Saturday, September 02, 2006
Disappointed
Last nite made him opened the gift...He was shocked when he saw the cranes...He said thanks n said i'm soo sweet to do all these for him...Bt haish i dun feel happy at all...Cos he lazy to find some of the words so bo bian have to give him the sentence instead. Yep quite anti climate la..people put in soo much effort into it, cut this cut that, paste this paste that..and yet he like this..like dun appreciate it...Somemore i almost cut my finger lo...Ok i understand he very tired so asked him to continues finding the words tomorrow morning...N guess wad he said?? He said: Dun wan, i dun like this kind of game...Last time like but not now...Like hello?? where got people like that one? It's darn hurting to heard that lo...Can't he at least do it for the person who really put in soo much effort into it?? I dun regret doin all this..Like wad geradine said as long as euu got the heart to do it, he will be touched and appreciate it..In the end?? K la...maybe he really very tired. Bt also cannot like this wad...i also very tired last nite..wanna go sleep..but still waited for his call till 2.30?? Haish maybe he very sian N not in the mood to play this..? Maybe the game to childish for him le?? Maybe he's a guy tat's why like tat?? Den plus the stress tat his is having (school work) ?? K la enough of my excuse for him le...the fact is he can't be bother to find the words. Haish trying ways to comfort myself is soo hards...in the end still back to square one...-.-'' aniwae din ask him to write the words down on the stars cos i noe it's useless...Thought he will be happy when he received this gift, bt i can't feel that he is happy about it...maybe he hide his feeling cos he's too tired le?? Wana ask him about his feeling but i already no heart to ask about it...Haish think of it 1 time make me sigh one time onli...
Feeling a bit happy, a bit sad bt very disappointed. Who can understand my feelings??
I dun blame him..really...i believed he himself also dunno he had said the wrong thing...-.-'' and dunno hw hurtful it is...nvm who ask him soo blur one...-.-'' tat's one thing i dislike about him...must someone tell him then he will noe about it -.-'' bt tat's like too late liao...
Aniwae really wan to thank my kor for comforting mie last nite...heh!! keep making mie laugh when he noe tat i almost cried -.-'' bt still i'm feeling disappointed about it..really...Bt thanks aniwae...=)
Sian…cannot see my sweetheart..miss him a lot!!
Friday, September 01, 2006
A gift for Calvin
Stupid Donkey!! Called mie at 1.30am and i'm already asleep le...bt still holding the phone on my hand waiting for his call...yep was awake by the vibration this time =) Cancel his call and roll on my bed before getting up to call him back using my house phone...guess wad?? when i called tat time he already off his phone go sleep le..!! Stupid...So fast off phone..and stupid mie shouldn't have rolled here rolled there...-.-'' Ya la...rolled until people off phone go zZzZ liao...*sobsb* Nvm...today gona see him again..wee!! gonna pass him his Teacher's Day Gift...yep was busy folding crane, cutting, wrapping etc for the whole morning and afternoon...and of cos taking photos of it...haha!! Yep took mie 2 hours to fold 28 cranes...yep total fold him 40 cranes...cos must fold nice nice ma..tat's why take sooo long...The cranes soo nice lor...soo colourful...
Yet put the cranes into the cup....Den used grey colour paper to write letter...Then draw star shape on yellow paper and started cutting the stars out...Then stick the star shape on the letter...yep he is require to write something on each different star...And the words tat he gonna write is from mie....Yep he have to find the 9 words in the gift...9 different words are placed at different places...yep like treasure hunt...haha!! yep this 9 words is a continuous message in the letter... 3 words are hide in 3 different cranes..yep man man zhao.!!...got 40 cranes...=x Den another word is hide under the cover, Then one on top of the cover bt is totally blend into the picture...Den another word can be found inside the box while another word can be found under the box...den another one can be found on the outer surface of the cup while another one can be found under the cup...heh!! Good luck to him le...Through this...we can conclude how observant he is..haha!! Told this to geradine and she's like laughing about it...
