Saturday, October 28, 2006
4th Month Anniversary
It's another special day for mie..yepyep it's a day that Mie and Calvin known each other for 4 months...wee...it's also the first time i seeing him in this special day..haha!! well..nothing special also..haha..we din celebrate etc.. [dun see the need also] yep!!Work up at 10.30am...yep time to wake bryan up..lol..but in the end no need..cos he sent mie an sms saying tat he wake up liao..haha...yep went back to sleep...and happily i sleep all the way to 11.50am...phew!! all thanks to geradine...if not becos of her sms telling mie tat she not going downstair to study...i think i will continue to sleep until minnie and calvin call mie...=x cos my tuition start at 1pm ma...LOL...although i wake up at 11.50...but i'm still late..cos i went to bath..den pack my bag...etc...din even eat my breakfast..din even drink water...den like that chiong out of my house..by then it's already 1pm...LOL..i was super late...but not to worry..i told minnie to have their lunch first...cos i will be darn late...
Was talking to doob on the phone [in the bus] talk to him until i reached my destination *MAC*...yep pushed open the door and i saw Kelvin Ng...my primary school friend...he saw mie also..so he waved to mie ma...soo i waved back lor..tat time i din see calvin and minnie...until when i waved to Kelvin...Calvin waved to mie..cos he thought i waving to him..OMG!! soo funny...and my reaction is like ??? in my heart i'm thinking..."ehh mie not waving to euu leh"...den i pretend tat waved is for Calvin...den i turn back to wave to Kelvin again...LOL..think of it it's soo funny...
Settle down and rest for a while..cos i'm tired..haha!! yep was rushing from interchange to mac...say far not far..say near not near...but also dunno why i was panting [a bit]...lol..neh!! can't blame...soo long din doo exercise liao..soo long din go GYM [ever since my prelim start]!! Soo long din play sports game liao [ever since the end of my prelim]..!! Dun care...after O level gonna doo more..Must Tone up..hehe!!
Yep..while resting..Calvin asked mie wanna eat fries?? hehe!! soo sweet of him sia...but i rejected..cos till now i still scared of Mac fries...yep rest for a while liao..den start tuition...YAY!! tuition until halfway kelvin walked pass mie den he suddenly asked mie wan to eat fries a not [cos he just bought]..LOL...and i'm like wad the hack?? didn't he see mie having tuition..lol...so sweet of him also...but too bad i rejected him as well..haha!! WHY WHY?? Why out of a sudden euu all asked mie wan to eat fries a not?? LOL.. why can't it be something else?? haha just kiddin...And Allamak!! Calvin thought he my brother sia...treat mie soo nice...=.=''
[sigh] Today is our last tuition le...*sobsob*..so sadd!! supose to have another 2 more lessons one..bt minnie say no time ma..so bo bian lor...haish...din prepared for this sia..cos i thought still can see him for another 2 more times..but hee!! not to worry...we will be meeting up after o level..wee!! can't wait..!! Then i gonna meet him up personally to pass him tuion fee...but then a bit she bu de...
After Today [ 3.00 pm ]
We are no longer,
Tutor and Tutist
From now onward,
We will be Friends.
Friends For Life
A friend who will be there for you
when you need them.
A friend who is willing
to lent his/her listening ears.
A friend who will
give special care and concern to.
After knowing today is our last lesson...Calvin asked a very funny question...
Calvin: Our last lesson le horr??
[Realised he was looking at mie..but i look away]
Minnie and I: Ya
Calvin: Will you all miss mie??
[Realised he was still looking at mie...but i look away]
Minnie and i: NO...[though i will miss him]
Calvin: HAIYA!! won't miss mie also must pretend ma as if you will ma..
Minnie and i: BoOoHoOO!! *SOBSOB* [Fake]
Calvin: OKay!! OKay!! shhhhh...
[Minnie and i started laughing...]
Then we realised that a lot of people was looking at us...yay!! Kelvin Ng also looking at us!! wah liew..we boohooo soo loud..MALU ourselves only!!
Then today i played with his hand..hehe!! He was solving one question..den i use my pencil "poke poke" his hand...den he over there try to catch my pencil though he was looking at the question...haha!! soo funny...soo long din have soo much fun with him liao..haish..think today is the last time i can play with him liao...
