Sad side of mie

Had my english paper ON wednesday...was talking to sunshine on my way to school...hahah!! he calm me down...=) cos i was super nervous..and i was affected by my past 2 days performance...English paper was alright to mie...hmm..did narrative "write about ur late arrival for an activities or an event that causes a serious problem". Then got report...hahah!! my report is darn long sia..took mie about 50 minutes to write an report =x soo my composition was rushing like duno what..but phew!! managed to finish it in time..wee!! after 15 minutes break...we took paper 2...hmm...interesting story..at least it din make mie yawn...ahahah!! able to give 100% forcus...lol!! Wasn't thinking about my social studies...;)

Pile of Eng sample and notes to read up

Other's people composition >.<

Read until my eyes blur

On thursday, wake up at 7.15am although my geography paper start at 2pm...yep wanna wake up early to study and revise back...wanna score super well for my geo..only that then i might pass my humanities. Initially wanna wake up at 5am one...in the end can't get out of my bed...super tired sia...can feel that my battery inside mie went flat liao...plus tuesday nite i really break down...Honestly speaking tat nite is my first time breaking down during my exam period...well..geography wasn't as hard as prelim...especially map reading...hahha!! did industry and environmental degradation...hmm...finished my paper in time...but i would like to have extra 5 mins to check my work and see got enough points a not...

all thanks to BAOWEI!! She was sitting beside mie..and every single thing she did really distract mie man!! Starting on the paper..she drop her question paper and her map etc...den she pick up some of them den placce on her table...den continue picking the rest...den everything drop again -.-'' den after she picked up everything she rearrange her question paper...and it's soo distracting!! Soo noisy lor!! den use calculator also soo noisy..wah piang!! 5 minutes before our paper end..she drop her questions and answer papers on the floor again...wah!! i really wanna struggle her man!!

Didn't know my leg soo long. Don't think dirty

Study for geography

Today had my math paper...weee...soo happy..it wasn't as difficult as i think...i was enjoying doing my math paper..haha!! though 3/4 through i got headache...cos i too forcus liao...i scared careless mistake ma...soo i calculate twice and check my working twice before i proceed...got 3 questions i'm not confident in...think i can pass my paper 2 quite well la..unless i use wrong step then i still thought i correct la..tat one i got nothing to say...but aniwae..my math paper 1 will pull my mark down also..haish...ooo..aniwae this is my first time being able to complete my math paper 2 on time...=)

Yep...was stuck in school until 6pm...cos paper end at 5pm ma..den after tat it was raining cat and dogs...soo decided to wait for the rain to stop though i got umbrella with mie =) On my way home..darling...told mie that baowei was sitting beside her today...den she kana distracted cos of her...ya!! once again she drop her paper again..and she use her calculator darn noisy lor..wah liew!! hope i kana same class room with her for my account paper man!! account paper i need to give full attention!!

hehehee!!! tomorrow i meeting calvin!! 2 weeks din see him liao...beginning to miss him man...yay!! he coming up to my house tomorrow..lol!! cos he wanna collect tuition fee from mie ma...then after that we going down for lunch...=D hmm...tomorrow will be the first time he coming to my house...Also it's also our first time going for lunch together [just the two of us]

"I'll always be there for my dearest marmie, no matter what. When you are feeling sad, i'll be the first to lend euu my shoulders. When you're happy, i'll be the first to share the joy with you. No matter what circumstances, i hope you'll remember that there's ME who exist in your world. i'll never forsake my marmie." - From Jessica [05/11/06 08:57pm]

"Friends are special treasures of the heart. They make you feel needed and secured. It is often not said but felt. Love you marmie!" (: - From Jessica [05/11/06 01:45pm]

"Marmie, i'm sorry. actually just now i was playing with you only. You cannot dun wan mie ok? i only want you to be my marmie. Sorry just now. i didn't mean to do it :(" - From Jessica [05/11/06 04:19Am]

"Yes, and remember to cut our nails. Where got touching?Actually tell you the truth, u really like my real marmie. If only i have a mother like you. I'll be soo good. I try not to do ba..." -From Jessica [18/10/06 02:35pm]

"Marmie very good and nice.lol.aniwae thanks for always being here with mie. though i never tell u my troubles last time, but now will tell you liao..apart form my jie jie" - From Jessica [18/10/06 02:26pm]

To: Geradine darling
Darling...thanks for being there for mie also...sorrie for keeping it from euu..cos i noe it's useless...as in this kind of thing is on mie...i have to face it and adjust my feeling...no one can help mie no matter how hard euu guys try to cheer mie up...etc...den dun wan to add on to ur burden ma since euu are busy with ur revision and all these...i must be considerate...=D dun blame mie yea?? other social problems i will tell you but this type no point saying also...i can only say it in my blog...at least euu can noe it through there..ahaha!!

To: Jessilyn Jie
wanna call euu for a talk..but i didn't...it was quite late...soo i decided to sms euu instead...Sent euu an sms on tat day [tuesday].. was looking forward for ur reply...unfortunately euu were asleep...haha!! i have no idea why i sent tat sms to euu telling mie abt my exam etc...wad i noe is tat i was super sad and disppointed with myself..even when i type tat sms to euu..i was crying...yay!! on the phone with bryan...but thanks god he din heard mie...=x Well...becos of my social studies i lost my focus on the other subjects..i did some mistakes in chemistry... i have no confident in my other subjects..and i have no mood to study for other papers...furthermore my next paper is english [wednesday]...i dun even have the mood to study...like wad i said..i'm stress i'm tired i'm disappointed...