Words found on crans
Word found on the cover
Word found under the box 
Word found inside the box
Word found under the cup
Word found under the cover
Word found outside the cup
Rolled the letter and tie it using a ribbon...Place it inside the cup together with the colourful cranes...Den placed them back in the box...Wrapped it with newspaper...haha!! 5 layers of newspaper...=x den wrapped it with a nice wrapping paper...=D he gonna struggle mie...=x Bt never mind la..can be open and tear easily one...=)He is not going to open it until he is told to do soo...haha!! Can give him some clue ma...=) yep gonna ask him open it at midnite...which is after his revision...and before he go and sleep...=)
Letter
Letter and Cranes inside the cup
Original product:
Hmm...wad can i comment about this gift?? hmm...it's not an expensive gift..it's just a few bucks gift...heh!! bt lots of effort are put into it...Especially when folding the cranes...Lots of time taken and must have the heart to fold it..If not the outcome won't be nice..the cranes will be out of shape...can't even stand on the table one..Hope tat he will treasure this teacher's day gift...He better use the cup if not i gona hamtam him le..think until my braincells also die le...den finally decide to buy him a cup..can use ma...Bt he better dun break the cup...Break the cup= Break my heart Zhen yang shuo ye shi xue shen de yi fen xin yi ma...Not for other reasons..
Hmm...if euu have realised i will always buy gift for my tutor instead of my school teachers..Cos if euu buy gift for every single teachers, it will be very costly...Bt if euu buy gifts for some teachers is like darn bad lor...cos euu din buy for the others...unless tat teacher is special to euu..for example Mr Samuel Sng...haha!! Bt then i will not make so many tricks la..later mati arhx...=x Just a simple gift will do...Last time i bought a bear for my tutor...yep placed the bear inside a box ...den got sweets and chocolate surrounded the bear...she's like soo touched until she cried?? So scary lor...i noe she touched la..bt no need cry leh..scared mie onli...=x
Had a nightmare just now (afternoon)...Dreamt about geradine ker...yep this nightmare really really very scary...i dun wan to say it out..it's very horrible...I almost shi qu ta zhe ge peng you...sweat a lot and was feeling very warm...wake up and get myself a cup of water...feeling much better after that though the feeling is still there...almost cried bt din...only tears abit...First time dream until like tat...told jessica about wat i dreamt and she can still laughed at it...-.-''
*SobSob* Xuan Xuan fly back to hong kong le...soo sad lor...in the end din get to see her..bleh!! Yep jessica and her friend send xuan xuan to the airport...And this jessica keep telling mie abt xuan xuan holding her shoulder and take pictures...den she got the same name as xuan xuan..cos xuan xuan name also call jessica..!! Watever!! U stop making mie jealous can!! Marmie very heartbroken le!! Enough is enough!! First is heartbroken about mr sng..now euu come tell mie abt xuan xuan do this do tat...Made mie even more heartbroken..BoHoO!! Aniwae thanks gurl...thanks for helping mie to develop one of her nicest photo!! =D when can i have it?? I'm desparate for it...haha!! She soo pretty and cute...and look cheeky too.!! haha...
Wee!!! Soo happy!! My Sweet guy [Kwon Sang Woo] from korean will be coming to singapore tomorrow!! I'm soo darn crazy about him when i knew tat he's coming tomoro..His acting skills is darn good...!! The best actor in my heart [korean]. Love him ever since i watched the drama series "stairway to heaven". AHhH!! was darn happy when i read the monday newspaper...Share it with geradine cos she love him also..heh!! in the end she say i mad le...cos she say i worse than her...=x Haish but still i can't go see him...Stupid!! If not becos of my prelim i confirm go see him one lor...i'm dying to see him in real life...ahh!! my sweetheart *fainted* Haish just how many times must my heart break?? my heart really break until dun wan to break le... On thursday cannot see Mr sng...den heartbreak le...Den yesterday cannot see Xuan Xuan...den break again...Now?? Knowing tat he's coming to singapore for the first time...i'm darn happy and crazy about it bt still haish...cannot see him..there goes my heart again...*bOoHoOo!! WAN to cry le la!! Stupid!! Why can't he come to singapore at the end of the year?? Na bu shi mei shi le lor..at least my heart won't break until like tat...Somemore he Monday nite going off le...*sob*
Reaching Time: 9am
Flight: SQ151
Staying: ritz carlton 6 star hotel
Flying back:10.35
Flight:OZ752
Kwon Sang Woo
My laogong: Cat
My [Dream] Prince: Calvin
My Sweetheart: Kwon Sang Woo
My Darling: Mr Samuel Sng
*Missing every single one of them*
Why!! Why! Why soo many days he dun come..why must he come on tomorrow?? Why must it be before prelim?? NVM!! I believed he will come to sinapore again...I Confirm will Go!! Bleh!!