Then today minnie sitting opposite him ma...then she accidentally kick calvin's leg..hahah!! it was soo funny sia...i mean he was soo funny...
Calvin: OOuch!!
Calvin: Who kick mie arhx?
Minnie: Sorrie...i din noe ur leg was there
Calvin: Horr!! no need tutor liao..so like tat kick teacher away le la..
[We laughed]
Calvin: Heartpain
Mie: Minnie!! euu got bring your social studies book??
Minie: yep..why??
Mie: euu wan to go geradine's house and study??
Minnie: why leh??
Mie: cos i going ma..so see euu wanna go a not
Minnie: Okay lor!! =)
Calvin: i also wan to go there and study!! i got 1 paper next week..
Mie and minnie: =.=''
<=Memories=>
* 28 June 2006 [The day we knew each other]
* 11 June 2006 [first time listened to him playing his guitar]
* 21 June 2006 [Second time listened to him playing his guitar]
* 28 July 2006 [Third time listened to him playing his guitar]
* 29 July 2006 [Forth time listened to him playing his guitar]
* 12 June 2006 [Our first argument about math stuff]
* 12 June 2006 [First time tag mie in my tagboard ]
* 16 June 2006 [Our second serious argument about kept mie waitin]
* 10 June 2006 [Told him that i Miss talking to him]
* 15 June 2006 [Gave him a jar of Home Made Cookies]
* 10 June 2006 [Din talk for days cos he went for his camp]
* 31 July 2006 [ Move into hostel ]
* 31 July 2006 [Eat dinner at beauty world Bukit Timah]
* 1 Auguest 2006 [ Went JB and return home late]
* 2 August 2006 [ Went home sleep instead of hostel ]
* 5 August 2006 [Went JB smooth in smooth out]
* 5 August 2006 [Took photos for him]
* 5 August 2006 [First time see him wear sleeveless]
* 11 August 2006 [ Call mie darling for fun]
* 11 August 2006 [ Was force to call him darling for once ]
* 12 August 2006 [ Hugging ]
* 13 August 2006 [ Disappointed with him ]
* 1 September 2006 [ Wish him Happy Teacher Day]
* 2 September 2006 [ He opened the present i gave him]
* 4 September 2006 [Call mie early and talk for very long]
* 6 September 2006 [Wake mie up to study]
* 28 October 2006 [Play with his hand]
* 28 October 2006 [ No longer Tutor And Tutist]
After tuition..mie and minnie bought sundae ice cream again!! hehe...yay!! i daring sia...haven eat or drink anything..yet the first thing i eat is something cold..LOL...luckily my stomach never hurt..phew~ Then also bought apple pie...but not nice one!! last time nicer..dun wanna buy apple pie from there le...Then on the way to the interchange..we pass by a shop selling bread...went in see see...den bought 2 bread...yep cos i haven eat my lunch ma..so bought 2 bread...ehh..tat time i haven eat the apple pie yet...duno why also..i'm soo in love with bread..cos i think bread taste very nice...hhee!! every morning eat bread also not sian one..just a simple bread with peanut butter...bread with butter or bread with cheese will do..*weird* =x been eating bread since young..and now i still love to eat bread...Sound like i no money to buy other food like tat..ahaha!!
Took bus 273 to geradine's house...was laughing all the way to there...lol..all thanks to the messenger tat geradine and minnie sent each other..it was soo darn funny...laugh until i peng sia...minnie was like saying wad..."aiya..later jia en go ur house..den shower you with plenty of love..den your stomach won't hurt liao"..LOL...den i say "YAY!! I will shower her with lots and lots of love...the moment i go her room..i will push her to her bed *pause for a few second* den i continue...den i will go close to her...*pause for a few second*...den cover her with blanket...den ask her study there"...LOL...and this minnie happily think tat i wana do tat type of thing with her -.-''..okie la..the reason why i pause for a few second is to let her think wad i gonna do next...purposely make her think yy...den let her peng when i tell her the next line..LOL
Went her house study..hmm this time round i can say i quite slack..cos i was using her computer [searching for nice songs, using her internet to see people's blog]..dunno la...study ss study i sian liao..soo go explore her com lor..haha...den finished exploring her computer..mie and minnie turned our head back..and saw this geradine slacking on the bed...she was sleeping instead of studying!! Took a few pictures of her..it was darn funny!!
