac.. LOLx