O by the way..i will go Face Shop to buy things le..!! Hee!! Thought i dun like him le..bt now i noe im still crazy about him..i'm gona go Face shop to buy things...Must support him ma!! =D heh!! ker dun think i dunno wad euu think...!!saying i'm mad again rite??=xbleh!! Honestly speaking...Both Xuan Xuan and him really made mie crazy when i noe tat they are coming to singapore..Now i finally understand why whenever jessica's favourite actress coming to singapore..she will be darn crazy and happy...heh!! This is wad happening to mie liao...I noe i will be darn nonsense and crazy for the next 2 to 3 days...so qing duo duo yuan liang =x
Thursday, August 31, 2006
Happy Teacher's Day
Sian!! Holidae is like no holiday for us...everyday have to come back for lesson..Have to come back for Biology, Chemistry and account...Below is a photo of our bio shedule...-.-''
Monday- Bio lesson (1.30 - 2.45)
Tuesday- Bio lesson (8.00 - 9.15)
Wednesday- Account lesson ( 9.30 - 11.00)/Chemistry (11.30 - 1.00)
Thursday- Biology (8.00 - 9.30)/Account lesson (9.30-11.00)/Chemistry (11.30 - 1.00)
Friday- Chemistry (11.30 - 1.00)
Went to school to celebrate Teacher's Day...yep Combined class with darling class...5MM..=) Had a crazy morning..and yep had a heavy breakfast as a class...=.='' Gonna be fat le..*sobsob* Got fried Chicken, Potato salad, cookies, agar agar, orange juice, potato chip =) yep potato chip as breakfast...sound funny yea?? haha!! Genervive la...dunno why she brought soo many packet of ruffles/rays...as if we having pinic like tat..=x lolx...in the end she have to bring back...cos we only open 1 packet...
Well..took lots of photos with my clique and my part time clique...lolx!! soo funni lor..den take quite a number of photos with teachers.!!! Took with Mdm cheng, Slyvia wong, Mrs Ang, Mrs Shanker, Mrs Low and Mrs Leong...whoohOO!! Then first time see Mrs Leong and Mdm chen wear until soo nice lorr!! Why they dun wan to wear like tat for tat photo taking!! Heh!! pei us wear white colour ma rite?? First time take photos with teachers =) Heh!! feel soo weird..tat's why i dun really look natural in the photos lah!! haha...SHY MA..=x Bt if take photos with Mr sng..i confirm not shy one..cos heh!! quite close with him ma...Always help him do thing...Always ask him question...=)
Dun talk about Mr sng le la...soo sad lor..he din come back..maybe he working ba..haish!! Aniwae wanna wish him a HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY...he's the best..Forever and ever...=D Got him and Calvin as my teacher and tutor can le..other teacher..haha nvm one..=x Den stupid lor...wad Teacher Caring Award...make mie think of mr sng lor...Yesterday had depression about him le..Then suddenly give award to those caring teacher...make mie heartbroken only...If Mr Sng in this school..he confirm will get the award again..yep he always get it every year...The most caring teacher in STC!! haish..this year cannot see him go stage and get the award..*sobsob* yep was wishing tat he will pop out and give us a surprised...bt den haish...
whooHoO!! Wanna Gong Xi Mrs Leong Mrs Ang and Mrs Low ...both of them received the award!! They deserved the award also..bt tat Mrs Elangoban and Mrs Gomesh?? JI LA KA lor..they dun even deserved the award...!! They where got caring...Elangoban still ok la...bt mrs gomesh?? A teacher who look down on Normal Academic Student...call caring arhx?? Humph!! nvm...Mr Sng still the best!! He Rawk...Got Mr Samual Sng can le..