27th October 2006
Went to darling's house to study social studies...yep!! we very hard working kie...every day also study haha...yep was talking to bryan and doobie while studying...not to worry...for a while only...=)
Adrian call mie in the afternoon..alamak!! this guy arhx..duno wad's the problem with him sia...call mie just to ask for help..soo i answer his call..and guess wad help he asked from mie?? he asked mie to teach him how to fold star with straws...-.-'' cos in the past i taught him ma...YAY!! TAT TIME I teach him he wan to learn dun wan to learn like tat..now keep asking mie to teach him...somemore how am i going to teach him through the phone?? Even darling also say he sot one..somemore star made by straw is soo hard to fold and is soo hard to teach on the phone...somemore i soo long din fold liao..suddenly wan mie to teach him..how am i going to do it man?? the last time i fold was the day i taught him how to fold it..after tat day i din even fold it...
Then he say after i remember how to fold liao..den call him and teach him..and i'm like WEI!! i'm studying leh!! euu wan mie figure out this stupid thing for euu?? den he hang up...-.-'' But the funniest thing is..after he hung up..i remember how to do liao...=x bt i didn't call him back..cos i duno how to teach him through the phone...!! well..i haf to admit tat i was thinking abt the past while folding the star...i can remember clearly that i was lying on hiis bed teaching him how to fold the star *beside him* it was a blue star...cos the straw is blue in colour...got green colour also...hmm..it didn't really upset mie..cos it was all in the past...think soo much also no use rite??
Today geradine let mie try mother in law cooking...soup!! the soup soo nice to drink sia..i love it...pei fu pei fu!! no wonder geradine love to drink it..haha!! dun care wo yao tou shi!! i wanna learn!! haha...hmm..talk about soup...i'm missing her soup sia..wanna drink again =D geradine!! must tell ur mama abt it k?? lol..tell her i say her soup very nice to drink..wahah!!
yep!! it's another nite that i talked to *him* for hours..about 3 hours like tat [while reading through social studies]...had a heart to heart talk...hehe!! told him everything...phew!! feel soo much better and soo much comfortable now...I told *him* everything...everything about what i think...what i feel...what i noe...and about the dream that i dreamt...duno why i just couldn't hide thing from *him*..past 2 days i had been feeling bad and guilty about it...about not telling him anything about it...but now..i'm a happy girl again...happy to say tat i'm back to myself again!! weee...
*Him* the one who make mie can't lie
*Him* the one who make mie can't hide thing away from him
Thursday, October 26, 2006
*Him* again
Set my alarm clock at 7am...Wake up soo early just to wake bryan up...See i soo nice!! dun say i treat nick and doob better than euu horr...yep then went back to sleep after that..*tired sia*..sleep all the way to 10 plus...den dreamt of something weird again...it's *him* again...But is a stupid dream..haha!! dun even noe what is that?? Was dreaming that i reading the message that he sent mie...and the message is like soo messy...The first thing i do when i wake up is...listen music!! haha! in love with music...yep listened to songs from "glass shoe"...haish...mood kana affected again...sitting on the bed and stared at the phone for very long...My mind were full of questions again...
What the hack do i want??
What am i thinking??
What am i doing??
What am i worrying??
Result: No answer
Do i understand myself??
Ans: I dun think i understand myself
Do i noe what i wan in this world??
Ans: Not sure...i had been deceiving myself again and again
Haish...sad sia..mie myself dun even noe wad i wan..mie myself dun even understand myself..i can understand people soo well..but why can't i understand myself?? If i dun..who can?? No one...Not even Him
Went to study social studies after that...ZzZ...boring subject..but do i haf a choice?? i dun...is a boring subject...soo many things to learn...soo many things to memorise... write until my hand also pain sia...wrote a lot kie
Went down to meet my darling...cos we gonna study together...but before that we went to buy drinks first... yep meet her at NTUC to buy drinks "Peel fresh orange juice"...packet of skittles and a packet plum =x OMG!! i didn't realised that whatever i bought are all sour..=x Heh!! sound like we are pregnant..neh!! we are not...