The next morning i received ur sms...i was darn happy...ur sms was rather convincing..."it's ok dear...the most important thing is you have tried ur best...nothing in life is smooth n easy..each failure will make you become stronger...Jia you, left 2 weeks only...remember the most important thing is have you tried your best? If the answer is yes...be it...dun stress out by the unknown result...love you sis...i give you my support...give mie a ring if euu need someone to talk to...will try my best to be there for you..good luck sweetheart...buddha bless u..."

After reading tat i was no longer that sad anymore although i teared abit when i read ur sms...i duno why...euu are just someone important in my life...someone tat i can confide my problems to...but somehow i refuse to tell euu...cos i dun wanna disturb euu ma...euu tis busy woman..hahaha!! well i'm glad to noe euu through my real brother...hehee!! and i'm glad tat euu gonna be my piano teacher soon!! weee...aniwae thanks a lot...Jie "I Love You...forever and ever..."

To: Jason Kor [real]
Kor kor...thanks euu soo much...ehh i was shocked tat euu noe about all these..yay!! jessily jie told euu everything..haha!! but it's ok..i won't blame her...cos when i sent her tat sms about how i feel and what i'm facing..i already predicted tat she will inform euu about all these...=) aniwae ya euu are right...things might not be as bad as i think...like what jessilyn jie said "dun let an unknown result to affect mie"..i take it..and i'm no longer as sad and as moody as tat day..Not to worry for mie yea?? i will not let my enermy "social studies" to affect mie...;) You mei mei become stronger liao..heehee!!

To: Sunshine
Thanks euu!! *hughug*...euu deserved to be called a sunshine...euu never failed to make mie laugh..euu never failed to make mie happy...and the most importantly is that euu are the only one who can brighten up my days...On tuesday...i was feeling terrible..i'm super sad super disappointed...no mood to study den the whole day i din laugh i din smile..until i received an sms...tat sms was super cute and meaningful...only then i started laughing and smiling to myself...

Though i was quite disappointed that euu couldn't call mie tat nite cos euu are helping ur friend to do something...but it's alrite...at least euu call mie the other day...early in the morning..when i'm on my way to meet darling...ur call brighten up my days...the things tat euu said really cheer mie up...the things euu said had lots of effect on mie...After talking to euu and after my english paper...i'm super high and super happy...no longer as sad and moody as the previous day...Just wanna let euu noe tat ur prescence in my life is important to mie...YOu are just someone special...someone that i wanna be with when i'm down...ehh..euu dun get the wrong meaning yea? [dun say no wonder i'm capricorn!! cos i dun wan people to mistaken mie]...Aniwae thanks a lot..

I'M TIRED
I'M REALLY TIRED
I DIN SLEEP WELL EVERY NITE
WANNA STAY AWAY FROM BOOKS NOW
BUT I CAN'T
I CAN'T GIVE UP NOW...
14 MORE DAYS TO GO...

I wanna score well
I wanna score as well as my cousin
Ya!! i'm competing with her
A cousin from special stream
I noe i'm not up to standard
She got the ability to scold less than 10 pts
I know i can't
But what i request is to get 12 points
Just 12 points...
Not having a big difference in our points
Able to enter the course i want
Able to go poly
Able to please my family members

God, i just hope euu will be by my side
Helping mie to stay calm and relax
Not having soo much troubles
Knowing what i'm learning
Bless mie please

For math..it's quite okay...think i can just pass...cos the questions were rather tricky...>.<"' And it's harder than last year old o level and this year june paper...Nah!! gonna admit tat my school paper was easier than o level paper..-.-'' hopefully paper 2 are much more easier...and hopefully my paper 2 can pull my marks up...*pray*

Today i asked geradine to tell mie wad adrian said to her..and she showed mie a sms sent by him...this is what he said:

Sigh she say i always call at wrong time. Say not free have to study for exam. I wanted to meet her she say not possible until o level finished. Say is true not excuse. Yesterday she met a guy. Everyday late night she on the phone with someone. If is i call sure wrong time. Someone else sure correct time. If is me sure not free. Someone else sure free...

What the hack is he up to this time?? telling my darling all these...trying to break us up?? trying to tell people what type of person i am?? how i treat him etc...?? wad actually is he up to?? telling my friend all these for wad?? as in what he wan her to do?? Just let mie do what i want...he got no right to interfere into my personal life now..yay!! i admit...i admit tat i dun stay up till soo late in the past..i admit i dun talk to people till that long in the past...but now i can..what he wan mie to do?? i was surprised that i can talk for long hours..i can stay up til late nite...

Sorry!! i won't get affected by all this again...nasty words to describe mie i already heard before liao...i learnt it..i take it..and i'm strong!! i'm not going to shed a single tear cos of this ever again..i dun care who will be the next person who say i'm a bitch i'm a slut i'm a flirt i'm a prostitute or wadever nasty words that euu people can think of...go ahead and say it..it won't affect mie anymore..I dun care what denise jie and what jkl kor gonna think of mie this time...most probably they gonna think that i changed and lalala etc...go ahead and think what euu all wanna think...i just hope that euu people will be more understanding cos there are certains things euu won't noe...and euu won't understand why i will become like that...yay!! i admit i have changed..i changed alot...i no longer those super guai type..im not going to do what people say...i'm gonna be myself..i'm gonna defend for myself...i'm not going to be a dog even if im in a new relationship...and i won't do things that i dun like..

And what the hack?? Since when i met a guy yesterday?? I was staying at home the whole day studying and busying with my social studies..and he come accused that i met a guy..?? YAY!! I MET GUYS!! MY DAD MY BROTHERS?? Happy?? =.=''