Tat stupid minnie dare to say...ehh?? euu trying to snatch Mr Sng from Natasha arhx?? Like hello?? I like him ever since sec 3 lor...Natasha like him is like sec 4?? Plus Mr sng taught mie for 2 years liao!! Heh!! She should say Natasha trying to snatch from mie...-.-'' Wah liew...last year they still dare give my Mr sng a flying kiss...PUI!! Then still sprayed perfume before english lesson -.-'' Kao!! Trying to seduce my Mr sng...Never!! haha!! mie not jealous bt feel very disgusted by it...and i love mr sng as a teacher...dun anyhow think...My Mr Sng already married le...Somemore got baby sng le.!! OMG!! SOO CUTE!!
Had a small competition with mrs leong and other classmates...haha!! was forced to finished up all the potato salad..cos dun waste food ma...so mrs leong pull us into the group and asked we all to finish up the food as much as possible within 1 minutes...haha!! soo funni lorr...everyone eat until the mouth got myonnaise...=x Heh!! Then mie and mrs leong fight for tomato in the salad..!! Stupid leh she...ask mie dun snatch from her...like should be another way round leh...SoOO sad...Jessica not around if not she confirm will like it one...haha!! cos She love mrs leong ma..heh!!
Went to Tiong bahru to eat...Bt the main reason is to shop for gift..haha.!! Went to griller to eat...Order a plate of Fish and chip town which cost mie $7.90 (excluding GST and Service Charge)...Minnie ordered spagetti and mushroom soup...Jessica ordered a plate of Chicken chop and jermaine ordered a set meal of ?? wanna eat Ice cream..bt very expensive...$4.80 lor...Bt really wan to eat lorr..it looked delicious =) haish in the end never eat...cos expensive ma...heh...Basically, everything cost up to $45 plus...Wonderful rite?? By right they should give us discount lor..if not because of us...there won't be any costumer coming in lor..when we go in tat time the workers are over there slacking..After we came...more students came in den followed by adults...So must thank us ma...We helped them attrract customer =x
Went to shop around Tiong Bahru Plaze and guessed wad?? we saw a lot of white clothes this time..dunno wad happened la...tat time shop all is mainly black..now we shop are all mainly white..-.-'' Then OMG!! i saw a black top very nice!! i wan to buy...!! Very stylish...!! Then also saw a white top..is darn nice lor!! My friends says is nice also!! I dun care le..i gonna save up money to buy tat white top..!! $ 35.90!! Hope got discount...haha!! Aniwae Can wear tat for my graduation day ma...Den also match my tat white skirt...=) Won't regret of buying it..cos i LOVE IT!! it's sooo nice!! *Jessica!! i gonna buy it...do euu wan??* Die...this year really spend a lot of money...yep...especially these 3 mths...-.-''
Was touring the whole shopping centre...looking for gift...haish!! soo hard to find a nice *** After soo much of consideration, i had finally bought a *** at Precious Thots...Took a few photos of it...bt will upload it only after this weekend...Later someone see it...and this jessica is sooo ke ai and gong...i think she mixed too much with auntie le...tat salesgirl is soo young and pretty...and she call her auntie -.-'' I corrected her and she made her mistake again and again...luckily tat salesgirl is rather friendly...so she din get offended...=) If not i run away first...-.-''
Dunno why also..the moment i went to Precious Thots, mood started to change...yep was thinking about the past...yep saw the bear bear displaying near the window...make mie think of him... the him is refering to adrian...Last time went there with him ma...den he Noe i love tat bear...cos it's really very cute...he asked mie if i realli wan it...if so he will buy for mie...haha!! bt i dun wan cos very expensive ma..not worthy...wan him to save money...was telling tat to jermaine and she's like =.='' euu arhx...dun wan him le still think abt the past -.-'' haish..euu Noe something call as if i wan to think?? heh!! dun wan think too much le..it's over le...only can be memories onli...
Bought a packet of Mochi home...and it cost mie $2...inside got 4 different type of flavour...got dou sa, peanut, yam and grentea...heh!! Enjoyed eating it...gonan buy it again!! asking my papa help mie buy =)
Wooo!! Saturdae coming soon...Gonna go cut my hair le..getting messy le...especially behind...curl until dunno what..!! ehh...not very curly nt a bit of curl which i dun like...pek cek...!! Gonna cut as short as possible..dun care nice or not nice le =x Just wana keep it short...den after Novemeber 20 will go cut hair again...maybe go trim my hair instead...den graduation day tat time just nice...not too long not too short =)
Heh!! Just wish Calvin a "Happy Teacher Day." Think he get a shocked ba..haha!! So sad lor..timing not right...he went toilet when i called him at 12am...-.-'' So in the end i sms him instead..haha!! But then he got called back la..And this was wad he said "Think euu are the first and last person to wish me Happy Teacher Day"...Which i dun think soo..uh huh...