Last Night, i teared for *him* again
Was thinking about the dream that i dreamt
Was thinking about *him* who i knew not long
Was thinking about what he said to mie
I wish i could control my mind
But i couldn't
Cos i'm a failure
Been questioning myself again
Hoping to find an answer this time
But no matter how i tried
I couldn't get any answer
I'm a useless gurl
Yesterday, i was super distracted with all these
I did a lot of mistakes
A mistake that no one will believe it
But i dun care
Eg: Instead of using cold water,
I used hot water to wash my feet
Not to worry
My feet is still surviving
[Good for blood circulation]
I wasn't thinking of *him*
But the dream that i dreamt
Now, what does this show mie again?
He seemed to mean a lot to mie now
Slightly more than last time
I will always look forward for his call and sms
Whenever my phone ring
I hope it was *him*
Whenever i received an sms
I hope it was *him*
A disappointment will be given
If it wasn't *him*
*Him Him Him and Him*
My Mind is just full of *Him*
Now, what does this tell mie again?
Sometime, i wish to know about all these
I wish i can find an answer for all these
But somehow, i choose to escape
I wish to know, but i dare not face it
Friends always asked mie to move on with my life
But i can't...
I think i can [i guess]
But somehow i dun wish to
Dun ask mie why
Cos i dun
Loving Him
I'm Loving Him
This saturday is our 4th months anniversary
It's a special day to mie
Not we had been together
But we had known each other for four months
Time flies...
["Him"] Been my tutor for 4 months
["Him"] Been my friend for 4 months
[Mie] Loving him for 3 months
*Wondering how long can this last*
Duno what happened to "Him"
Called "him" din answer
Missed call "him" din call back
Have no idea what happened to us
Feeling Confused
Feeling Sad
Feeling Disappointed
Feeling Lonely
Was thinking about the dream that i dreamt
Was thinking about *him* who i knew not long
Was thinking about what he said to mie
I wish i could control my mind
But i couldn't
Cos i'm a failure
Been questioning myself again
Hoping to find an answer this time
But no matter how i tried
I couldn't get any answer
I'm a useless gurl
Yesterday, i was super distracted with all these
I did a lot of mistakes
A mistake that no one will believe it
But i dun care
Eg: Instead of using cold water,
I used hot water to wash my feet
Not to worry
My feet is still surviving
[Good for blood circulation]
I wasn't thinking of *him*
But the dream that i dreamt
Now, what does this show mie again?
He seemed to mean a lot to mie now
Slightly more than last time
I will always look forward for his call and sms
Whenever my phone ring
I hope it was *him*
Whenever i received an sms
I hope it was *him*
A disappointment will be given
If it wasn't *him*
*Him Him Him and Him*
My Mind is just full of *Him*
Now, what does this tell mie again?
Sometime, i wish to know about all these
I wish i can find an answer for all these
But somehow, i choose to escape
I wish to know, but i dare not face it
Friends always asked mie to move on with my life
But i can't...
I think i can [i guess]
But somehow i dun wish to
Dun ask mie why
Cos i dun
Loving Him
I'm Loving Him
This saturday is our 4th months anniversary
It's a special day to mie
Not we had been together
But we had known each other for four months
Time flies...
["Him"] Been my tutor for 4 months
["Him"] Been my friend for 4 months
[Mie] Loving him for 3 months
*Wondering how long can this last*
Duno what happened to "Him"
Called "him" din answer
Missed call "him" din call back
Have no idea what happened to us
Feeling Confused
Feeling Sad
Feeling Disappointed
Feeling Lonely
To: Jessica
Nu er...i read ur blog...why didn't euu call mie last nite?? As in why didn't euu call mie when euu crying and needed someone to be there for euu?? I wasn't sleeping during that time..cos i was crying also..=x you should have call mie..den we will cry together...den we can heart to heart talk...den i can comfort euu.. and who knows euu can help mie sort out my feeling ma...
Well..i understand why euu didn't call mie..cos euu are talking to ur friend..and also becos euu feel that i already got my own problem..tat's why euu dun wanna disturb mie with ur problem...but silly gurl..i told euu before that i will put aside all my problems and my stuff for the time being just to be with euu...need not worry for mama okie?? Marmie will be fine after some time..i guess...
