Sad to say i did not turn up for my orietation. First of all, i was in pain which make mie can't sleep well. Secondly, i was quite disturbed about geradine and jeffery issue. Thirdly, im too lazy to get out of bed. zzz since it's like this..shouldn't have sign up for orientation in the first place rite? nvm payment are made, decision are made...things just wanna turned up to be this way..wad can i do rite? Nothing i can do...
Glad to say after decided not to go for camp..i did managed to have a good sleep for 4 hours..woke up at 11 plus and replied chat liang smsed [colledge]...LOL soo sweet of him to send mie an sms at 7am [about to go work] erm..this smsed is kind of special to mie..cos soo far no one actually did tat to mie personally unless i requested it from him/her.
Guess what is this special sms i'm toking about? LoL...is a wake up sms..LOL...cos he noe i gotta wake up at 7am for moi camp..and this guy actually sent an sms saying:
"RING!! RING!! wake up lo!!..or you will be late!!"
Seriously no one had done tat to mie before..it's always mie who give ppl wake up call or send wake up sms..LOL...yea when i received it i was super SHOCKED!!
went to watch "healing hand part 3" [hk show] until ping called mie to ask mie what happened to darling. Then we made our way to darling hse to see if she's alrite. though i really wish to watch my show cos i seriously paused there for very long le...but nvm..like what i said..i will always be there for her. aniwae i do understand how she feel...i did gone through the feeling that she is having now. is the same feeling as what i felt whenever we gal did something for a guy and tat guy does't appreciate it..and we gals will think they dun even deserve it at all..and we tend to throw it away no matter how much afford we put in...why are we doing this? becos of frastruction? Nope...it's becos of DISAPPOINTMENT!!
i dun understand...i just simply dun understand why guys love to disappoint a girl soo much [friends or girlfriend]...is tat what guys love to do? Why can't they be more understanding and noe what their girlfriend wan from them? can't they just appreciate whatever they are given? sorry if i had offended some of my guy friends..maybe euu are not tat sort of person which i mentioned above..but to mie i feel tat all my guy friends or should i say most of my guy friends are like this/ treating their girlfriend this way?
My friend jeffery, geradine bf...is a workoholic..yep i understand...to jeff/most of the guys, working is more important than anything in life. In fact i do feel this way...if asked mie to chosoe between work and going out...my answer will be work. But of cos i will still go out with my friends once in a while..like whenever im taking a break or wad? This time round, i fully understand how he felt when he have to choose between works and going out to celebrate his 1st anniversary with geradine. Both are important to him...in fact i noe he feel bad for not celebrating this special day with geradine..cos is a must for him work..But sad to say no matter how understanding i am..i won't side for him this time round..[yea i noe it's contradicting]
In case Jeffery happened to read my blog. i think i really owe him an explanation abt wad i said above.
I'm not angry with you I'm not blaming you I'm not siding for ur darling also..
I duno where shld i stand this time round. What i noe is i won't side for euu tis time yesh..in fact i'm helping eu to say good words to geradine. I'm not being hypocrite or what But i'm just helping you to let her understand how you feel.
i noe euu dun mean to hurt her i noe euu feel bad about it i noe euu can't choose going out with her instead of work
yes euu told mie euu can't take leave last min soo euu mean euu can take leave in advance for this special day rite? so why aren't euu doing it? Dun tell mie euu had forgottten about it? dun euu noe what ur darling wan from euu?
She just had a small request from euu and tat is being able to spend more time with euu. If you dun have the time, nvm.. she forgive euu.. but what she really wan is to spend this special day with eu.
You had been telling mie tat euu feel bad abt this and that So what if euu feel bad? did you do anything to improve it? No euu didn't
take the zoo outing for an example... Can't you tell tat she really wish to take a picture with you? Just one photo onli.. it's just as simple as tat.. it won't take up ur time and u need not pay for it...
You say euu wanna give her something special.. but did you do it? Did you put in afford into it? No euu didn't Your reason for it is "Busy!! No Time"
Then you will ask mie for help Like come on? You are her boyfriend Not mie I can only give you suggestion... But i can't help you tat's why i rejected you... cos i noe i helped you alot since the beginning.
you are her boyfriend... what had euu done to her before? have you ever be by her side before? No you didn't!!