LoVe ThIs pHoTo [TrYiNg To AcT dAo]
My Co-Form and Form Teacher
Photo Taken With Mrs Low [Geo]
Photo taken with Mrs Shanker (Eng) 
Photos Taken with Miss Sylvia Wong [Sec 3 Bio]
Photos taken With Mrs Ang [Lower Sec Eng] 
[More to go...Might upload some other days]
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
English Prelim
BoOHOo!! soo touched!! haha...my dear brother sms mie just to ask mie if i wan dinner...cos he near my area...heh!! bt i never say i wan to eat la..plus i already finished my dinner le...This brother really treat mie like xiao mei mie lor...=.='' Tat time asked mie to be guai guai..must study hard den after O level he treat mie dinner -.-'' Rite!! Even if he never asked mie to study hard, i will also force myself to study de...Especially math..dun wan disappoint him...=) haish..just hope tat i won't make anymore careless mistake le...sigh...Haish!! had my english prelim today..It's soo darn horrible k...early in the morning kana shouted by Mr yeo...ehh...Not shouted at mie..Bt the whole class...cos assembly was rather long...Lower secondary was scolded by principal...ya lo..happily la..Paper start at 8am...And by the time we go to class already 8am liao..den Mr yeo over there keep shouting asking us to hurry etc...
Paper 1 part 1 was rather difficult...Paper 1 part 2 also very chim (Report)..but still managed to write...at least easier than paper 1 part 1...yep was stoning at the questions for 5 mins (part 1)...heh!! dunno which one to choose ma...wanna do recount bt den dunno what to write abt it...so in the end do Question 1...About "Do you agree" etc...Haish think i will fail my part 1 norr...i write very short...den also not much point inside...haish...Then my paper 2 summary also die liao..The words is like soo darn hard to change...so darn hard to link!! I hate it..at least mid year paper is better..still Noe how to change and link...This time is totally sux!! Haish...dun even need dream of getting into 3 months JC...yep...alot of my classmates also said tat..fail English prelim...no need go le...
So idiot la!! Classes next door is making soo much noise when we are doing paper 1...Somemore got music lor...Then mr yeo was like soo irritated!! den he bang the door!! like wan to fight like tat...He also dumb one lor...dunno how to go next class and asked them to stop the music is it?? Why must bang the door to signal them tat they are very noisy?? He's making it worse lor...add noise onli...Like as if he go next class then we will start to talk and copy each other work like tat...=.=''
whooo!! can't wait for tomorrow...!! Gonna haf halfday!! Den no lesson somemore..haha!! Celebrating teacher's day ma...Gonna go school slightly earlier...Dun wan like today..almost late arhx!! 2nd time lor..almost late!! If one day i really reach school late i will be darn pissed off k...Cos never in my life late for school...Always go school on time one...I dun wan my name to appear in "late comer" book...*humphs!!*
heh!! got dance tomoro..the dance step abit retarded la...haha...taken from the syf 06 one..yep my school participate syf this year..and they gonna make us dance tomorrow...nvm teachers gonna dance also...well..it wasn't hard to learn the dance step..at least graduating classes took 2 PE lessons to learn?? Quite smart already k...?? Cos we din participate SYF...onli secondary 1 to 3 onli...haha!! Gonna see baowei dance...yep tomorrow will be the last day to see her funny dance...=.='' Bt also no eyes to see la..haha...Yep there are people who do not want to go school tomorrow..bt becos of baowei, some of them decided to come..cos see her dance can really make euu laugh...Pe lesson we already see until we peng on the floor [as a whole class]...