Nu er...miss euu soo much..haish...gonna miss euu badly also..cos the next time we will be seeing each other is on next wednesday...hope i can still be able to see ur happy side...=) Promise mama to be happie okie? anything must call mie k..cos euu promise mie le...i still got that sms euu sent to mie...soo dun say euu didn't...
Aniwae dun forget our appointment tomorrow nite...2am!! No matter wad..i wan euu to call mie and tell mie all ur problems yea? Dun tell mie euu are feeling sad etc...cos it's a nite for us to talk on the phone...=)
To: Geradine
Wah!! siao liao..i finished the orange juice liao..haha!! OMG!! can't belived that i can finished up 1 litre of orange juice within one afternoon..LOL!! But it's nice la..hahaha!! Hey a reply for ur previous message in ur blog...yep i can feel that we are much more closer liao...yep!! this time not only euu and mie..but together with jessica!! whooHooO!! Good rite? Hope our relationship will last forever...will be that close forever..much closer than now...close until no one will be able to break us up..close until no one will be able to replace our position *cheers*
Nu er...i read ur blog...why didn't euu call mie last nite?? As in why didn't euu call mie when euu crying and needed someone to be there for euu?? I wasn't sleeping during that time..cos i was crying also..=x you should have call mie..den we will cry together...den we can heart to heart talk...den i can comfort euu.. and who knows euu can help mie sort out my feeling ma...
Well..i understand why euu didn't call mie..cos euu are talking to ur friend..and also becos euu feel that i already got my own problem..tat's why euu dun wanna disturb mie with ur problem...but silly gurl..i told euu before that i will put aside all my problems and my stuff for the time being just to be with euu...need not worry for mama okie?? Marmie will be fine after some time..i guess...
Nu er...miss euu soo much..haish...gonna miss euu badly also..cos the next time we will be seeing each other is on next wednesday...hope i can still be able to see ur happy side...=) Promise mama to be happie okie? anything must call mie k..cos euu promise mie le...i still got that sms euu sent to mie...soo dun say euu didn't...
Aniwae dun forget our appointment tomorrow nite...2am!! No matter wad..i wan euu to call mie and tell mie all ur problems yea? Dun tell mie euu are feeling sad etc...cos it's a nite for us to talk on the phone...=)
To: Geradine
Wah!! siao liao..i finished the orange juice liao..haha!! OMG!! can't belived that i can finished up 1 litre of orange juice within one afternoon..LOL!! But it's nice la..hahaha!! Hey a reply for ur previous message in ur blog...yep i can feel that we are much more closer liao...yep!! this time not only euu and mie..but together with jessica!! whooHooO!! Good rite? Hope our relationship will last forever...will be that close forever..much closer than now...close until no one will be able to break us up..close until no one will be able to replace our position *cheers*
Aniwae through all the problems we faced...we will be able to realised something...we will be able to noe who are our "true friend" and who are not...true friend will always be there for you..consoling euu...and be ur listening ear...friend who call themself a true friend yet they are doing nothing about it...this is call "fake friend" not true friend. Somehow i think i shuold thank to my problems..cos these problems enable mie to see who are actually my true friend...Glad to say that euu are one of them..Thanks
To: Jessica, Geradine, Bryan, Nick
Thanks for everything...But also sorrie about something...i didn't do what i said..i said i will control myself..but i didn't manage too..i just couldn't stop myself from doing that...cos i miss *him*..i hope euu people won't be angry with mie..won't be disappointed with mie...Hope things will be better after today...i believed this sentence "Time will help to heal"... i promise euu people that for the time being i won't think of that dream..enough is enough... it's time for mie to forcus on my o level...I won't think too much yea? Once again Sorry...
To: Doobie
Remember last nite euu told mie that why can't things go smoothly instead of having problems here and there?? Why are life full of problems and troubles?? I actually think of it after we hang up the phone...well...euu see arhx..if euu can get that type of life that euu wan..dun euu think is meaningless?? Life that is full of challenging is nicer than life that can be easily obtain...Cos euu will find it bored to live in tis world that euu can achieve anything that euu wan. If things always go on soo smoothly..do euu think there will be a word call "cherish and treasure" ?? Nope there won't be any word that is soo meaningful. Only when someone met with problems and troubles...den they will do some reflection...den they will learn their lesson...and won't take things for granted...erm..hope euu are happy about my answer...
