Friday, August 08, 2008
Grandma's death
Waited for jaren to finished his exercise in bukit timah.yep was alone in school from 12pm to 4.30pm.
Met up with him at bukit batok & head to his hse.
was watching tv with him
& decided to pack dinner back.
juz when i was to go down,
my dad called.
heartbeat pause upon hearin the news.
yep, my only grandma aged 88 had left us on 08/08/08 @ 8pm.
The only regrets was, we couldnt fulfilled her dream.
and tat was to die at home.
ambulance came too late to send her back home from sgh.
thats the only reason, which make me cried badly
& not becos of her death.
imagine my weak & sicky grandma
closing her eyes, holding her last breath, trying hard to speak bt couldnt
what she could do is just to signal you thru hand,
tears flown down her pale cheek
trying her best to ans the question of
"Do You want to discharge today"?
she tried soo hard to convey her ans to my dad's question
yet it wasnt fulfill within tat 30 mins
feeling alrite over her death was im mentally prepared
cos each month her health was deterrioting.
Thru parting, she wont hf to suffer animore.
at least, she got to see everyone after admission?
i noe my mum needed me the most.
No matter what, i will show my strong side.
No matter what, i will held my tears if possible.
No matter what, i wont let ppl around me worried for me.
Special thank to
Ping & Rei darling;
Jaren
Jun Jie & Wei Wei
TQ
Thursday, August 07, 2008
Long Entries
Memories of Year 1
1st Aug 2008 [Friday]So sweet of bhavna to bought each of us roses!
White rose for last yr
Red rose for tis yr
Simply, love roses x)
sweet and adorable
Thanks to angeline lim [nsl lecturer]Bought us 2 swensen ice cream cakes.
celebrate nurses day in school.
OMG pei yu the hungry ghost!
ate up 1 whole cake -_-
still say dun wish to eat cake LOL
bull shit la you~
didnt go for Health science idol =x
head home and brought "home make honeydew sago" to jaren hse.
another surprised given to him wif my suddened "pop up"
when im suppose to be @ my fren hse.
obviously, i told him a big fat lies. =x
he love honeydew btw.
had mac spicy for dinner.
saw his sister @ mac.
bla bla
2nd August 2008 [saturday]
Woke up early for my first aid training.
dismissed earlier.
bla bla
trainin was fun!
was on the phone wif jun jie throughout the whole journey to home.
x)
bla bla bla
Other than r/s issue, we could really chat.
was studying first aid for 1 hour plus
& doze off =x
and wow shiokh!
saw cockroached inside my toilet.
i killed it with hot water =x
hasnt been stepping in though its dead. =x
My enemies; cockroaches!
3rd August 2008 [sunday]
Woke up early for first aid training.
basically we had our practical test & theory test.
aww~ at least all the read up was worth it.
Theory Result: 29/30
Practical Result: Passed
and nw i had gotten my first aid certificate x)
wooohoo~
3 days of weekend spent just for this cert
OMG
_-_
bla bla~
jaren pick me up @ PS after my exam
head to his hse to slack.
and yeaa i doze off on the floor with him -_-
extremely exhausted.
been sleeping less than 5 hours everyday in this week.
and ohh we had packed food for our lunch + dinner =x
had my durian ice kachang again,
not as nice as my hse area =x
bt still, shiokh!
weather was extremely hot, till i kept sweating today
Had Mcspicy in bus for dinner =xfat liaoo laaa
did bandaging on his hand =x
he say it look like trotters
& so i decided to took it down
Alrite; i screamed @ my hse void desk when i saw
A COCKROACH!
4th August 2008 [Monday]
ended school early
head to clementi NTUC with desmond
Bought:
Oreo,
3 packets of "Another type of kinderbruno" [unsure its name]
calbury [mini packets]
Tim Tam
hahaa~
Last min plan to surprised jaren.
Oreo, "kinderbruno" & calbury was hidden inside his cupboard [separately]
till his notice it & find for the rest x)
Purpose: So that piggy wont go hungry =x
Share Tim Tam wif him.
its great! been a long time since i last ate it.
bla bla bla
we had chocolate battle x=
dirty each other face with chocolate
OMG -_-
aniwae,
his ah ma cooked my dinner
soo sweet of her
bla bla
and im learning to eat bittergourd
Jaren; FAV
-_-
COOL, i was really studying @ his hse!
5th August 2008 [Tuesday]
Elaha tutorial worksheet submission [10%]
None of us do it
thus we copy!!
Btw this week,
was busy with video presentation on depression
Me; female lead
Pei Yu; my boyfriend & doc
Yu shuang; Staff Nurse
Cai Yan & Fu Rong; Family members
Rei; counsellor
Sweet as medication
Knife to end my life
Aniwae, met up with daryl @ vivo.
haa~
usual place "starbuck"
a little catch up for one another
and a little shopping for him, ALWAYS THE CASE!
6th August 2008 [Wednesday]
my grandma had admitted to sgh since last weekend
A scan result had shown tat she has cancer.
Location cant be confirmed, its spreading.
Further investigation is needed but we refused
she's too old & weak to go for any procedure.
Even if procedure done, operation cant be performed,
so why bother?
Met up with jaren today,
had yong dao fu at sgh staff cafeteria.
went to visit my grandma in sgh.
yep he went with me.
haa~
i guess my mum was overfriendly -_-
keep talkin to him =x
and omg guess wad?
i recognise one of my patient who was previously attended by me
during my last yr dec posting.
haaaa~
precaution sia..
=x
cos i still rmb her diagnosis
=x
=x
=x
I guess being a nurse wasnt tat bad at all,
at least we recognise them,
& we do rmb some of the "highly precaution patient" WHENEVER
we happened to see them around somewhere. =x
well well, head to Vivo and slack
Bought Yoghurt Drink & sushi to eat
yum yum~
If only i could eat tat with him everyday =x
hw sweet!
aniwae he tried to proposed to me,
when i thot it was a casual remark.
So i ignored,
and say next time den say baaa.
He kneel down & ask again when i was still sittin on the floor.
So i ignored,
and said the same things.
but didnt Noe he was proposing
cos i thot his butt hurt tats why he kneel -_-
was i retarded? LOL
or was he not sincere enough? -_-
I think this pictures are cool =x
Photos taken in year 1
7th August 2008 [Thursday]
Basically, i felt so sorry for jaren.
he make a wasted trip to my school by cab
to deliver me umbrella.
by the time he reached,
i reached home
-_-
He thot i was waiting for him,
when i already told him not to come.
Its peak hour,
Its a raining day,
and Its far from his hse to my school
hello?
bt well, really appreciate his effort
-_-
cabfare $30 plus
omg
Next week is exam week.
Not gonna see my darling for a week.
i will miss you darlings..
i swear