Heh!! tomorrow gonna have our breakfast with teachers..lolx..yep decided to combined food with 5MM...our darling..!! duno why also...5J (my class) and 5MM class are soo united...The ties is super strong and steady...Even class tee shirt also wan to combined..tat mean 2 classes wil be wearing the same tee shirt...Not like express class...always alone as a class one...must like us ma.."bonding"...haish dunno why teachers always love to separate these 2 classes...like photo taking...purposely put at different day one...i Noe when these 2 classes together will produce a lot of noise la..bt den they should be happy tat we are soo united what...aiYoO! locate classroom also purposely go separate us from one end to another end...Go see our darling in 5mm also need to walk...-.-'' Teachers soo heartless...=x
Haish think of teacher's day...make mie think of mr sng...miss him a lot...i'm serious..yep miss him more than calvin...Wondering he will be going to stc and visit us a nt...haish...hope can see him tomorrow...half year din see him le lorr....I WAN HIM!!! (T.T)
Monday, August 28, 2006
Known each other for 3 mths
Read adrian's blog...yep he told mie tat he update his blog a few days ago..and asked mie to see if i wan to...Just went in and see and yep regreted going in...haish...Why is he treating mie soo nice?? Why is he still concerned about mie at this very moment?? And why did he seemed to love mie even more than those days?? Why Why and Why?? Yep i did feel guilty about what i did to him..bt tat's not the reason why i dun give him a chance...Honestly speaking..i have no idea what i did is right or wrong...yep...calvin asked mie to asked my feelings for him *adrian*. Then deal it separately from the issue of my feelings for him *calvin*...Don't mix them..and soon i will get a clear answer...And yep i got a answer for it...He's not the guy tat i want...He's not the guy who i can share my problems with...If we are to continue...all sort of violence will occur =x Yep a gurl who is super patient, also has her own limit for everything...Extracted from adrian's blog:
8) I worries for her.Reason:
A girl knows how a girl think/feel so does a guy knows how a guy think/feel. A girl is most vunerable/open for weaknesses and used by a guy when the guy knows the girl has feelings/likes/love him. Therefore the guy could make use of chances to make the girl die in whatever ways willingly for him in his hands, meaning in his control. Of cuz no one is that stupid to make it happen so soon. It's just the right moment and the right place. God!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE!!!! LET IT BE ME! let it be me thats worries for nothing! dun let my feelings be true! I know i love the feelings whenever i say the person is true but not now! NOT this event!
God please protect her. She's not mature enough look after herself. Let no harm come to her. And please if she's ever going to be with any guy, let the guy be pure hearted and do no harm to her. She's too good to be dirtied by filthy dirty guys.
To: adrian
Need not worry for mie...i promised i will take good care of myself..and hey!! my friends will take care of mie too =) though it seem like i'm always the one taking care of them =x yep..i will take lots of precaution when i'm hanging out with a guy etc...yep i learned quite a lot from euu..Eg: wad the guys is thinking, how fake and how good can they be etc...i will never forget it de...=) euu too take good care of urself..dun mixed too much will those bad company yea?? You should know who i'm refering to...and HEY!! although i dun wish to talk to euu on the phone...bt euu can always tag mie yea?? Anything just tag mie lor..i will reply de...=)
OMG!! i hate account!! yep i love acount bt i hate account lesson...it's soo darn boring.!! Yep about to fall asleep during account lesson...all thank to mr poon...haha!! the moment he open his mouth SI ARHX!! can chui mian wo..=x plus the room soo cold...make mie feel like sleeping...haish die liao..tomorrow got 2 free periods...bt yep mr poon gonna take it...hopefully afternoon no need to stay back for his lesson ba..if not can die arhx...3 periods of account =x
hehee!! think i'm beginning to love math...duno why also..suddenly soo motivated for math...Now go for math lesson never sleep le..haha!! Instead i feel energetic..lolx...It brighten up my days...Love miss wong now..haha!! Her teaching skills improved liao..no longer as boring as before...Cos we doing revision ma...nt teaching new topic...
Had a boring lesson after that...food and nutrition...fnN was never boring...onli today..yep my teacher was on MC...so we were thrown to mdm lim...yep minnie's fnN teacher...wah!! thanks goodness oral finished already...can't stand the way she speak...will never forget the day when she pronouns the words "dessert as lizzard", "dustbin as lustbin", "section as secson"...yep was figuring wad she trying to say =x very long din listen to her out of tune language etc...Listened until i fall asleep in class...!! yep fall asleep until i dun even noe shi hui seduced mie...until minnie told mie abt it...(x_x)''
Jermaine was telling mie abt her problem..wah!! for once she telling mie about her problem sia..lolx..then this minnie trying to tou ting us..haha!! But nothing to hide also...The reason why she choose to tell mie is i can understand how she feel... Yep there is nothing for mie to comment about it...cos wad is done is undone...