Aniwae euu also dun anyhow think okie?? Stop guessing who the "him" referring to liao..hahah!! cos "high hope" = "great disappointment" See i soo good!! euu ask mie type something for euu..den i go type one for euu..dun say i ill treat euu horr!!
Thanks for everything...But also sorrie about something...i didn't do what i said..i said i will control myself..but i didn't manage too..i just couldn't stop myself from doing that...cos i miss *him*..i hope euu people won't be angry with mie..won't be disappointed with mie...Hope things will be better after today...i believed this sentence "Time will help to heal"... i promise euu people that for the time being i won't think of that dream..enough is enough... it's time for mie to forcus on my o level...I won't think too much yea? Once again Sorry...
To: Doobie
Remember last nite euu told mie that why can't things go smoothly instead of having problems here and there?? Why are life full of problems and troubles?? I actually think of it after we hang up the phone...well...euu see arhx..if euu can get that type of life that euu wan..dun euu think is meaningless?? Life that is full of challenging is nicer than life that can be easily obtain...Cos euu will find it bored to live in tis world that euu can achieve anything that euu wan. If things always go on soo smoothly..do euu think there will be a word call "cherish and treasure" ?? Nope there won't be any word that is soo meaningful. Only when someone met with problems and troubles...den they will do some reflection...den they will learn their lesson...and won't take things for granted...erm..hope euu are happy about my answer...
Aniwae euu also dun anyhow think okie?? Stop guessing who the "him" referring to liao..hahah!! cos "high hope" = "great disappointment" See i soo good!! euu ask mie type something for euu..den i go type one for euu..dun say i ill treat euu horr!!
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
Missing him
The time now is 12.05pm...yep must be wondering how come i reached home soo early yea?? haa!! mie playing truant =x well..not onli mie la...is the whole class...cos no point staying also..most of us go school just for chemistry lesson..tat's why after chemistry lesson all zhao!!...cos lesson after chemistry is account den recess den PC den math den social studies...account teacher not conducting any lesson...den PC is a waste time period...ask we all wear heel den walk up the stage..."practice for our graduation day"...den social studies teacher also never go school...den math lesson...haish...forgotten to bring the questions tat i wanna ask her...soo even if i attend math lesson also no use...yep will ask him insteadAniwae tomorrow i not going to school...cos christmas day celebration ma...halfday..so no point going school and waste time..plus performance confirm very boring one.."yep last year...last day of school"...i should go rite?? but haish..no one going sia..can't possibly ask mie to go alone with jessica rite? -.-''
Took two photos of my laogong today..haish..misses him soo much...today is my last time seeing him le...LAOGONG!! NI YAO BAO ZHONG! today see euu like soo sian sian...like sick like tat...haish...soo heartbroken sia..do euu noe when euu meow one time my heart crack a bit...why?? why euu meow until soo soft?? are euu sick?? or u can sense tat euu won't be able to see mie again..tat's why euu sad?? haish...not i'm being too sensitive...even jermaine also feel tat laogong like very sick like that
Jermaine: Why ur laogong like very sick?
Mie: He suffering from Love Sick
Jermaine: You go and die la
Mie: Really!! Cos he noe i'm leaving le...soo he miss mie ma
Jermaine: You dun come soo thick skin
Mie: You never see he suddenly like soo close to mie meh? Usually also not like that...
Jermaine: hmm...make sense..but euu dun anyhow think
Mie: haish...last time seeing laogong le..gonna miss him badly >.<
Mie: Why!! Why!! why are euu [laogong] always like that? When i miss euu so much...euu dun seem to be close to mie..sometime ask euu come down also dun wan to come down...when i dun miss euu that much..euu soo close to mie...You noe euu only made mie sad only...and euu made mie miss euu even more? You like that he also like that...wad the hack euu guys wan?
OMG!! i'm feeling very terrible!! i misses *him* a lot...i hope i can control my emotion..but i can't...the dream had a great impact on mie...i just couldn't forget about that dream..and i can't stop thinking about the dream..Been questioning myself with lots of questions..."Why this and why that"? Been wondering why he suddenly treat mie soo cold...it's soo not *him*
You will never believed that i cried last nite...yay!! on the phone with mama somemore...i told mama everything...i told mama how i feel...i told mama about my thinking...i can't believed that i cried just because i misses euu slightly more than before...why?? why is it like tat?? why must things turned out to be this way??
