Weeks ago, i dun wanna noe my feeling for you. Cos i'm afraid of certain thing. The only way is to be an escapist. But i'm afraid tat i might regret.
Now i had the answer in my heart, Yet i duno what to do with it. Should i just let it go? Or should i just be honest with you?
It's abit pointless, i noe that very well. but at least i noe i won't regret Cos i had let you noe abt my feeling.
Now i have the answer.. should i just maintain the feeling i had for you Or should i just let it fade?
Chris was right... He said something and it's quite meaningful in one way or another, i agreed with it... "Love him wholeheartedly, and never regret no matter wad's the outcome"
However,
Adora was right too... she was actually tellin mie abt she liking a guy.. and i happened to ask her aren't euu gonna tell him abt it? And this was what she said... "Not soo early..i like the way we are now..cos we are pretty close"
this time my stand is more to adora side...cos i do like the way we are now...and i dun see the need of getting further than that. And it does not mean that we like each other...we will get together...cos i duno what he is thinking...cos he going back soon...and is like next month? How can i ensure that everything will goes on smoothly. How can i be sure that he is not like that "him" who avoid mie cos he doesn't wan to hurt mie when he personally feel that he won't be able to give mie happinesss?
Aniwae i only left one month with him..i really wanna treasure the remaining time i have with him. Dun wish anything to happened...Im willing to give up or adjust my working shedule just to go out with him. He can't adjust to mine cos he's a full timer.
Had my Nursing Skill practical today...woke up 2hr 30 mins earlier...cos i need to spend 30 mins to tie up my hair and clip up my fringe..heh!! aniwae i wore my white dress to school...everyone was like looking at mie like as if i'm an alien from some planet =.='' soo not used to it...but well i gotta be proud of myself to put on that dress...=x went to attend Psychology and sociology lesson at 10am..den went for my practical test at 11am...by the time i finished my practical..it's already like 12am?? topic was on handwashing and gowning...think i'm able to score well ba...bt haish..soo sad norr..my examiner ask mie 1 theory question which i forgot to study!! eww!! aniwae it's over..now it's time to forcus on the other subject...
Went to SIM foodcourt to had my lunch...den went home..can't be bother to go wait for another 2 hr just for that stupid 1 hr Communication In Nursing lecture la... soo i decided to go home and change and then go back to school for some briefing about: "National Day Parade 2007 as a Bay Ambassador"..yea it's pretty obvious that im ndp ambassador liao...yep the briefing start from 5pm to 7pm... and tomorrow i can't skip my first training [9am to 6pm in my school]..cos it's too important...though i really need the time to study for my common test..but i got no choice...cos i had volunteer to be an ambassador for VVIP area =x Had interview immediately on the spot...heh!! Hopefully i can get in...But well even if i can't get in..i won't be disappointed cos i'm juz giving it a try also..=x
It's my honour to serve them... It's a rare opportunity...
oooh well look like i have to find replacement for next saturday monring...=.='' cos i have to go for training..irritating!! tat mean i can only work for dinner onli..*sob*
Didn't go to school yesterday nah i'm not skiping school.. is just tat my lectures are cancelled =D soooo Shiokh!!
OMG i'm soo disappointed with myself..always wanted to study every nite But these few days i kept falling asleep..soo i didn't STUDY at all!! Not even a single word is read..haha!! I'm seriously very tried..all thank to my nose..cos i got flu...flu just make mie soo sick to the extend tat i feel like sleeping..zzz..
But no matter how tired i was..i managed to wake up to wake darling cl up..heh!! cos he working 7am...haha!! tat stupid pig...sleep until got 2 missed call frm mie..haha!! lucky i wake him up if not he sure overslept again.
oooh yea...waited for him to finish work...Met him in harbour front control station at 5.45pm..cos we gonna catch a movie at 6pm..My god regreted watching man...is all the way to first row la..pig arhx..watch until so xin ku..haha but the show is rather nice =) the show ended 3 hrs later..long ehh? haha
went to buy our dinner at burger king...den make our way to siloso beach again..had our dinner there..LOL..OMG!! miss the scenery there la..it's soooo nice!! nah..duno why time pass soo fast...*sob* yep catch our 2nd last train back to vivo at 11.45pm...den went to the top of the vivo to see scenery...my god..soo long din go up le..the nite is soo beautifull >.<''
Not matter how nice the scenery is... we got to go.. Left the place at 12.15am sharp haha
Slept at 2am last nite... Was studying.. & On the phone with darling nyit shen & smsing darling CL...
Woke up pretty early in the morning Guess what time i woke up? Heh!! i woke up at 7am.. Cos i gonna bring Darling Jessica to school.. Yep!! it's her first day of school and i had promised her tat i will send her to school and i fulfilled my promised XD
Well well, as usual..i'm being used as an alarm clock.. went to call that pig jessica at 7am.. Den went to Tiong Mac to pei her eat breakfast
heh!! Didn't see her for 1 mth plus liao.. The last time i see her is celebrate her bdae.. My god!! didn't realised it was tat long until she told mie.. aniwae didn't regret to wake up early in the morning... It's the heart tat count ehh?
oohh yea!! Bought her a packet of chocolate.. cos 6 more days is our 5th mths anniversary liao.. is my first time buying her a mthly anniversary gift.. Can't really surprised her cos today meeting is nt an outing... aniwae is the heart tat count..LOL
Today end school at 3pm.. Met up with swee ling, band gal frenz Whoo!! So long din meet up le.. went to bugis and shop.. and guess what? bought 2 tops... one from bugis village.. one from Mickey Mouse shop in bugis junction...
oooohh!! I'm in love with my new clothes >.<'' Gonna wear it tml..haha x) and yah!! alliluya.. i'm super broke (T.T) ahhh!! I had sign up for the NDP ambassdor 2007..soo cool la..only health science year 1 student can join..wee!! we got the priviledge..it gonna be darn cool man!! though it's tiring to stand under the hot sun..haha!! at least it gotta be fun..furthermore..tis year ndp is at marina..whoohoo!! isn't tat cool enough? =) aniwae it's nt confirm tat i might be able to join cos only 100 people are selected..soo if there are too many ppl signing up, we are required to go for the interview...yyyuuuck!! hate interview xI Best of luck to mie... To: jessica, Now your sch had started.. it's time for euu to start your engine again you had 6 mths of fun.. time to study liao.. dun play too much..be sensible for everything Your future is on ur hand.. Where to go is ur decision.. though euu had lost interest in account, bt i believed euu can pick up this interest again.. Jia you ohh.. Mie, darling noe euu can do it? Give ur best shot man! =) This week will be a busy week for mie..gotta study for my common test..especially my this coming practical test..."nursing skill practices"..eww..gonna be my first time wearing tat orbi uniform..soo darn loose lo..irritating!! yuckk!! gotta wake up pretty early to tight up my hair, clip up my fringe =.=''