To:Jermaine
I dunno you will come in and see my blog a not...But what i wanna tell euu is that there is nothing euu can do about it beside having heart to heart talk with ur daddy...tell him how euu feel about her...and if can..do accept her..erm..it's hard to accept her and i strongly understand that euu will feel uneasy when she pick up the phone call..But there is really nothing euu can do about it...It take time...it's like mie accepting my brother's new girlfriend?? Yep i hate her in the past...bt what can i do about it?? I can't possibly hate her for the rest of my life?? As long as my brother truly love her and she truely love him..why not give them a chance?? Certain things is not within your control...If it comes, euu can't stop it..neither can ur daddy stop it...yep i get to understand this after one incident tat happened to mie...But let mie tell you this, the more you hate her and the more euu dislike her the more euu will get hurt and angry about it...You are just torturing urself...and by the time euu can accept her, euu will start to feel guilty abt the past [hating her etc]..yep if euu dun feel like telling ur feeling to ur daddy...why not telling it to ur brother?? Dun hide ur feeling to urself yea?? And do ring mie if euu need mie...=)
bOoHoO!! soo HapPi!! Yep known Calvin for 3 moths le..lolx..our monthly anniversary...haish!! soo pathetic horr...3 months onli..why not 3 years?? haha!! Can't wait to know him longer..dunno why also..haha..ok la i think i going crazy le..lolx..aiya sometime must also crazy crazy a bit ma...like tat den won't feel soo stress...
And yep..i know i really sot la..was darn happy tat he told mie tat he got ulcer lolx...yep was stunned in the first place den happy le...not i being bian tai or wad la..-.-'' cos i also got ulcer ma..haha!! Can't rmb when i get the ulcer bt was a few days ago...less than 4 days...yep he too..get ulcer for less than 4 days...=) Who knows we got it on the same day?? haha =x He copy cat one lorr..i kana ulcer at my lower lip...he also kana at lower lip..Then my ulcer is at the right side bt still near the centre...den his one also...=.='' COPYCAT!! bt nevermind la..i very happy =x The only difference is his ulcer is bigger while mine is smaller..gonna disappear le..hohoo!!
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Dreamt about him again!!
Heh!! finished up my O level June math paper le.!! score pretty well in paper 1...Paper 2 haven get the answer from my friends yet...yep got certain part i really dunno how to do..haha!! nvm i shall asked my math teacher...=) If not i shall approach Calvin...Yep Finished my paper 2 at around 1.20am...den kept all my stuff, wash up den listened to radio while waiting for his call =x Dun wanna miss his call again..stupid lorr...tat nite din feel the vibration...argh!! well...Wait wait wait...about 1.35am...decided to give him a call..yep dial his number liao..den hang up cos i wanna pack my bag first =x Packed finished le...wait again...was lying on the bed while waiting for his call..yep hold my phone tight...incase i fall asleep again..yep i fall asleep for a while..haha!! yep wake up at 2pm..den ok..decided to call him liao..and stupid donkey!! he sleep le -.-'' sad is sad la..bt what else can i say or do about it?? Yep off my phone and went to sleep in peace...lolxAnd guess wad?? i dreamt abt him again!! i dunno what kind of disease i'm having lah..almost everytime when he din call mie..i will dreamt abt him..never mind..isn't tat good?? at least can feel his presence =x OMG!! i'm being too thick skin liao..thanks to geradine =x yep tat time i dreamt abt him talking to mie on the phone..this time is dreamt about him telling mie tat he is drunk tat's why he din call mie..haha!! Also dreamt about vanessa and a guy...they went for DIVING!! OMG!! saw them in TV =x And this vanessa is soo shy...dun wan to look at the camera..lolx..yep then dreamt of calvin looking for them..bt failed...erm..can't really rmb everything about the dream...the dream is jumping here and there..haha!!