You know i still do Miss You,
you know it long ago.
you read my blog entries [hardly],
But thanks for keeping silent
Do you noe last night i cried just because of you??
And i can't believed that!
i couldn't control.
i couldn't stop thinking of you.
i wish i'm able to control my mind
I wish i can stop thinking of you
I wish i can forget about that dream
i wish i could stop.
Reallie
Missing You
I'm Missing You
I have no idea why i miss you soo much out of a sudden
Even if i noe..i will not tell euu
Cos you dun deserve to noe
And i wanna hide it from you
Thinking Of You
I'm Thinking Of You
I just couldn't stop thinking of you
I think of you when i wake up
I think of you when i go sleep
I think of you during recess
I think of you when im going home
I think of you when im doing my self study
I have no idea why i keep thinking of you non stop
Even if i do
I will keep it to myself
No matter what conclusion i get,
I will not let euu noe anything about it
I dun see the point
It's useless even if i tell you
If wad my friends said are true,
I gonna stop it from happening
There are lots of reasons for it
But i won't let euu noe a single thing
To: geradine and Jessica
So now euu noe what the dream was exactly about...euu noe how i feel..you noe wad i'm thinking..euu noe why i'm doing this..and euu noe why i'm soo confused about it...Now you noe everything about it...keep it a secret between the threee of us yea? Dun tell anyone about it...Dun wan *him* to noe about it...cos if he noe...the things that he gonna explain to mie will be hurting..i dun wan to get hurt..i dun wan to listen..and i dun wan to noe anything about the dream..euu can say i'm escaping..bt i dun care...I hate to escaping...it won't work...it won't help mie at all...but For this issue i choose to escape cos if i were to face the reality...i will only end up hurting myself again and again [i guess??]...*hug hug*
To: Nick and Bryan
Thanks for your listening ears...Love you lots...Especially my mama... sunshine wasn't there...but thanks [mama] for being there for mie when i needed someone like you..thanks for listening to my problems..hope i didn't scared the hell of euu when i told euu i cried...i will try my best to be happy again...try my best to stop thinking about the dream and *him*...but wad i can say is it's difficult to do soo..cos i simply miss him soo much...>.<'' argh!!
Monday, October 23, 2006
Weird Dream
Well..the main purpose for coming online is to see what jessica wrote for mie in her blog...see i soo nice!! ask mie come den i come..haha!! second reason for coming online is to blog about what happened to mie and jessica [in school]..thirdly this is the puzzle for geradine: AMAGDGND, BAHSBDTLHD Geradine have euu figure out the riddle?? it's super lame one...XD...think euu noe liao confirm box mie one..hehe!! if euu have guess correctly..den good for euu..if it's wrong...too bad!!As usual went to canteen with jessica cos she wanna go buy orange juice...yep followed her down just becos of her orange juice sia...hmm..duno why today dun feel like drinking orange juice..so dun wnana buy..but this jessica keep asking mie to buy...so i guai guai lor..go buy one packet for myself..see i soo good to euu!! Then also bought a packet of seaweed [original flabour]...yep went up to class and eat...wanna study while eating..but this jessica wanna play her childhood game "horsehorse" LOL!! soo she sat on my leg again...yep this time round i feed her seaweeds...lol!! Really like mother and dotter sia...then she feed me orange juice..haha!! i feel weird..lolx!! yay!! thanks to my friend...say we soo lovey dovey -.-''
To: Jessica
I just read ur blog...sa gua...no need to feel bad about it...i'm ur marmie!! it's my responsibilities for showing care and concern for euu rite?? hehee!! somemore dotter sad ma..soo must be there for euu ma..where got marmie soo heng xin abandon dotter one side one rite?? Aniwae euu dun have to feel bad about it...cos when i got problem...i din tell euu anything about it ma...yes i did..but not everything...just a brief one...