When she is sad or having problems... who is the one who are always by her side? Her friend & Mie Were you there for her? Sometime...but more problems are added into it.
When she need accompany.. You were busy with ur work Who is the one being there with her? Her friend & Mie
When she is over there crying soo badly cos of euu Where were euu? You were at home sleeping soundly.. and poor her didn't even sleep at all..!!
If i'm u, i will try my best to cheer her up and ensure tat she is fine before i can even go sleep...
why? why is it always us? why are we the one clearing up the mess u had with her? When she is unhappy, it affect our mood too I dun even think she will be going Gen hse on fri... though we really wish she can join us.. Even if she go, i dun even think we can be crazy together..
I knew her for 7 years!! i have never seen her like this before...she was soo heartbroken tat she dun even have the appetite to eat...she was soo sad tat she hardly talk to us...let alone laughing together with us...we tried soo hard to let her laugh..but failed!! Cos you are the only one who can make her cheer up. We may be special to her...bt we dun really meant alot to her. Only you can make her cheer up..Only you can make the difference in her. i seriously hope euu can think about wad i had just said..i noe some people out there will be saying i'm adding salt and pepper into it..But i dun care!! Cos i'm stating the truth...
she's a very nice, sweet and understanding girl..Cherish the time euu had with her...take good care of her..and try to be by her side whenever she needed you most. Treasure her before you really lose her. tat's all i wanna say.
To: darling geradine i really understand how you feel...Dun be sad anymore kie? it's already over...try to forgive him ba...no point blaming him or b sad over it. it will only make euu feel terrible..aniwae it's already over le...take ur time ba..i noe it's hard to forgive him...i noe it's hard to get over it..cos whenever euu think abt him or anything regarding him..it will make euu remember of this sad thingy...
Nothing much to tell euu here cos whatever i wanna sae, i already told you personally le...you can forget abt what i said..bt dun forget eu are much more fortunate than jun ping and her bf...& mie and my ex...at least he can make it up for u some other day...unlike mie and him..cos it's totally impossible to celebrate it when i dun even have my freedom euu c? so stop thinking abt it le..cos it will only make euu more sad. anything just let mie noe kie? i won't abandon euu de..=)
Went for Orientation Talk today Woke up pretty early to meet ping cos we gotta report at 9am...
zzzzz
Was yawning non stop wherever i go.. Had only 3 and a half hour of sleep
LOLx!!
Was talking to Desmond from 1.30am to 3am last nite.. is our last time talking till soo late.. HAHAHA!! XD He gonna suffer in Tekong for the next 2 week.. LOL!!
But SAD to say I doMISS HIM even before he went in...
Cos I SIMPLY MISS ARGUeING WITH HIM xD
aniwae i do feel bad tat i wasted his 2 tickets to tekong :x due to my orientation talk. i can't send him off to tekong and becos of tat.. my dear suzanna also dun wanna go =.=''
There is one question in my mind now shld i BONDor shld i NOT ?!?
One thing good abt BOND is euu can get a salary of $850 per mth [first year] $900 per mth [second year] $950 per mth [third year] while euu are studying in NP
However, it also mean tat after euu graduate from Np after 3 years You still have 3 more years to work in hospital =.='' with a salary of $1700 per month
But if euu sign BOND with them and euu decided to quit.. cos euu are not used to all this... Euu have to pay A sum of $40 000 [loss of $7000plus after deduction of the total sum of money they gave euu in this 3 years]
3 years are not long But it's also not short... wad if i really can't take it Isn't mie in a loss?
But what if i can take it after my 3 years course and wanna continue to work in hospital. But i didn't sign BOND in the first place. Isn't tat not worthy? I'm still in a loss aniwae =x
Soo... shld i or shld i not??
i fully understand tat this issue must based on individual capability, how much euu can adapt to all this and how much euu wanna learn.
However, with no experience about health science like mie how am i going to noe am i suitable for all this?
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Later gotta pack my bag.. For my orientation camp.. soo sian..have to stay overnite at there =.=''