Been studying my chemistry for the whole afternoon...yep decided to take a rest...Went to my study table and took out a magazine "Teens" [June 2005]...Was looking at "twins" haha!! They soo cute!! Especially Charlene Chio!! Love her man!! But i still prefer one of the hong kong star "Xuan Xuan"..sooo sad lor..she going back to hong kong this friday le..haish...yep was scanning through the whole magazine..nothing really interest mie beside TWINS!! Then happened to turn to a page which really force mie to read it..hahaa...guess wad is it?? "How do you stop fighting with your partner??" yep decided to type everything out for you people to read it...cos it seemed like everyone around mie is in love with someone..Jess in love with Someone...den Vanessa start missing someone...Calvin in love with his senior...Geradine and Jeffery...So this entry might benefit to Jessica, geradine Vanessa and Calvin...=)
How To Avoid Conflict??
* Acceptance and understanding is crucial. Instead of trying to change your partner to suit your whim, think of what attracted you to your partner in the first place and give him or her space to develop his or her interests and talents. Respecting your partner's time and space shows you respect your partner as a person.
* Ask yourself if your demands or tantrums are reasonable. Often we get angry and upset at our partners for no reason at all, but just to pick a fight because we feel like it. Girls are especially guilty of this when they are going through PMS. They become cranky, needy and emotional. Think instead of blowing your top, cool off before talking rationally to your partner.
*Never take your partner for granted. Don't assume you can bully your partner by shouting or venting your frustatrations on him or her without any consequence, just because they don't shout back. Everyone has a breaking point, and it is unreasonable to subject your partner to verbal abuse and expect him or her to just stomach it all.
* Listen and compromise. Sometimes it is inevitable that you and your partner will clash over certain issues. However, this does not mean it is the end of the road for your relationship. By learning to meet each other halfway, both of you can come away from the argument feeling like you won something. Compromise also requires a lot of understanding and acceptance. Instead of always imposing your views on your partner, allow your partner to share his or her side, and then make a decision together.
* Share your thoughts and feelings as openly and honestly as possible to avoid miscommunication, as these often breed mistrust and insecurity. Talk to your partner about your feels and let him or her know exactly why you feel upset. Getting angry and throw tantrums only makes matter worse as no one knows why you got angry in the first place.
Well, if two people love and respect one another and are willing to make sacrifices for each other, then a loving and fulfilling relationship is definitely attainable. With some patience, understanding and proper communication, you have the relationship you've always dreamed of with the boy or girl of our dreams.
Causes of Conflict:
*Lack of trust
Trust is crucial in any relationship, and when there is a lack of trust between partners, conflicts are bound to arise. Trust is earned. For example, if you constantly are out with people of the opposite sex and don't your partner know about it, or lying about it, your partner is bound to feel insecure and jealous. Don't expect them to trust you when you say you are "just going out with your friends" after that. And please note that once you have lost your partner's trust, it'll be difficult to ever regain it.
*Lack of communication
Communication is not just talking. Problem is that many couples don't realised this. Communicating is going beyond talking about trivial things. It is more than telling your partner about what you bought or what you had for lunch. Rather, it's revealing your inner feelings and expectaions about relationship, and really listening to what each other has to say. True communication takes patience and honesty.
*Trying to change your partner
Remember the things you liked about boy/girlfriend before you actually became a couple? Perhaps you fancied his passion for music or you liked the way she seemed to be so independent. Now it seems like all the things you once liked about him or her annoys you. You can't stand it that he wants to jam with his friends, or hate it when she goes out with her friends without you. The bottom line is that you want him or her to be a totally different person- the person you want them to be, not the person that he or she is.
Oftentimes, people feel angry and resentful when their partners try to change them, because they feel they cannot be themselves or pursue their own interests. They have to do the things that their partners likes, even if it makes them feel unhappy.
*Unequal Expectations/ opposing values
The chief cause for conflicts in a relationship is when two persons do not see eye to eye on issues or do not have the same value system. This can range from simple things like where to go for dinner. Or perhaps you feel like taking the relationship to a deeper, more serious level, but your partner seems only interested in having a little bit of fun for a while. When two persons cannot view the relationship on the same level, someone is bound to feel hurt or disappointed because his or her partner doesn't see the relationship in the same way they do.
wah!! Soo long!! hand tired le..lolx..aniwae it's worthy la...type one entries on this...can benefit 5 people...haha!! Good luck for your love life =)