Reasons for not telling euu are...i always thought that euu won't understand how i feel etc...cos euu haven been in a long relationship before [erm..not insulting euu]...euu did not exactly go through what i had been through these few years...so i always thought that euu won't understand..tat's why i didn't tell euu much about it...tat's why i choose to tell geradine about it..at least she noe how i feel...yep she had been in a relationship before..soo she will be more understanding...soo nu er please dun blame urself kie?? dun feel bad about it yea? if euu feel bad about it..marmie will be sad also..and yep i will feel even more bad..
euu noe why? cos i'm the main causes for all these...first i shouldn't judge euu and geradine about who can understand mie [about relationship]...secondly i should have tell euu about it cos euu are my dotter cos euu got the right to noe all these...thirdly i should have take action to show euu tat i care for euu..instead of concerning euu in my heart...and becos of that euu feel that no one care for euu etc... but it's okies...is already in the past liao..now i will tell euu all my problem yea?? i will tell euu about wad i dreamt today on friday nite..our next appointment will be on friday nite 2am kie??
To be honest...i do feel sad and feel bad when reading ur blog..but it's okay!! at least i'm glad...hmm..glad about euu confessing ur feeling to mie...glad tat euu told mie ur problems...glad that euu treat mie nicer and glad tat euu noe i care for euu =) !! Think about all these points i dun feel sad at all..soo not to worry yea?? and alamak!! only liddat ma...why euu scared i will scold euu sia?? lolx..euu scared the hell of mie sia..say until as if euu did something euu shouldn't be doing...pheew!! luckily is not something bad...*hug* Wo zhen de shi bei ni xia huai le...
And who say euu dun deserve to be my dotter ehh?? hmm..being my dotter doesn't mean must be my listening ear and always be there for mie ma...just wanna tell euu tat euu DESERVE to be my dotter...dun argue anymore kies?? There are 5 reasons why euu deserved to be my dotter:
* You brighten up my day
* You never fail to make mie laugh
* You are a great friend to mie
* You did not forget this friend of urs
* And becos you are JESSICA
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Was listening to music after i bath finished...yep sad music again...music from "sad love story" [korean drama series]..it was darn sad...duno why...suddenly think of "him" again...yep didn't think of him for very long liao..reasons are i'm trying to move on though i still love him...and i'm too busy with my O level preparation ma..tat's why didn't think of him that much..started to miss "him" lots...was thinking about the part when we both hug...yep did cried abit...and fallen asleep on my brother bed -.-''
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Suddenly *he* message mie...yep!! i get up just to read *his* messages...he told mie something...hmm..something tat i feel sad and disappointed...den i went back to sleep..haish..den i dreamt abt *him*...a dream tat is related about the messenges he sent mie..it's not a sweet dream..neither is it a night mare...but i can say tat i dun like the dream..cos the dream like wanna tell mie about something...something about what i feel toward *him*...in the dream..i was very sad very disappointed and a bit angry about *him* leaving. I can't really remember what exactly the dream was about. what i noe is when i wake up...i feel terrible...i'm super confused...super sad and super worried when i wake up...cos i got the feeling tat the dream is trying to tell mie about something..but i just couldn't figure out what is it...was sitting on the bed and reflect about the dream...trying hard to recall everything in the dream..yep managed to came out with something. But i duno is it right or wrong.Yep went to call my mama [nick] immediately..told him everything about it...it's a secret between nick and mie...and yep i gonna tell jess about it on friday nite..it's a secret between the three of us...
Missing You
I Missing You
AMAGDGND, BAHSBDTLHD
Answer: "Ah Ma Ask Grand Dotter Go And Die, But Ah Ma Hen She Bu De To Let Her Die"
WhOo!! Can't wait for O level to end sia...lots of things will be going on after my o level...wil be darn busy..ahaha!! but no matter how busy i am..i will spare sometime for piano lesson..whoohoo!! Gonna be real busy man!! Lots of shopping and outing going on after O level...
My Shedule After My Paper on 20 Nov 2006:
20 November 2006
- Morning take photos in school
- Afternoon go esplanade see scenery
- Gonna take lots of photos with Jessica and Geradine
- Shop in marina square
- Have dinner together
22 November 2006
- Go shop for handbag and accessories for graduation day
24 November 2006
- Morning go back school for graduation day
- After that goin Vivo City with bryan, doobie and nick mama
- At night going to have buffet with my classmates at (sakura)
25 November 2006
- Going out with Junping mei mei
27 to 29 November 2006
- Might be having charlet with classmates during this period
30 November to 2 December 2006
- Nee Ann Red Camp